I kept you — like sand
in a bottle — then I gave
you back to the sea

rain will come one day
and you'll find out these handcuffs
were made of paper

if only you were
gentler I wouldn't be scared
to get it wrong — try

I know you meant what
you said — I know you're allowed
to change your mind too

look for me where I
was left to get lost — right there
find me — lush and tall

I've not been holding
the door for you since you left —
I burned the house down

I bring nothing but
the last grain of hope I have —
it weights like the sea

I've learned — more often
than not — getting no answer
is answer enough

water under the
bridge has a way of catching
us around the bend

MR

since that kiss, I can't
go on acting like I'm fine
and I can't go back

RZ

we allow ourselves the MEMORY
even if it comes with the PAIN
just so we won't forget the PERSON

if you really wish
to know me, know that I am
someone who desires

ask me how I've learned
to crave before I've tasted —
and I'll answer not in words

I have within me
a thousand year's worth of want —
and an empty bed

I came out — first when
I liked you and then when I
liked myself for it

how passed out I am
right now — drunk and hungover
from these bad choices

wish I knew first off
that facing your fears — sometimes
means facing yourself

ask me what? — I'd say
hold me — ask me how and when?
I'd say close and now⠀

they keep promising
that flowers would grow around
this wreckage — even
if a garden bloomed, this car
just won't run
                            the same
                                               again

every morning is
a green boa I wrestle
into submission

me going isn't
a cry for help — it's the bells
after a long war

confession: I thought
the word RUMINATION was
named after Rumi
                             (the Persian poet)

that's when I knew you're
good for me — I liked myself
more for liking you

ᴵ one day, you came and
took all the plants that wilted
and made them blossom

ᴵᴵ you took all the plants
that I can't make flower and
made them bear good fruit

ᴵᴵᴵ when my kindness to
myself wilted, you showed me
your garden of it ⚘

all night, we pretend
not to notice each other —
like a warm cold war

and I find rest in
knowing that you're the keeper
of the rest of me ☄

my patience would leave
me like its house — it'd always
find a home in you

how long have I been
living a stranger to my
very own longing?

if I don't know what
I want, do I even know
who I really am?

I have grown restless
thinking how you don't find rest
in me anymore

I have what you would
call a sleeper build — only
mine is built to sleep

just because they gave
more than you did
doesn't mean they gave
their all — like you did

from that moment on
I was no longer just mine —
I knew I was yours

ᴵ don't just undress me
unwrap me like a fresh bound
book straight from the press

ᴵᴵ then don't just kiss me
seek me for air and for warmth —
as you would the sun

ᴵᴵᴵ and don't just make me
feel good — savour me — show me
just how good I taste

the watch on his wrist
says it's time to go — but his
hands say one more time

sometimes when people
go, they do it for themselves —
so while they're still here
give them a home and try to
take them out of the warzone

CONFUSING as HELL —
not wanting me to leave but
not loving me now

ᴵ you feel the water
rising inches at a time
until you're neck-deep

ᴵᴵ you're underwater
telling yourself that you can
always hold your breath

ᴵᴵᴵ you've been under for
so long, you forgot what air
feels like in your lungs

ᴵⱽ but as the sea claims
the land every high tide — you
claimed the sea as yours

ⱽ you wake up in an
underwater castle that
you built with your hands

what am I good for
if I'm lost — adrift like a
cloud that holds no rain ☁︎

you'll understand when
you're a parent — is a bad
way of parenting

you know you've got it
bad when you check your watch and
what was 10 is 2

tell me where, tell me
when I can find happiness —
so I can go there

please just let me melt
like small pats of  French butter
on warm Sunday toasts

I smile just enough
and I talk just enough to
keep the questions out

perhaps life is the
spouse and rest is the lover —
my head is our bed

don't give me the faint
glow of a distant star — bring
out your raging sun

to my summer breeze
heavy rain and quiet night —
lie down next to me

you wear my shirt from
the night before like it's your
turn to fill my space

to savor and taste
where there was only hunger
just the night before

that guy who runs through
temples but stays in place — is
life an illusion?