he was the storm
he was my fire
he was the wave
of pain.

he was my calm
the deafening quiet
stripped of my bones
i hang.
i can be strong
i will outrun him
i will win
his game.

There is no way you could love me if you knew me.
It is not possible to be so self-inflicted
These wounds you dig yourself
But your blood is under my nails.
There is no way you could love me
Love this disease that is in my head
Selfish, consumingly distain my mind
Don’t kiss my scars
You’re only opening them again
Don’t tell me they will heal
Because time has never been my friend.
Don’t love me.
Don’t destroy yourself like this.
Don’t let me do this to you.
Leave while there is still color in your mornings
And cramping smiles in company.
Leave while you can still taste food
While you still have a reason to be awake.
Don’t let me ruin you.

Hello my name is...
Girl, child
and I've been stereotyped,
by what society wants,
Because they pull me and taunt,
at what I deserve,
they just want our curves,
So hello my name is...
Girl, child
and I've been stereotyped.

7:30 am
windows
letting
through sun
must get out
and play
or just to
walk
in its rays

Life is just a fantasy
In the light of day
But in the dark of night
That's when my demons come out to play
They whisper and fester
Beneath my skin
They tell me I'm worthless
That I'll never win
They fight all the light
And drag out the darkness
All my pain is renewed
My sorrow and my sickness
They hide behind my eyes
While my life passes me by
But when I'm quiet at night
They're always nearby
To tell me I'm nothing
And to keep me contained
To shake me and break me
While I'm still chained
By my past insecurities
And deepest fears
My demons are my life at night
And have destroyed all I hold dear.