You dragged me into deep waters
and made me lose interest in the light.
I'm addicted to your love
and you're dependent on mine.

I want to call,
I want you to send me things,
But you asked me not to.
I just want to be loved by you—

If I cried out loud every time I missed you,
I’d punch a hole through my throat and soul too.
If I tried to grasp how much I love you,
I’d die a thousand thousand times without scratching the truth.

What wounds me the most, what tears me apart,
Is not just her leaving, but why she’d depart.
Not hate, not a fight, not distance or time—
But that my love wasn't enough...
Feels almost like a crime.

And now I am haunted by all we could be,
By hugs that still echo,
By dreams lost at sea.
She walks with her pain, while I walk alone—
Heart full of love with nowhere to call home.

I fell in love with a star.
And as sad as it sounds.
She still visits me every night.
To hold and kiss at the dying light.
To love and dream with no bounds.

A thought or dream, no shape or form
Like watching a mighty storm through the window
Memories of lives that weren’t there
With places and people that didn’t share

Oh, Zeus, heal my calling
Send your thunder to ease my pain
The winds of your storm send me falling
Under the symphony of your power, I dream of seeing her again.

Está na sua natureza ser amada,
e na minha, amar.
Na humana, pecar,
e na divina, perdoar.
Na natureza do amor, machucar,
e na do tempo, curar.

I feel like I can see colors now,
As my world finds its missing piece.
From the depths of my soul, I vow
To cherish you with every heartbeat.

You are engraved in my heart,
Written deep within my soul,
Marked upon my very being—
In my life, you are the goal.

Whisper me your sins, let me taste them whole,
I'll swallow the poison and purify your soul.
Show me your pain, I will bear your weight,
Conquer every sorrow, reveal my fate.

Speak our word, and I’ll run, I’ll rise,
From ashes and embers, reborn in your eyes.
Tell me the truth, I will shatter, remake,
Destroy what binds and the chains that ache.

I will step where no light can be seen,
Drown in your depths, drift in your dream.
If you call, I will fall, embrace the unknown,
For our love is fire—it consumes me from skin to bone.

I now lay alone in this starless hell,
Where silence hurts more than I care to tell.
You rest beside him, the one who enjoys your hurt.
And I wonder if you miss me and if you ever cared for my hug

You speak of healing and time to mend,
Yet return each night to the one who won’t bend.
Our vows, once whispered in softest tone,
Now gone like leaves the wind has blown.

But even in torment in pinnacle of my pain,
My heart still whispers your sacred name.
And should you reach, and say my name slow,
I’d walk through fire just to know—
That you still feel what once we knew,
A love so intense, so raw, so true.
My warmth won't fade when my flesh is gone,
It lingers, eternal, it carries on.

For love like mine won’t break or sever—
It burns in silence… always, forever.

The steam cover my room.
I cannot see.
The hot water numb my body.
So I cannot flee.

I'm sitting on the shower.
Contemplating the abyss.
Scavenging my memories.
Trying to find one of his.

I close my eyes hoping to go.
But I am still alive.
To feel, to die, to grow.

I would say that in my life.
I've seen the dark and the light.
I fought for what I thought was right.
And I saw the end with fiery pride.

One day a lonely boy from fear realized.
With his knees on the mud and his hands to skies.
That he was unique, the first one of his kind.
He understood that feelings only blurred his sight.

But now he felt nothing when she touched his face.
And the sun did not have that beautiful taste.
There was not pain, sadness or wrath.
Because that is the story of the first Psychopath.

