One minute your here
At any moment your
Name could be called
Today is all we truly have
Tomorrow is a gift
Not a promise
Watching thee sunrise
And set is a blessing
Everything in between
Is a process
Life is what we make of it
A celebration like no other
Never forgotten
Every single moment
Of every day
You can’t put a price on it
Kindness genuine
Comes in many forms
Goes a long way
Has a everlasting affect
Better then most loved by many
If only you were still here today
A well that never runs dry
Thee impact you had surly was felt  
You’d be happy
Knowing just what a difference
Your time here truly meant
To others
You never know who or what
Might come along
Stop you dead in your tracks
And touch your heart
A like mindedness in this life
Deeply have an impact
Help alter your course
The little things are what matter most
That’s what life has taught
Me through the many trials
And tribulations
Who’s still standing by your side
Speaks volumes of who you are
Lend me your hand
And I’ll show you thee way
When someone speaks
All you’ve gotta do is listen
If only only for a moment
It may help lift your
Spirits up to greener pastures

Time we can’t
Get back
All we have is today
This very moment
Nothing less
Let’s make thee most of it
So lost before
Empty dirt roads
Consumed me
I was looking for
A wholesome highway
A light at the end of thee tunnel
Out of the darkness  
I walked alone
For a very longtime
Guarded my heart
Kept my head down
Had no interest
In finding a partner
Or love for that matter
I hid myself
Because I never
Felt good enough
For anyone else
Let alone myself
I’ve had
To make adjustments
Step out of
My comfort zone
And that’s not always easy
Wether I
Deserved you or not
I’m eternally grateful
To have you
It all happened for a reason
Then you came
And now you’ve
Become thee
Best parts of me
Worth seeing
The lord works
In mysterious ways
An Angel appears
When you least expect it
Out of nowhere
You changed my life
Good things come
To those who wait
It was a miracle finally
And I never saw it coming
Like a flower in bloom
I had no expectations
Just a hope of sorts
You were different
Sweet to thee core
Took the time
To get to know
The real me no judgments
A beating heart like no other
Three years later
Through thick and thin
It’s a lot of work
And here we are
But for thee first time
Feels worth it to me
Feels like a dream
Worth waking up too
The lord
He must have known
What he was doing
All along
Bringing us together
Many wrong turns before this
Finally I made thee right one
Then came you

THEN YOU CAME
Time we can’t
Get back
All we have is today
This very moment
Nothing less
Let’s make thee most of it
So lost before
Empty dirt roads
Consumed me
I was looking for
A wholesome highway
A light at the end of thee tunnel
Out of the darkness  
I walked alone
For a very longtime
Guarded my heart
Kept my head down
Had no interest
In finding a partner
Or love for that matter
I hid myself
Because I never
Felt good enough
For anyone else
Let alone myself
I’ve had
To make adjustments
Step out of
My comfort zone
And that’s not always easy
Wether I
Deserved you or not
I’m eternally grateful
To have you
It all happened for a reason
Then you came
And now you’ve
Become thee
Best parts of me
Worth seeing
The lord works
In mysterious ways
An Angel appears
When you least expect it
Out of nowhere
You changed my life
Good things come
To those who wait
It was a miracle finally
And I never saw it coming
Like a flower in bloom
I had no expectations
Just a hope of sorts
You were different
Sweet to thee core
Took the time
To get to know
The real me no judgments
A beating heart like no other
Three years later
Through thick and thin
It’s a lot of work
And here we are
But for thee first time
Feels worth it to me
Feels like a dream
Worth waking up too
The lord
He must have known
What he was doing
All along
Bringing us together
Many wrong turns before this
Finally I made thee right one
Then came you

Pushing and shoving
Paying no mind
Speed of sound
Barely visible
Like a mortician
When the bottom
Falls out like a flatline
Like the bullets
You can’t stop
Ducking and dodging to no end
Procedural attempts
Vicious stomping
Friend or foe
Editing your content
An all expense
Paid trip to the four corners
Of your home that’s held you captive
Skyscrapers
That exceeded
There limit
Outlasted there timetable
A blimp on a screen
When will the little dot
Just vanish
Neither here nor there
Always a story or two
Translucent endeavors
Storms in a lunar eclipse
A deep trance stuck
To your side
Buried still in your eyes

