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Lilibet Aug 2020
Sometimes
You probe for reasons why,
Sometimes
You demand an explanation,
But
Sometimes
there is no reason,
Sometimes
there is no meaning,
Sometimes
It’s long since forgotten
In the mists of time,
Sometimes
It just is,
Always been so
For eternity

Until now ....
Seeking clarification as to whether things happen for a reason or a meaning or quite simply just are
Lilibet Sep 2024
It’s easy
to say
Sorry;
It’s not so
Easy to
Mean
What you
Say
SOS
Lilibet Nov 2020
SOS
All you need to do is send
SOS,
When overtaken by dementors,
When stuck in a web of loneliness,
When wallowing in a well of self pity,
Just three characters is all it takes,
S O S,
And in response
A kind word,
How can I help?
What do you need right now?
Would you like to talk?
Or to pray for you?
But you need to ask for help
You need to send that
SOS
Lilibet Sep 2020
When something comes up that I need to address
I don’t eat
I don’t drink
My stomach churns.
That is a sign to
Look inwards
Trust my gut
Ask questions
Explore
Write poetry
Journal
Sit
Be
Know I’m safe
Trust the process
For my soul is wanting
To be heard
It wants to speak
And it’s the only way it can get
My attention
Lilibet Aug 2020
Soul screaming
Piercing through obsidian eyes
The all revealing
All knowing
Windows to the soul
Felt deep inside
Won’t be denied
Won’t be silenced
No more
In spite of all
protestations
to the contrary
Lilibet Sep 2020
Relax into the embrace
Soul’s embrace
All encompassing embrace
Of divine love
The oh so powerful
Feminine energy,
Breathe
Into the deep warming embrace
Knowing you are safe
Protected
And loved
Very much
Lilibet Dec 2023
Sometimes the all-consuming intensity gets to me
And I need space
To step back
And reflect
And clear my head
So I can return refreshed
And renewed
And in control of my life once again
Lilibet Feb 2022
The hardest thing of all
During this fight between good and evil,
And yet the most important,
Is standing in your truth,
Holding the line,
Staying strong,
And being true to yourself,
Even when contrary to popular opinion.
Lilibet Sep 2024
After years of turmoil and deception
Of another’s making,
Finally comes peace of mind.
How glorious
That
stillness
sounds.
Lilibet Aug 2021
Despite the devil’s best attempts
To drag me down rabbit holes and muddle my thinking,
Or drown me in the lake of despondency and despair,
I’m still standing.
And not only that,
Full of tenacity, hope and courage,
And with God on my side
I won’t just survive,
But thrive.
Lilibet Apr 2021
When you believe in yourself,
Toxic words of others
Wash off
Like water off a duck’s back,
So hold your head up high,
Be true to yourself,
And don’t be swayed
By others’ pettiness, jealousy and spite,
For that is their chosen stony path in life,
And you have yours.
Lilibet Dec 2020
Once again
Succumbing
To the sleepy seductiveness,
Eyelids drooping,
Breath deepening,
Drifting off
In the arms of Morpheus,
Yet sofa bound,
Til waking in the early hours,
Neck taught,
Limbs frigid,
Dragging leaden feet upstairs
To the comfort of my waiting bed
And dreamless sleep.
Lilibet Nov 2023
Suppressed anger
has a habit
of rearing its ugly head
when you least expect it
and biting you on the ***
Lilibet Apr 2021
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
Reeling with joy
From precious moments shared;
Then sadness at being apart,
Pangs of unhappiness,
Spasms of loneliness,
All the more acute,
When preceded by such
Exquisiteness.
Lilibet Aug 2020
I just want to talk to you
Mind to mind
Heart to heart
Soul to soul
Honestly
Truthfully
Respectfully
And with love

But I don’t know how

Yet
Tar
Lilibet Apr 2021
Tar
People tar you,
Throw their beef at you,
Call you names,
And undermine you.
You can put their skin on,
Walk around reeking of their ****,
Or you can take it off,
Shine bright,
And be the person you’re meant to be.

