I wear my
Emotions on my sleeve
Like a straight jacket
The quietest
Person in the room
Yet he writes
With the LOUDEST VOICE
If you knew me
By person
I’m a man of few WORDS
BUT MY POETRY SPEAKS
VOLUMES
MY EMOTIONS ARE THE RAW AND
HONEST TRUTHS
OF A LONELY MAN TRYING TO
FIND HIS WAY TO GREENER PASTURES

Whistleblower
Temptations
I’m fully aware of
As my subconscious
Mind drifts
Swallows me up
Hallucinations bring me joy
Extinction becomes
More and more possible
Hypnotized by a chaotic life
As the doubt creeps
And crawls
The air
Is haunting me
A dream within a dream
Writings on thee wall
Cover up my flaws
Flex out the poison of my existence
As my veins are cleansed
Sedate my
Senses till I become new
Till there’s zero chance
Of me becoming me again
Those voices
That mocked and laughed
Cracked me apart
Had there way
I knew them all too well
Till I was blue
In the face  
They never faded out
They smashed and grabbed
What they wanted
As my head hit the ground
Until my bubble was burst
Sanity was all but lost at some point
Subliminal messages
Appeared without notice
And put a wrench in my spokes

Solar eclipse
In plain sight
Read ‘em and weep
I own
Up to all of it
Despite my best efforts
Those demons
And Convictions
Plied on top of each other
Scattered sins that burned me
Psychosomatic
Red rivers avenge
Truth be told
Body and mind
Incoherent
A deadman’s trigger
Incomplete
Never truly aligned
Seventeen thousand
Five hundred fifty nine days
Of life
Have felt like ten lifetimes to long
Tarnished goods
Windows are stained
Smudged down to the finest detail
Self assurance is shattered
Red skies flaunt
Where did my black butterfly go
To heavy to hold
The melting pieces of me
Cloak and dagger
My souls been
Wrapped up in cobwebs
Cocooned for more then enough time
Blow out the flame
On my candle  
And watch it flicker into thin air
And let me not be stained and shattered
At someone else’s expense any further

The fury
In thee embattled
Moments came
And went without cause or concern
Fabricated me
Engulfing my traumas
Pandora’s box
Took the part
Of me that didn’t belong here
And made it an inferno
My celestial city awaits
And my soul will be comforted
Like never before
Receding censorship
Uneven playing field
Overrun with angst
It’s finally okay
To let go for good
Release the hold of
A troubled lifetime
And give it all to him
Skeleton to dust
A face that once had a name
Now living elsewhere for all eternity Raindrops turned to sunshine
The ash on my forehead no
Longer stings
Fruit from
The wrong tree they fed
Me I ate it
Unapologetically
They helped in my demise
Destroyed my livelihood
******* me up real good
A difficult life I’ve beared
The circles of life
Some far from gratifying
Carved from stone
A stepping stone
One day I’ll ride freely highly above
And have my redemption
Finally absolved of this life
All because of you holy one

Intensely deep within  
The lifeless gravity
Possessed by past images
They run wild
Obsessions a plenty
Sirens buzzing
Tread lightly
Brighter side of grey
It all boils down to this
Why have you not
Treated me better like an equal
Salvage break
Down thee barriers
Revive a one off like me
Please make sense
Of this preoccupied mess
Circulating thoughts
Swallow me
Something all too familiar
Renting space
Has always been a problem
There is zero room
For failure
It getting hard to focus
Is there rest from
My weary mind
Out of touch with reality
I’d rather step out of my mind  
And not return
May I float on a cloud
Of perpetual serenity
One by one slow down already
Cut the cloth null and void
I don’t wanna
Play your ***** games anymore
Staring deeply into your darkness
Has taken the life out of me
As I’ve plummeted to the bottom
All I ask is you leave me alone
And let me unravel quietly without you