a familiar being
that i must have met before
one that my heart flutters for
the light that emits from inside
brightening up a room in an instant
a heart full of love just impossible to hide

a familiar soul my own must have crossed paths with
a soul so pure and kind
ones like those people call a myth
my heart calls for it
his laugh opened up my heart like a locksmith

this familiar feeling
this feeling of a home
like a foreshadow
for a home to be
this familiar being
loves me

throw my ego in a paper shredder
stick pins through my eardrums
you goblet of terror
take a bite out of my heart
let me feel my last pumps
the ****** of my existence
going out
in a
thump
my god you don't scare me
eat me
beat me
leave me
spit on me
i'm worthless **** to me too
not just to you

i sit in my room and wonder
how will everything change when i leave?
i know how things will happen for me.
my soul will condense and my heart will bleed.

but as i fly back into my city,
ill see all the lights flicker,
like fireflies,
so pretty.

and maybe ill be happy,
maybe ill feel like i can breath again
inhale the cold
finally fresh
air

escape
we’re all just trying to escape

milky smoke entering our lungs
sensations of relief and worry-less fun

until

you sober up

and life

has never felt more dull