I have laid awake more times than I care to share
The world has passed me like a stranger
I watch myself from second person
And everytime I cross the road I glitch in the middle
For a long time I thought it was fear
Until I realised it was regret
I stand and stare at the cars whizzing by
And I wonder why I was left behind
Had it been me behind the wheel
And had I known that impact is not immediate nor physical
I would have returned
I would have wanted to reverse and finish the job
Instead of leaving a soul lingering
With no answers
Or closure
Or a way forward

This one's for the nights that turned into mornings
The ones I never thought would arrive
The sunrises which crept in slowly as I drove towards them
And the ones that crashed through my window as I slept through their brilliance
This one's for the painful nights of no sleep
Ones where the fire burned through my veins
When my muscles twitched and my legs spasmed
And the restless nights when ghosts long passed came for a visit
This one is to acknowledge the nights
And take each one as it comes