Swallow a pill
Sky’s falling
There’s no telling
Disappear
And hit thee ground running
You can’t outrun me
No matter how hard you try
Your no match
To block out thee noise
It seems to only
Get louder more intense
As thee years have gone by
When thee
World stands still
And I can’t move
I know I’m in for a ride
The merry go round
That won’t stay in place
Constant chaos
I’ve fooled myself
A time or two thinking other wise
Caved in to thee pressure
But he never
Gave up on me
I should always trust
That he has my best intentions
At heart easier said then done
When you’ve seen what I have
That almost becomes
An impossible task
Tunnel vision that’s one sided
Hard to focus
Find a soft spot to land
Waking around with blinders on
Stuck inside someone else’s thoughts

Gravedigger illuminating
Lonely eyes
Where dreams
Came to die
Loaded gun
Broken
Sifting through stone
Searching for a meaning
Holding on too what
Always fighting
Thee failures of wasting time
Staying between
Thee lines
Has become a bit easier
If I could speak
Now into existence
Why did it take
So long to get me here
Dead end roads
Piled up
Mirrors on thee walls
They lied to me all my life
A replica I’m not
No longer a prisoner
Of the games they played
Mere image of what I used to be
Squashed
That dog won’t hunt anymore
He’s buried and dead
Prettier pictures became me
Blank canvases now of my own choosing
They light up my world to no end
I create what I want
And do what I see fit with them

Screeching anthems
Emotional vampire
Enemy of my agony
Brittled so called friend
Nestled between
Pieces in thee deep depths Somewhere in my soul
Infringement
Igniting embers
Gaining traction
Suffocating
Caged sanity
Tourniquet barely holding
Edge of a cliff
The ferocious beasts
Are hunting attempting to
Hand in my resignation
Chain linked
Hands and feet
Oozing secrets
Sounds of fury
Reality gave me glaucoma
The killers of day colorblinded
A last glance
Burning me like a cigarette
To the last puff
Beating a dead drum
Accomplishing nothing
False pretenses
Coddling me to no end
Overprotective of
My thoughts you never were
The proofs in the pudding
Unamused beyond a reasonable
Doubt of anything I certainly was

Skin deep
Slipping quietly  
Into your swan song
Faithfully I am yours forever
A graceful calming
After thee storms have passed
Cradle to thee grave
The walls are finally crumbling
And the cuffs
Are finally dissolving for good
No longer sinking
To the bottom in concrete
There’s no longer a
Need to wanna feel numb
Weightless matter
Starving to be empty
Free from me
Aftermath to
New beginnings
Peace of mind at long last
No more
Free falling
A refreshing light
So exuberant
Why do it take so long
To get to my ending
Resurrected by you
Eternal sunshine
In endless abundance
With no end in sight
For as far as
My soul can see
Everything’s so clear now
My eyes no longer hurt
Where the distorted noises
Of life have been turned off
Completely
And I’m finally healed fully
Arriving better late then never
Or not at all
Unconscious spirit all is quiet
And I’m finally in the arms
Of a everlasting peace
That I’ve been in search
Of my entire existence
For all eternity you are mine
Be still my son

Condemnation
Are we way past the point
Of no return
The insanity
That floods and paints
Thee streets in it’s ugly colors
Is laughable
Soldiers unite and follow
Your so called leaders
To who knows where
Unhinged and let the
Wreaking havoc explode
Appetite
For destruction
Turn the tv up a little louder
And let the fake news run wild
As there lies spew out there guts
Innocent for a minute
Just let the greed
Seep into your pores
And the hunger for power
Is like an addiction
Where’s your crown now
Boom goes the dynamite
Far to many are guilty
Yet they still run freely
How is there no consequences
Rule of law is dead
Power is the ultimate king
As all the madness
Comes knocking
In today’s chaotic world
It all blows up in your face
Take the click bait
And watch the inferno
Run you up a wall
Block out the outside noise
And run and hide if you can
Before the inferno barricades
You in it’s path
Make an alliance to no one  
Close your windows
And think for yourself
Let them insert the hatred
In someone else’s veins
Let the skies bleed red
On them all
And don’t fall for there trap
The realities of there
World should never match up
With your own opinion

