Sky is clear
Then twilight is here
Stars are falling

The things I cared
Also the things I scared
All reflected in my tear

Still need to pick up this heart
Though it is covered with pain
Stick it back if it falls apart
For tomorrow, I ought to live again

Everyone can be bad
Everyone can be kind
It's only them who choose which
And only they know why

Him...
that put sorrow in his eyes
Make it sparkle a bit like glass marble
Heavy eye lids, and wet lashes
His pupils turn deep black
And I was immersed inside
I felt as if we are
At the end of rain where sun slowly
peaking over grey clouds
Those last tiny sprinkles
Refract a faint colourful arch
Our breaths are still misty
Yet we are gradually warmed

Wishing for somebody who can accept me at my worst
Know I am not perfect but I hope you see worth

My eyes don't dream
This self wouldn't want
Should I let you know that
For me to desire you
I need to split the world apart
and make you reside only in my heart
However,
that moment I know I have fallen in love
but to be with you, it's likely a dream that turns into a curse

Walking along my way of life here
Suddenly the wind greet me by
blowing my hair away from my ear
I halt to listen its slow whisper
Then it left me grinning with the message
"the rain is near"

Not to go on, my elbow rests on the cold long steel railing
and there I wait for the time being
Gazing far away to the endless sky
As if looking for the cloud that will eventually cry

Arriving, the tiny droplets land on my bare face
The rain starts pouring
Ah again I feel this bitter taste
I end up weeping

Only when it is rain that if you cry it would not show
If you are sad, you are not alone
The rain accompanies you

My clumsy self...
What have you done?
Look at those regrets, all you had made
See how I unable to bear
The weep of the eyes
and pain of the fear

My poor heart...
What had happened?
It's so empty inside
and your light darkened
What had you put in there
that seemed to be taken

Zeal burns like the fire
Then it becomes sparks that floating in the air
I think I can win with my great desire
However it loses against despair

All the pieces inside me is screaming
They cry for something...
I'll take forever to give

I feel that our time had paused
On the moment  we bid farewell
Then we live apart by far distance
And long duration
As the time flies
And the world is turning
Suddenly we reunite
Though in my memory you're still a friend of mine
But you who I meet now
Is a stranger of future

A decision I made
But it is not solely mine
And the future awaits
for that route I trudge
Then, it is only the matter of time
From that base, what could it becomes?

Bravery
For that he has nothing to fear
Courage
That though he is afraid, he still choose to fulfil the responsibility he bear

I put all my hopes up before the morning
And I woke up still dreaming
It's possible, it's possible
I chanted
But the the spell wore out
Everything cracks and crumbles
What's left is a wet wound
Dripping blood stains my road back home
What should I do? What would this be?
I stare beyond the stars into the wonder
There is nothing left in my power

I surrender to You in both fear and hope
But fear dominates more
That my hope is fading away
I'm scared to live as much as dying
I feel guilt in happiness
And sometimes I tremble upon joy
I'm jealous of others smile
Though I knew they had their pain too
I feel the worst of myself
I ashamed.... I'm not good nor enough

Even a messy paint can be an art
When the value shines over its colour
Even in the worst we can make a new start
When you put your hope as a humble believer

I know very well how happy it is
when getting something
But nothing here is ours to own
I end up being afraid of 'having'
Cause at some point of time
It will be taken back from me
As it has never been mine

I went facing a mirror
Meeting the image solely of my own
"is this how I am seen by others?"
Staring at this self that I  thought I had known

It started to get interesting
When a lot of myself for me was new
Then you told me our stories and how we had been
So actually this self of mine long had you knew
Better than myself that you even saw me through

I wondered...am I the one who deaf
or is it just me being too loud
I barely notice how is my voice sound
Where could has I abandoned this self
That, now, it has lost that I found

Standing out of circle
It's the place that I once thought
Would accept me
But now it seems like they don't want to
I hoped here I could reside and be
Alas, no they say. Oh what should I do?
In the end,
I will be left
in the land that makes poetry inside me

There is nothing wrong in wishing
for something foolish and fleeting
Just that reality has always put us on tight spot
between dreaming and awaking

O wind
Can you come blowing
Into my hug, caressing
Pass through these cracks of my broken soul
It feels like I am breathing
Despite this misery gradually growing
That this heart could no longer hold

There are MANY reason of dying
We are made to be destroyed... Eventually
Bone will break
Body will sick
Skin can be cut
And it bleeds
Pain will come
Health deteriorates
We are aging
We are dying
Under the ground degraded
And being uphold of our doings
Permanency is not applicable to things other than God
That's the reality
The days we are living currently
They are short-lived, just momentary
This phase will pass
This day shall pass
The year too pass
This life will pass
So don't worry as if this world is forever
It's seriously NOT
Don't stress out, everything will be over
The hardships
The challenges
The bad days
Even the war
So don't be anxious of future of this world
Stop wasting your time thinking of utopia

When everything happens in their life
Nothing does in mine
And just like that I envied the people
I didn't even know well enough
Perhaps I am just bad at luck
But now knowing luck doesn't work that way
I can let go of grudge and loathe
The luck I believe intertwined in fate
All the goods and bads are objectives
Meaning they always stay the way there been
What counts are our action
How we accept it? How we deal with it?
How we be grateful for it?
For the happiness and pain
For the luck, bad or good
And what are we become from all of these fateful situations
The day and life
Just another way
We are mold to be
The person we are now
If upon unlucky and tough days, we succumb to despair
And lost to depression
Then a loser we'll become
Sure it hard, to always greet hardship with a sincere heart and a smily face
That's way in those time of pain
Like all other times we encounter pain
We need a thing to hold on to, tightly
That's our pillar
Our belief