i'm addicted to skin
and touch

addicted to the closeness
the complete acceptance
of my body and soul

i know that in that moment
i am enough
i know that in that moment
i am exciting
worth their time

i want it to last forever
cause when the clothes are on
we're no longer together
there is no connection
ever

just momentary passion
instinctual
but conditional

i'm always so cold
and then i kiss your lips
and i'm warm and cozy

i thought you'd get old
but taking your sips
those lips
i feel drowsy

you let my body move freely
feel numb
i turn easy
and dumb

i'll want you
there will be no choice
you'll take me
you'll add my name to your list of toys

boys will be boys

all cause of my love for you
but there's no one else like you
i wish i had a clue
on how to stop loving you

i'd rather have a forever ever with you
you help me from feeling blue
your lips do
your sips do

my saviour
my cure

like a dandelion
you and i
the universe picked us up
and blew
so we said our goodbye's

flew away
you east
and i stayed

but i didnt get to fall to the ground and grow
i needed time till i could follow
and show
that im not hollow
i still have to wait till tomorrow

i wanna stay in the past
think about how we agreed
we would last

if only there was a spell i could cast
to keep me falling from the stem
live life like im in the past

but im falling down
life keeps moving
and the breeze keeps flowing

ill soon start growing

growing up

You went away
you didnt want to stay with me
Did i make it this way
or was it not meant to be

Oh I look out my window
see how the world moves.. on..
Guess life's bitter sweet.. like that huh?

I'm ******* done
I said it, i'm ******* done with you
Cause you wanted to run
and there was no stopping you

Oh no matter how it happened
I knew you would move.. on..
I just wasn't the one.. for you huh?

I can try
to forget your eyes
That day
they were telling lies
Your face
I could tell you didn't want me-didn't want me
I could tell

These words I will say
I will say till they come... true
Repeating everyday
just to feel like i'll live through the day

I am worth fighting for
I am worth the miles...the time...
When I love again
i'll be fine

smooth chapsticks to hide the biting scars on your lips
made by your anxious teeth
the red marks on your skin that are picked
by your anxious fingers
its hard for my conscious to just stop and sit
my thoughts running a million miles an hour
but i cant do anything
i dont have the power
i can try and go take a relaxing shower
there were i end up just sitting on the floor
her words echoing in my brain
calling me a *****

how does a person become so unfamiliar in minutes?
a body i used to know so well
still looking the same
but a face i've never known before
this person sitting just as close to me as always
to me is a stranger
i don't like being so close to strangers
i get this uncomfortable feeling
but he isn't one
i know this
yet i am uncomfortable
this aura and soul the connects with mine
this feeling in my heart of safety and comfort
now gone
like the face of your loved one has been blurred out
and you no longer know if it is them or not
like an infant being held by their parent then being given to be held by someone unfamiliar
and the baby weeps
how does a person become so unfamiliar in minutes?
can dark emotions transform you into someone else

I knew it in the beginning
and i know it now
i hear our souls singing
they're calling out to each other
they're meant to be together

each life time we try and try
i don't know if i'll ever have the pleasure of growing old with you
maybe each lifetime we're meant to say goodbye
maybe you breaking me is what i need
to climb life's mountains with my bare feet

or maybe you are the mountain
and i must keep climbing
fighting
trying

i used to see what my future holds for me
i don't know where my career would take me
i don't know where i'd wanna travel and see
i only knew you and me
i still hold on to that future
it was the only thing that gave me comfort
it gave me ease
knowing if i was with you i'd be happy no matter what

what a fantasy

what a delusion

i'd need to learn necromancy to bring back the love you had for me

what a wonderful solution