Speed of sound
Without restraint
The birds and
The bees
Flying in the oppositions skies
Back to square one
Just because
We are blood
Doesn’t make us family
Even if
The lights are
On doesn’t mean
Anyone’s home
Born and
Left on a strangers
Front porch
To fend for myself
Locked doors
Unanswered questions
A plenty
The wars that
Were waged
Battles I fought against
Absentee parents
***** donors
Hit and run I was the victim
The mother and father
I never knew
I had were never present
Who cut a hole right through
My soul  
Left the pieces of me
To pick up alone
And the puzzles still incomplete
In the grand scheme of things
A undeniable cruelty
That will not be forgiven
I just cant wrap my head around
Uninhibited my screams will
Never stop till the day the anger
Dies all together

Hollowed out
Like
A match to a flame
My viscera
Destiny had
Other ideas
One eyes on the prize
Thee others shut
Subjected negligence
Begging for relief
Buying a oneway ticket
Bursting colors
Like a pinwheel
Motions in the shadows
Shaped my shores
Clinging to me
Plucking me over
Like a bad habit
It only intimidated
The stronger it became
Pushing and pulling me
Tug of war
The hurt locker
Took it’s toll  
Like clockwork why couldn’t
Time just stand still
Thee abyss
Forged me in it’s venom
Slowly stripped my sanity
And rained on my parade
Unlike me my discombobulated circuit board overloaded
And had me asking
Who the hell was I anyway

SHARE YOUR FAITH
When you give God thanks for what He's done, especially in the middle of chaos, it's not just gratitude
—it's a declaration of faith.

I’M HONESTLY NOT BOOK SMART. OR WELL EDUCATED!!! BUT THE SCHOOL OF HARD KNOX TAUGHT ME EVERYTHING AND THEN SOME!!! AND I DON’T WANNA TOOT MY OWN HORN… BUT I THINK I WRITE EXTRODINARY POETRY… MANY LAYERS INDEED ✍️☀️👊

UTOPIA  
You take thee
Dullness away
A sparkle
Like no other
Your my
Light at thee end
Of the tunnel
How could this be
All because of your
Unconditional  love for me
Happier days
Lights shining brightly
Nights alone gone evaporated
Heartache subsiding
A gift sent
From thee heavens above
I couldn’t ask for anything more
Am I truly deserving
Of such fulfillment
Maybe so
Thee stars aligned
Just right
Dreams becoming a reality
Minds becoming clearer
Heart is filled with joy
Pinch me I must be dreaming
Don’t ever let me wake up
A shooting star appeared
Right place
Right time
I wished upon
Suddenly came to fruition
I’m blessed to have you by my side
Wouldn’t want it any other way
From thee bottom of my heart
I’ll love you tell my very last breath
You can always count on me
I’ll never leave your side
Thanks for always believing in me
Being there when no else was
Because of you
I’ve learned too live again truly

Prophesy
A sign from above
Idle hands
Unlocked
Sustainability granted
A carpenter
Builds me a new frame
Of mind
I’ll praise you
Till my last breath
The unfortunate times
I’ll just have to live with
The cost already paid
Healing up the best I can
Unforeseen history
I’m no longer tied too
Quite the transformation
The impact you’ve had on my being
Your dedication
To healing me when I was
At my lowest
Never wavering from your
Prominent position
The promises held dear
They ******* away
Humming bird fluttering
Like a guardian angel
Flying outside my window
Vibrant energy is contagious
Origins all your own
Responsible for my well fare
The hoax was always up
Just took me a while to figure it out

