LJ Chaplin

LJ Chaplin Nov 2013

Although the hate will still haunt,
I'll love who I want,
My heart only belongs to him,
Push me and try,
To change my mind,
But love was never a sin,
Push me and break me,
But you'll never take me,
I will never give in,
The gay guy will fight,
To have his own rights,
Equality will win.
I won't hide who I adore,
Or expect an applause,
I want to be with him,
So excuse me and be quiet,
Because I won't even deny it,
I'm just as gay on the outside as within.

LJ Chaplin Nov 2013

Traveller

Mama I'm not coming home tonight,
Don't fret I promise I'll be alright,
I'm moving on to better things,
Left the nest and spread my wings,
And feel the sun on the back of my heart.
Father you never understood my plans,
Told me you'd take matters into your hands,
Kicked me to the ground and said,
Son you need to clear your head,
But I'm still waiting for life to start.
Hitch-hiker happiness and suitcase sorrows,
Feel the space between today and tomorrow,
Ride the winds of a thousand ambitions,
Set fire to your inner inhibitions,
Aeroplanes and cars and trains,
My future will never be the same,
I'm a travelling teen with a travelling mind,
So I'll start again and leave my insecurities behind.

LJ Chaplin Nov 2013

Intimate Privacy

Closed doors never seemed so perfect to me,
To call her mine without the demonic
Stares of the public vultures,
Snapping their claws on the shutters of cameras
And plastering our love across the world.
It is nice to be able to talk to her,
To hide our deep conversations
Under the covers at night,
The luminescent glow
Of another incoming text,
The quiet throb of fingertips
Colliding with the screen,
Each letter creating another
Syllabic heartbeat
Of love and desire,
I just wish that one day
These words will become real,
They will evolve and grow to speak
Louder than the actions we describe to each other.
I want the hugs to be real.
I want the kisses to be real.
I want the inevitable yearning for passion to be real.
As long as at it can be between us and us only.

Written for one of my closest and most amazing friends. She deserves so much love <3

LJ Chaplin Nov 2013

Mary Jane

Mary Jane please don't tell,
But I'm stuck under your spell,
Amsterdam secrets,
Promise me you will keep them,
Higher than the stars at night,
Don't let me fall 'cause I'm as free as a kite.

The grass is always greener,
Between the cold tips of my fingers,
Spark the lighter and savour,
The smoke and the flavour,
Mary Jane won't deceive me,
In my mind where she calms me.

One last puff until I'm sober,
The come down won't mean it's over,
Come back tomorrow and I'll be fine,
When Mary Jane loves me from the inside.

Inspired by 'Mary Jane Holland' by Lady Gaga <3

LJ Chaplin Nov 2013

Let Me Go (10w)

Just
Let
Me
Go
So
You're
Not
Wasting
Your
Time

LJ Chaplin Nov 2013

Free

Bad times, no fun,
I've missed that last kiss,
I cry each night,
There's no getting over this,
I know I started this mess,
It's my own fault and I'm useless,
But I will try my best,

Don't hate me I,
I'm trying to make this whole thing right.

Hold it together dear Lew,
I know you will try to get through,
Been writing as I'm living
So I could build myself up for you,
I'm not sorry for hurting,
But oh god my heart is bursting,
Been confessing my oppression,
Because I want to be free,
I want to be free.

Fixation's clear,
I want to go back home,
Why am I here?
'Cause there's no better place to go.
Feels like the passion has gone,
At least it's better to be wrong,
Everything is done.

Please love me I,
I'm ****** up but I know that it's right.

Hold it together dear Lew,
I know you will try to get through,
Been writing as I'm living
So I could build myself up for you,
I'm not sorry for hurting,
But oh god my heart is bursting,
Been confessing my oppression,
Because I want to be free,
I want to be free.

This poem was inspired by 'Dope' by the incredible Lady Gaga. This song is so full of pain and passion and she is so brave for writing this song.

LJ Chaplin Oct 2013

Shooting Star

Falling out of the clouds
Like a shooting star
Sets the night on fire
As I cascade towards
The earth at a frightening speed
But I am not afraid
Because as I fall to my fate
I am granting millions of wishes
For those whose lives have
Not yet been fulfilled
And yearn for something
That will make them whole again,
I am ablaze,
A smouldering mass of beauty
That opens the eyes of so many people
Who are perched on top of a hill
Or by their bedroom windows,
Sitting in absolute silence,
The only sounds are their heartbeats
And their dreams singing in their heads
Like a magnificent symphony.
I am close to the ground now
And I am slowly burning out,
But it's OK,
I am willing to make this sacrifice
Because my beauty was amidst so many others
In the black canvas of Space,
Now I am spreading it across the World.
For the hungry eyes and the hungry minds
of humanity.