1.)I am a terrible person, but I can be incredibly nice in the flip of coin
2.)I listen to what some people would say is weird
3.)I quite a sport cause I didn't feel passionate about it
4.)I have never kissed a boy (refer to #1)
5.)I am absolutely terrible at school
6.)I drink to much caffeine for someone my age
7.)I don't sleep like at all
8.)I have no life
9.)I read books a lot (refer to #8)
10.)I am ******* terrified of the world and what it thinks of me

Do you ever catch yourself not writing?
or dreading it?

its scary to think something you love
something you passionate about will be forgotten

that fear of losing that love

I crave the dark skies I had in my country life
where the stars would shine so bright
not like these artificial lights

I miss the noise of the night creatures
not the night life and laughter

I miss thoughts night when only the moon lit the night skies
thoughts skies I so often crave

its time for me to stop telling people I don't know what my future holds.I think I say I don't know what I want to be is because I don't want to hear there comments to say things like, "well don't you think that's a tough business?"
or worst of all "do you really think your cut out for it?"

my answer will be "yes its going to be hard but its my dream."
they will say "why don't you just find another dream?"

"because when you feel something in your soul that makes you smile, cry, and scream all at the same time. that's when you have to follow your dream."

so my friend, do you feel that deep in your soul? that feeling that makes you almost burst what do you do? do you ignore that? if you do, I almost  feel sorry for you. and to you that do, do it and feel it, and follow that feeling. its time to scream your dream from roof tops and mountain tops. dream my friends dream.

brothers
so different you would never believe they had the same mother
best friends
always looking out for one another
men
to see the world and call it there own
fathers
both grown, wives and children of there own
both together they grew, both  lived, they were always together almost one. until.
alone
one stands at the grave of the others
now they lay side by side forever just as they lived. together.

she walks eyes closed
the told her "open your eyes there a world to see"
"not yet" she says
"there are trees,  mountains, and birds, just open up and see"
"I'm not ready" she replied
"there is so much to see my dear, just open your eyes"
"its not time" she cried
"there is  a world to see, a world with everything to see"
"the time isn't now" she told
when she did opened her eyes for the first time, she told them all "sometimes you have to hear the world before you see it, and you have to wait. Because then when you do see it you know the world didn't have to wait but maybe you did."