Now,
Which do you choose?
Lilibet Oct 2020
All that’s needed
Is two little words of
Thoughtful appreciation
And
Acknowledgement
To show that you noticed
That I took the time to care.
So valued in their receiving
And so excruciatingly lacking  
In their absence

Or is that just me?
Lilibet Aug 2020
Thank you
From the bottom of my heart
For being there
For being by my side
For being so strong
For lending me your strength
For allowing me to lean on you
Through these temporary yet troubled storms
Once crushed by others
But now of my causing
And my choice to cease
When I remember to
Rise above, easily and consistently

Thank you
For believing in me
For truly believing in me
For supporting me
No matter what
In spite and because of my many dementors
Who, with your help, I am kicking into touch!

Thank you
For caring
For sharing
For giving me so much of your time
For showing me there’s another way
For showing me the way

Thank you
For being there

Thank you
For being you

My heartfelt thanks and gratitude
As the mists begin to clear
And the dawning of a new age beckons.....
Lilibet Sep 2020
Here I am observing actors on stage
Playing out their roles
Their destinies
And knowing one actor
Is me,
Yet I’m the only one who hasn’t read the script
Or know where it leads
Playing blind
While all around
Others watch her every move
To see how she responds
To the twists and turns in the
play
Except at the same time there is no script
The future depends on the reaction
Of that actor in that moment
With all the responsibility and risk that carries
Lilibet Jan 2021
He noticed her as soon as she glided purposefully, yet gracefully, in to the centre of the extravagant feast, her elegant wrists and ankles adorned with tinkling bells and colourful ribbons, her vivid costume embroidered with decorative beads, sequins and coins.

The men were gorging on the remains of the sheep’s head which had been slaughtered, as was the custom, to celebrate the successful return of the sheikh from his latest raiding expedition.  The silver trays laden with sumptuous dates, grapes, almonds and watermelons.  The camel hair tent covered with exotic, lavish furs to keep the bracing desert winds at bay.

The desert dweller was hosting important guests from a nearby clan, keenly trading news and enthusiastically discussing the breeding of his famed Arabic stallion.  Yet his conversation ceased mid-flow, the words left hanging in the air, enthralled and captivated from his first glance of her.  Her elegant ****** features, high cheek bones, blood red luscious lips, and jet black hair, she was striking to all who gazed upon her.

"I must have her" he muttered under his breath, even as his four wives and six concubines were waiting in the wings to pander to his every need, anticipating which one would receive his undivided attention tonight.  However, they all paled into insignificance next to this manna from heaven, this visceral feast upon the senses.  Though this did not pass unnoticed under the watchful scornful eyes of wife number one.

The haunting Arabic music began.  The opulent dancer moved slowly at first interpreting her emotive gestures to the sound of the three-string rebab, coyly, coquettishly, teasingly.  Yet, she was anything but coy.  You could sense her wildness, her passion, her animalistic instincts simmering under the surface. She was untamed, and determined to remain so, yet aware of her allure on the hot blooded males.

The Bedouin stared at her, could not take his eyes off her, just as she captivated them all with her beguiling beauty while weaving her magic throughout the room.  All but one that is.

The mesmerising melody picked up, her hips shimmying to the Badawi beat, skirt tassels swirling, slender arms accentuating evocative gestures, creating sensuous shapes, texture and depth to the melodic mystery unfolding before them.

As the music paused so did she, directly in front of him as he reclined on the cushions, defiantly, passionately staring straight into his eyes, as she grabbed his just refilled wine goblet.  He watched the droplets enticingly trickle down her exquisitely defined chin as she devoured it in one, and ached to kiss those ruby red lips.

And with that she was off again, twirling and swirling, twisting and circling, tossing her head in synch with the frenzied beat, holding the whole room in the hypnotic palm of her hand.  The stirring rhythm rose to a crescendo and so did she, spinning mesmerisingly round and round, heart thumping, wild eyes blazing, and as the last beat of the darbuka sounded and faded away, she paused one last time, and so did the breath of everyone present, enchanted as they were with her captivating spellbinding performance.  Only he noticed the fear in her eyes, the pallor of her skin, the tiny beads of sweat above her top lip, as she slid silently yet elegantly to the floor.  Everyone was on their feet, applauding madly, demanding an encore, while he rushed over and held her in his muscular arms.  "My love" he whispered, passionately kissing her and thanking her for that all too fleeting moment of pleasure, ecstasy and bliss.  Too late.  Her last precious breath ebbed away from her forever.  Unknowingly, unwittingly, her life for his life with that one innocent sip of wine.