I died tonight and now I am reborn.
I saw the Devil and fed him, my soul.
My pillows are heavy and my sight is blurred.
Every inch of my body cries for help.
Every thought in my mind is a plead for mercy.
The night is cold and I cannot close my eyes.
And then from nowhere, I feel it.
Oh God I feel it.
The sweet and gentle touch of the first ray of light.
I am standing but I don't remember getting up.
The sunlight fills my room and suddenly I am not alone anymore.
I look up and I see the moon running away.
The dark horses of the night are fleeing from the sun's knights.
At that moment.
In that sweet moment.
All my memories, all my thoughts, all my doubts and fears.
Are together in the entropic perfection of being.
I am one with myself.
The sun whispers to me.
"Is ok now, everything is gonna be ok".
I smile.
"The world is a beautiful place".
"And today, just today you not gonna die".
So with all my humbleness, I thank the sky.
Because that was my last sunrise.

I am here consulting my dreams, hoping to find a memory of you.
The nicotine runs into my veins like wild horses in the wind.
I look into the infinite dimension of the mirror in your wardrobe.
And the Devil looks back.

I am exhausted now I cannot fight.
I will give in and open the door to my soul.
Because I the exuberant form of not being.
I am chaos.

The moon knock at my window but I will not anwser.
Not tonight, tonight I am will let my heart dance at your beat.
Tonight You are everything that ever were and will ever be.
Tonight my Darling YOU are infinity.

I miss her...
That just feels too simple.
Too mundane.
Too human.
...
How can I explain it—how I feel?
...
I feel like I’ve got my ear pressed to the floorboards, listening to her footsteps as she walks out of my life.
I feel like I’m drowning in the desert.
Like I’m stuck to the ground, suspended in the air.
Like I’m watching the sun burn down
And the stars fade.

I feel full of emptiness
And lacking existence.
I’m floating in the void between us.
...

I still remember her eyes, full of tears that wouldn’t fall,
And my mouth, full of liquid yet in a drought.
I remember the smell of the coffee shop where she said.
I remember the convenience store where she decided my fate.
I remember the last days—and I still read her last message.

But still...
I also remember how she said she would stop fighting the current of our love.
That she would surrender to the natural lean of me.
And her eyes—full of love in the light of a blue storm.

I miss her...
I feel like poison, like caffeine and wizardry.
She feels like the smell of rain, cold pillows, and sweet strawberries.

She exists—therefore, I love her.
I love her—therefore, I exist.

Maybe it was my fault.
Maybe I'm the problem.
I'm tired now and full of doubt.
I'm lost, stuck in this solemn.

I think I was born to be hurt.
It hurts so deep when your name I say
Maybe I'm not supposed to be loved.
Maybe this is just my price to pay.

You are my goddess of the storm,
I beg you for your might.
I praise your heavenly form,
I need you every night.

The rhythm of our conversation
Makes the beats of my heart a wreck.
My soul can feel your vibration,
My hands crave your neck.

I can see you in the smoke,
I can hear you in the rain.
Like a priest, your pleasure I invoke,
And like a doctor, I remove your pain.

You asked how I cope with stress,
And I choked...
I wanted to say, "With your smile,"
But that's not your burden to take.

I want to buy things and give them to you,
I want to hear your dreams and your burdens too.
I want to travel and make your fantasies true—
I just want to love, and be loved by you.

In the depths of the dark sea.
In the valley of broken trees.
A gentle wind started to flow.
To watch me fight, bleed and grow.

The wind now dances with my dark hair.
As the birds go to sleep pair by pair.
It is dark now and I'm free.
Like every night on the valley of broken trees.

I'm addicted to your gentle smile.
But I can only make you cry.
Its like the heavens gave me wings.
But took down my sky.

I can't sleep, so I write.
I write about dreams I want to have,
I write about love that I want to feel,
About people who, like me, are not sad.

It's true, I'm not sad, depressed, or in pain,
Just tired, in love, and sane.
Too sane for my own good.
More lucid than I should.

I'm fighting demons that don't punch back,
Hiding smiles on an invisible map.
I miss smoking and drinking coffee at night.
Goodnight, people — I have to work at 9.

To live is to know that today is the last day of your life but understanding that it maybe for a slight possibilite not to be.

