My intuition flashes like a hot flair shot desperately into an empty sky
Where no one cast a seeing eye and I myself can only smell,
The charade a supernova a chemical shimmering sun
What seems to me to be the bitter sweet vapors of the powder of a gun
An empty thrill that builds atop  unspoken words that usher.
Beneath the glare and a quickened stare I take a liking
to the lightning striking, a sharp spike on the wrong side
of the mountain we’ve been hiking, to get that
Panoramic view of you I’ve been lusting so long after,
a ****** addiction for your airy laughter like
the parched summer air with wide banks cradling sensual water
Lapping at the sand, the firm grasp of a hot hand.
You still stand eyes blinking kiss me, mouth unmoving murmur miss me,
Heartbeat quaking behind the curtain of your chest yelling at me
To take a chance. Wearing silence so inviting I sense,
You’re a trap unset to catch, but you don’t know
You’ll love me yet. You step through the doorway,
I turn my head to my feet, I don’t need to see to feel
My intuition flashing like a hot flair shot desperately into an empty sky
Where no one cast a seeing eye and I myself can only smell,
the charade a supernova a chemical shimmering sun
What seems to me to be the bitter sweet vapors of the powder of a gun
An empty thrill that builds atop unspoken words that usher
Beneath the glare and a quickened stare I take a liking
to the lightning striking, a sharp spike on the inside of every vain
You’ve not a word spoken, and yet I know I will never be the same.

Brink sat on the edge as he always did.
Brink I asked.
Why sit there on the edge.
It is my place.
I could see what he told me was true.
Brink then fell over.
Fell said, here we go.
No more memory of misadventure.
For Brink was now dead.

Last night you said I love you
as the stars began to dim
and I know it's me you dream of
as you lay alone with him.
For he offers nothing to you
and there's nothing you would take,
cause you are mine forever
and it's me for whom you ache.
He may share your moments
but it's the moments shared with me,
that give you sweet release dear
and sets your feelings free.
So long you longed for someone
to let you live again,
so take from me my aching
as I take from you your pain.
For now I cannot hold you
as you belong to him,
but tonight I'll say I love you
as the stars begin to dim.

Have you ever had that feeling-
that feeling when a particular individual
catches your eye?
That squirm in your stomach
which, in horror, tells your brain to ACT NATURAL.
He’s just a boy
you’re just a girl.
Could it ever be...more?

Have you ever had that feeling-
that feeling when your phone springs to life in a whir of vibrations and light
and the name you wished to see
magically appears like shooting stars against a midnight sky?
A smile spreads unexpectedly
from the corners of your mouth
when he tells you to have a good day
and sounds like he genuinely means it.

However, enchanting as this may be
I’m afraid to invest in half-fantasies
that I’m not entirely sure are real,
but not totally confident they’re false...
My head over-analyzes everything you’ve ever said
even as I’m screaming “STOP.”
If this continues there will be nothing left of me;
just the shining image of you I’ve created.

They say, “if you’ve got nothing, you’ve got nothing to lose.”
They also say, “easier said than done.”
But I feel like taking a chance;
all I want is you.

This world is too obscure to live each day in darkness.
So welcome happiness into your being
and accept that heaven -or hell
isn’t that far away.
Suppress each feeling of disdain
and replace it with feelings of compassion.
Don’t leave words unsaid
because they usually end in regret
say it now.

Remember  you are not alone
life isn’t as confusing as you think it is
and everyone deserves a happy beginning;
don’t worry about the ending.

Rain pouring, pouring
Harsh words
I'm locked out.
Dizzy, cold
Sad, alone
You held me all night
Didn't let go
Rain, I don't mind
Incense clothes
You held me all night
The Devil's calling on my phone (he won't stop)
I gotta go...

am I awake
is this a dream
reality seems to me
awaking bright and shattering
things never what they seem

just like you
i can fake it
but i’ll send a message
across the sky
like meteor showers
floating by
i meant it then
i always will
i’ll bury you
beneath sandcastles
a secret like the
sand at night
a shooting star
you light up my mind

I thought I wanted you,
then I imagined I shouldn't.
I thought I needed you,
but then I knew I didn't.
I unmistakeably love you,
but now i hardly like you.
Maybe it is you...
maybe it's me.
Maybe things are as they should be.
Or maybe I'm merely an *******,
plagued with ambiguity.