He was incensed.  His unfulfilled lust transformed into outright fury and rage.  His animated roar "I will find you, whoever you are and avenge her.  An eye for an eye.  You will not rest easy in your bed until you have a dagger through your heart" ringing in the perpetrator's ears as she, hidden in the shadows, slinked away silently into the cold dark night.
I appreciate this is a poetry site, but I have committed to sharing my creativity journey, and this prose definitely fits into that.
Inspiration often comes to me in the middle of the night, and I wrote this just before Christmas 7 years ago, when I was suffering from flu and unable to sleep. I wasn’t very creative at that stage having never written anything since school, but inspiration came when least expected and the words started to tumble out from nowhere.
I grabbed my iPhone. Hurrah for technology and not having to turn the lights on!
This is what I created that night, almost verbatim from its first inception, other than to check factual accuracy and to descriptively embellish it. I hope you enjoy it.
Lilibet Aug 2020
When I view a sunset,
A burning bright red sunset,
or look upon the horizon
between the land and water,
I am reminded of Ancestors’ stories
of the betwixt and the between.
Neither one or the other.
Not this one, nor that one,
But the place in between.

The Betwixt and the between two different worlds
Betwixt and between waking and sleeping.
Betwixt and between dusk and dawn.
Betwixt and between the upper and lower.
Betwixt and between Heaven and hell.
A place of intrigue, mystery and wonder
If you dare
So much as to take a peek.
But it’s beyond most people’s imaginations
To ever go as far as
The betwixt and the between
This poem is based on a comment in a photography group I’m in, which had more meaning than I understood at the time
Lilibet Dec 2020
Never settling,
A dainty butterfly
Flits from
flower to flower,
Imbibing fragrant nectar, while
Revealing moments of glory with a
Flash of its multicoloured wings,
In betwixt the dull brown underside
Reflecting life’s drudgery
And the yin and yang of existence.
Lilibet Jan 2021
Candle burning bright
Lights up the space
With a soft golden glow
Scaring the shadows away,
Its flame dancing with the joy
Of being alive,
Offering much needed
Hope,
Lightness, and
Freedom
To all those who seek.
Lilibet Nov 2020
Oh that cloak of shame,
Seductively swaddling us in its clutches,
Affecting every thought, every decision, every action,
Hiding our light,
From others,
From ourselves,
Weighing upon us,
Dragging us down,
Exhausting us,
So that even putting one foot in front of the other
Is a struggle,
A challenge to stay afloat,
When all you need to do
Is undo the knot at the throat
And throw off this stubborn, worthless dastard imposter
To reveal the glory
The wonder
The joy
That is you
Lilibet Mar 2021
Oh that devil is a ******,
“Don’t give him a seat at your table” I was told,
Yet he sneaks in by the back door
And before you know it
Lying back in the chair with his feet on the table
And a big fat greasy grin on his face
Surveying the carnage and pain
And all the good work
Unfurling around him
Lying in tatters on the floor.
Oh the gruesome glee emitting from that odious unwelcome bedfellow
As I’m left wretched and in pain and alone once more
On the cold stone floor
Lilibet Mar 2021
Men look to solve problems
Hoping to be the knight in shining armour
Even when there’s none to be resolved.
Women like to talk over their problems
For it is in the sharing they come to their own conclusion.
Two different approaches
Too different mindsets
And ne’re the twain shall meet.
Lilibet Sep 2020
The secret is in the direction of your gaze
Are you looking up or down?
Forwards or back?
That is the choice for you.
The more rewarding
But not always so easy
Is to keep looking up
Above the golden sun ☀️
In all its bright brazen glory
And focus on the positivity
The fun
And the
Joy
Lilibet Nov 2020
“The edge is not the limit....
It's only the starting point!”
You shout as you hurl yourself off the cliff
Into the unknown,
No need to be fearful of the unexplored,
No need to hold yourself back no more,
For the unknown is where the joy and adventure is,
Where hidden delights and pleasure  
And hitherto unrevealed love and kindness
Are patiently waiting for you
To take that leap of faith
And to welcome you
Into the unknown
Into the bliss
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