Phone lines are dead
Time after time
Healed never
Looked so fake
In the palm
Of my hand
I hold onto everything
Lonesome blues
The snake bit me again
Shed my skin
The wounds I wear
Make me feel so filthy
I don’t want sympathy
Where exactly has that gotten me 
Tethered soul
I want my great awakening
Love can be so cold
Phony and cruel
And holds nothing back
Turns on you on a dime
You were suppose to be kin
Blood through thick and thin
But I quickly learned better
An outsider I felt like  
Don’t be fooled
Just because the lights are on
Doesn’t make a house a home
I didn’t fit in
Because I’ve always known
Exactly who who you all were
And I didn’t wanna be around that
The negativity always showed
Face it’s true self
Especially when I was always looking  
Over my shoulder
Guess the apple doesn’t fall
Far from the tree
Vilified in the eye of the storm
When will I see my
Truest day in the sun
Receive my pardon the justice
I so deserve  
To leave this sick evil place
And find everlasting peace and freedom once and for all

Pay no homage
To the old me
And let him lay buried
Reborn ever so slowly
With a slight of hand
Removing the guilt
Taking of my full metal jacket
Hope for a better day
Including me
One minute at a time
Evaporating
Hemorrhaging thoughts
Future tripping
Use to be my muse
Kiss of death
Eye for an eye
Hour glass used
To be half empty
Now it’s fuller then ever
Shades of grey
Replaced with pearly white sands
Rainbows of epic lights
Dancing all around
Kaleidoscope one track mind  
Have in finally escaped the enemy
Ecosystem needed
A reboot
My thoughts no longer
Paralyze me in my tracks
Like they used too
My happier visions
And striving spirt
Need more room to breathe freely
As I roam this life
Ever searching
With the weight of the past
Falling off of my shoulders
Piece by piece
As he shields me from my inner demons
My higher power
I’m nothing without you
All the praise and glory are yours alone

Red ambers
White as a ghost
Shrewd feelings aside
I assure you
What I can not
Take with me is not
Of importance
My soul doesn’t
Crave the materialistic
Flaunting possessions
Have they ever positioned
Me for a better seat
At his table
Scope
Of the matter is
There’s a bigger picture at hand
Catch phrases twenty twenty
Non refundable
Suppressed grey areas
In need of renovation
Serendipity
Slowly sprinkled it’s way
Into my psyche
Like rolling tides
Slowly
Hashing me out
Down to the last minute fiber
As the toxins exfoliated
My pendulum swings
At a more even tempo
Guided by a vitality that
Leaves me feeling as
Though when the levee breaks
I’ll be just fine in the end

Faint sun burns
In the dark
Break down this fortress
Detached from
Reality
Growing impatient
Alter the mistakes
A purpose for pain
When sentiments align
And the static subsides
Suddenly
All the commotion
Stops
To the right
Soul a connection
Undoubtedly uncanny
It’s a rare feat
To cross
Paths with someone
Who sees life like you do
Almost or to good to be true
One in million
A almost exact wavelength collides
An explosion of sorts
Who would have thought
And for a moment
It all makes sense
Why everyone else is clueless
Because they’ve never been
Where we have
And probably never will
If we shut down
Well there’s a **** good reason
Behind it
To go rouge
So leave it alone
The conversations feel effortless
What a relief
One in the same
And the deep feelings are mutual
Go summon
All thee angles
And tell them we are ready
Why not wait tell tomorrow
Today’s a good a day as any

Covered in dirt
Crossing over a bridge
Awaiting a Eulogy
Like a faint whisper
Grab a loudspeaker
Somethings are
Better left unsaid
If you want my truths
Pick up my journals
And read my poetry
Because there ain’t nothing
Hiding there I hold back nothing
I kept a lot
To myself for good reason
I’ve always been good
At stuffing my suitcase
To thee brim
And throwing it in the closet
Jamming everything down
Numbing myself to the core
It’s hard being sober
If people knew how I truly
Felt deep inside
They’d probably run the other direction
And hate me like I’ve
Always hated myself
I put my mask on when I have to
Pretend I’m doing okay
Play there stupid games
When I’d rather just drift off
Into that dark corner off the room
Me myself and I
And the voices in my head
That I’ve dreaded all my life
Words best not spoken…