LJ Chaplin

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

I am cascading
I am letting myself fall,
I am losing it.

I thought I could cope and I can't. I can't do this anymore. I've let everyone down. I'm sorry

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

I hear the rain outside,
A million tears splashing against concrete,
Transparent stains that bleed a spectrum
To wash out the grey scale world.

Footsteps tremble in the puddles,
Drops of ice caressing my skin,
The sunshine in my heart
As I dance to the music of nature
Like Gene Kelly

The dark clouds roll above my head,
But there's a smile on my face
And I imagine the clap of thunder
To encourage the crescendo
Of dance and music
As my clothes are soaked
And my bones quiver.

But nothing matters
*I'm dancing and singing in the rain.

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

The Pact

The things we imagined have been lost
On the way to discovering
The reality of who we really are,
Reminiscence is deadly,
Poison
It will drive us both insane
As we try to drag up the past,
Recapturing our youth,
Trying to fit together
The jagged puzzle pieces
Of how we went wrong.

Before we lost our path,
Before we crumbled into ashes,
Before we pressed the gun against our lips
And spat bullets into the sky at night,
Remember the pact we made,

If we have nothing now, just promise me in the future we will still have nothing.
I promise.

Do you understand?
I let the memories erode,
The sickening feel of nostalgia fade,
The glowing embers of what we had extinguish
**Into wisps of smoke.

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

Natural Disaster

My house is made from silver linings,
All intertwined by my faith,
Hopes and dreams all woven in,
So that they remain intact and safe.

The gale force winds,
The echoes of my sins,
All threaten to burn it all down,
The spark of the lightning,
Is more than enticing,
To let it all burn to the ground.

But I've built it from nothing,
The foundation of hope,
And crafted skyscrapers,
Of ways I could cope.

The raging volcano,
The roaring tornado,
Tears apart the bricks and the plaster,
The foundations are shaken,
And now I've awakened,
My own version of a natural disaster.

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

Hatred

How is it possible for someone to contain so much hatred?
To be able to haul his heavy load around on his shoulders
Yet manage to make himself appear weightless and untouched?

Why does he find it necessary to drag others down into the Earth
And attempt to suffocate them until they are a distant memory?
Place them in a noose and playfully wrap his fingers around the lever that equals
Life or death?

Did he sell his soul to the devil just so that he could have the unfathomable power
To search and destroy a person multiple times until they are less than dust?

Your desperate attempt to cause utter destruction,
To tear down every last brick that holds her heart together
Right down to the foundation of her love and compassion
Is causing a revolution.

**Remember how many soldiers stand against her while you are left to cower in the tallest tower, crafted by the loathsome and insidious hate that you have let consume you.

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

Validation

I have often accepted the criticisms of others,
A self fulfilling prophecy
That has left me shaped and moulded
Into the grotesque mutation
From the blueprints crafted by society.

I seek validation,
Doors that are unlocked
So I can walk into a persons life
Without having to hide the possessions I have
Under dust covers and dragging them in the dark
When they are fast asleep and can't see.

I want to be able to re-ignite the glowing embers
In my soul
So that the flames burn away the cobwebs
And the neglect of my former self.
I made the inevitable mistake of using petrol to accelerate the ignition
And now everything is falling apart,
**One little piece at a time.

LJ Chaplin Aug 2013

Robot

I was designed to have a broken perspective,
A fragile state and my emotions are selective,
I feel like a robot, a creation of steel,
But this machine has the capability to feel,
The cogs, they may turn,
The engines may burn,
But this hollow, metal collection,
Has reserved a special section,
To be able to love,
To be able to show affection,