Tonight I am banned from Heaven.
Tonight there is no angels to protect.
There is no demons to hunt or man to pray.
Tonight the lions of the apocalipse run free.
Tonight Time will take a day off.
And God and the Devil will play chess.
Tonight nobody will run the show.
Tonight we dance in the rain.
While ecstasy of dying touches my lips.
Nothing before matter and nothing after will ever exist.
Because for one night we are who we were suppose to be.
We are clouds and water, fire and smoke, sapphire and dimonds.
Tonight we are Chaos and Infinity.

Let's Dive into Infinity.
And touch the foundations of paradise.
Let's Open the gates of Eternity.
And beyond Galaxies we shall rise.

Im in love...
As long as I dont tell her she will always smile
As long as she doens't know there will be no guilt
Because love sometimes is silence

I will suffer for her and even cry because of her
In the end is a battle of one side in which I will always lose.

You may look at me and say that this is not love is fear
And maybe you are right... I love her.

She walked and chaos followed.
Her eyes were cold as a lonely night.
The smile would calm a child.
And her heart full of hate.

She spoke words that I did know.
About places that I couldn't go.
She dreamed about people that I never met.
In nightmares she begged to forget.

We are the fire that burn inside all lovers.
We are astronauts diving into the infinite.
Our love was made by the stars.
And written into the cosmos.

We are the inevitable consequence of time itself.
A perfect mixture of life and death.
Of paradise and hell.
We were designed to be who we are.
Because I am chaos and you are Infinite.

And when time crumble into itself.
We will be there to watch the end of everything.
That were, is and will be.
Because time is not for those that love.

He prayed for her pain so she’d crawl to his side,
While I prayed for her joy and love of all kinds.
He needed her broken to feel he was whole—
I wanted her shinning, with peace in her soul.

He loved her for him, for control, for his gain,
I loved her for her, through hardships and rain.
He smiled at her failure, a mask in disguise—
While I bled in silence, still wishing her skies.

For what kind of love would dance on her tears?
Rejoice in her downfall or feed of her fears?
I prefer to be lonely, with grief as my chain,
Than ever be cause of her fall or pain.

When I'm old, I’d love to hear you sing,
To fall gently in your lap as I dream.
I would go, as long as your hand is in mine,
And I hope that you are my last sight.

When I'm old, I’d love to see our family,
Like sinking leaves in cold tea—
Their gentle laughs carries your kind eyes,
My curious soul and humor in their minds.

When I'm old, I’ll show you tricks on the porch,
The warm summer breeze lifting your hair as it soars.
I’ll write you poems until my hands grow frail,
And till I die, if you call me—I won’t fail.

I want to undo your ties and make your hair a mess.
I want to taste your lips under dark-lit jazz.
I want to know how your skin feels under moonlight.
I want to feel your vibration in the depth of your night.

I like how you smile over power and money.
I like how you work your lips when you say.... honey.
I like how you undo your coat when you feel a draft.
I like how you cover your smile when you laugh.

Let me show you the new tricks I’ve learned.
Let me see your skin where the sun didn’t burn.
It’s time to show you the place where energy lies—
Where love consumes, and I watch the stars fight.

You chose to be alone for now,
And that is okay.
You decided to remove yourself from the question.
You’ve chosen to push me away.
But I can't stop loving you...
I will survive, even if the sky loses its colors and the ocean its waves.
I will survive if the warmth never touches me again,
If my June turns into May,
Even if your touch on me never rains.
I bleed in verses.
I **** parts of my soul.
I hurt what I cared for the most.
...
Do you still read my poems in the morning, even when we don’t talk?
Do you still wonder if I dreamed about you at night?
Do you miss when we used to smile, looking into each other's eyes?
In your decision to be alone—do you miss us?
And if you do...
I’m here—to love, to kiss, to burn, to be.
We are yet to conquer, to travel, to see.
Soulmates—to envy, to become, to grow, to build a family tree.
Lovers of old—to achieve, to help... meant to be.

