if god gives me a chance at death
i will take it

after a certain age
even your mother won't wipe your tears
you should do it on your own
so do it on your own

when does it end?
does it really end ?
how long will you hurt me and act like i hurt you
why cant you notice i am same as you
my feelings do get hurt like yours
my eyes do get tears like yours
you were supposed to protect me
but how did you end up hurting me the most
do you even ever realize you are hurting me
do you even care?
why should i act like a parent to you
when you were supposed to be mine
why should i heal you from the scars
that i never was never part of
why should i take the blame for your mistakes ?
why cant i just be a happy child ?
why ?

how can i not cry ?
how can i not cry ?
when the pain is in my throat  and
tears are in my eyes
and the thoughts in my brain are telling me to die
how can i not cry ?
when all i see is the dark sky
and when my life is not mine
how can i not cry ?
when your harsh words break my heart
and when nobody is standing to defend me
how can i not cry ?
so please tell me how to not to cry

i just have you in my head
but i desperately want you in my bed

you are indelible how can i ever tell you this
how can i ever be anyone's
when even in my imagination
you are haunting me
the memories are haunting me
you are just too well tangled in my soul
the memories are just indelible

i think if you miss me hard
i can feel it in my heart