Why did you call me?
Why...
I was free from the shackles of your love.
I was happy with my loneliness.
Now?
What now?
What can I do?
I'm once again cursed.
Drowned by my own dreams and hurt by my own memories.

I loved you.
And then I hated you
in both
I was hurt.

In the ocean of your eyes
I drowned
In the warmth of your hug
I burned
In the darkness of your hair
I lost
In the whispers of your mouth
I learned what words taste like

You walked on the holy grounds of my soul
Made a joke out of my idols
And burned the altars of my Gods

You are me... if I loved myself.

I'm so very proud of you, each step you've taken,
The battles you've won, the dreams you've awakened.
With kindness in your heart, you’ve flew so high,
And I’m in cheering you, reaching the sky.
Every milestone you’ve passed, every path you’ve paved,
You’ve shown the world how to be bold and brave.

All the things you’ll achieve and all the things you will be,
A future so bright, it’s a magnificent to see.
If you’ll allow me to walk with you, side by side,
I’ll be the happiest man, with you as my guide.
For in your triumphs, I’ll find my joy,
Together we’ll conquer, both calm and coy.

There’s a holiday, my favorite one—
A time of warmth, of joy, and fun.
My favorite day is drawing near,
And I would love to have you here.

Would you be present? Would you come?
To share the laughter, share some ***?
To toast beneath the night $kies,
My glowing hearts and your kind eyes.

Would you allow yourself to see,
What this day truly means to me?
To live it fully, wild and true—
This dream I have… to spend with you.

I write, shrouded by smoke,
The lighter flickers, lighting my room.
Your presence in this ritual I try to invoke,
Yet my mind drifts back to you.

I miss you like my lungs miss nicotine,
I miss you like the earth craves the rain.
I stop myself from wondering what could have been—
Without you, I’m not sure I can love again.

I am in love with a girl.
And she smells like Sunday.

You were infinite.
I was chaos.
The world burned.
We kissed.
The sun gave up.
The moon ran away.
I dreamed.
You laughed.
All the things converged to this moment.
Our first moment.
An unlimited amount of eras.
Packed in one second.

Looking at you in the morning is breach of paradise
Like God is smiling at me from your bedside.
I wish I could live in your smile,
And travel the seas in your eyes for a while.

I’ve been to heaven in the warmth of your arms,
Where angels cried, surrendered to your charms.
I bargained with gods for a moment with you,
Trading my soul just to see it come true.

I crossed endless lands with no measure or chart,
And offered up pieces that tore me apart.
For you, I gave what would make lesser men fall,
And found in your love that I'd conquered it all.

The bubbles when I wash your hair
Look like stars caught soft in air.
Tiny galaxies in my hand,
While time forgets to make a stand.

Your smile — oh, it breaks my chest,
Kinder than hope, better than rest.
Sweeter than chocolate, bold like ***,
It strikes my heart and leaves me dumb.

To kiss you feels just like a storm,
Electric, wild, and far from norm.
To miss you — waves that never sleep,
They drag me down, they cut too deep.

And when I think you choose to lay with that one
Whose breath you feel beneath our sun…
It kills me slow, hurts more than I let it seem,
Unthreads my mind at every seam.

But then — you say you still love me,
And stars collapse in ecstasy.
I shine more bright than burning skies,
More hopeful than a priest who cries.

More in love than all the poets knew,
Each verse I write bleeds only you.
For though the pain may rise and run —
You make me brighter than the sun.

I used to push the pain away,
But now I welcome it.
With each word you say,
I draw closer to the throne you sit.

I want to yell to the world
All the verses that belong to you.
I can travel the light and the universe’s fold—
I just hope you love me too.

It is not happy, because it shouldn't be...
It is not sad, because it can't be...
It is just kind.
And your melody makes me cry.
But my heart does not fill sadness.
It fills with an uncontrollable necessity to kiss you.
Quarantine... I guess.