Speed of sound
Without restraint
The birds and
The bees
Flying in the oppositions skies
Back to square one
Just because
We are blood
Doesn’t make us family
Even if
The lights are
On doesn’t mean
Anyone’s home
Born and
Left on a strangers
Front porch
To fend for myself
Locked doors
Unanswered questions
A plenty
The wars that
Were waged
Battles I fought against
Absentee parents
***** donors
Hit and run I was the victim
The mother and father
I never knew
I had were never present
Who cut a hole right through
My soul  
Left the pieces of me
To pick up alone
And the puzzles still incomplete
In the grand scheme of things
A undeniable cruelty
That will not be forgiven
I just cant wrap my head around
Uninhibited my screams will
Never stop till the day the anger
Dies all together

Ever glow
Walking instep
A seamless transition
Before I go
Haunting lullabies
My weary dreary
Anguish
Pockets
Full of misery
A nameless soul
Outmatched
Red light won’t change
Grappling hook
One eye opened
The ticking
Clock on my wall
Hasn’t moved in years
Retribution day is
Just around the corner
Time to put the
Book down
Complete surrender
Living on borrowed
Time somethings gotta give
By now
If this is
What hell looks like
I’m running the other direction
I’ll take a one way
Ticket to heaven
I’m starting
To believe this planet
May be
The indications are all around me
Catastrophic events of life
Have proven me right
They occur far to often
In my circles
To tell me different
For it not to be
Poor ole me I say
Stuck between a rock and
A hard place
Standing still in neutral

Shadow games
How it never went
Disowned
The Devil was out to
Get me
My sweet surrender
That may or may not
Show it’s face
Couldn’t come fast enough
I’d have to learn
Things the hard way
If you open up
Pandora’s box
Eventually there will be
A chain reaction of events
Running mach five
With my hair on fire
Trying to fill
The voids
In search
Of a friend a quick fix
And one sip
From the chalice
And I was hooked
As the poison turned me upside down
Complete control was granted  
The repercussions would become
An overkill of sorts
Eventually do a number on
Me next place I’d hit
Is rock bottom
The cold lonely
Nights behind the bottles
Amounted to nothing
The emptier I became
Looking to fill the shelf’s
In need of some real company
As I numbed myself
To no avail
Rejections the absence
Of true love
Filled my heart with hatered
How could I ever truly
Love another
When I hated myself with a passion
I just wanted to blanket
Myself and numb out a world
That didn’t feel right
And to top it off
How badly I was bleeding inside
Really made hurting that much worse
Harder to even breathe
With no end in sight

I’m flawed
Not a saint immoral
Lingering regrets
Longing for something that
Resembles Heaven
Slaying the mighty beast
Leaving him incapacitated
When will my hell
Freeze over cease to be
No resolve all out of glimpses
Hashing out looking for
A needle in a hay stack
High as a kite
One of a kind
My last stand
A one off
Deserted roads
I drank myself to death with the devil
Never worth a nickel of my time
But who really cares
I can count my true friends
On one finger to hell
With all my acquaintances they’ve
Been gone for decades now
Smoke screens feel the air
No false alarms
Inside I should have known invalid
My hyperbaric chambers
Cut wide open
Only one holds the key
To my salvation
Humble thee who’s ungrateful
And doesn’t want any of this
My candle burns
At both ends
Dry bones
A carbon copy
I’m tired of looking at
In need of my refreshing sanctuary
Show yourself
Rise up and guide thee
But it maybe too late
Hanging on a whim
And a prayer
I’m tired of my story
It’s less then lackluster
At least that’s what I’ve been told
Maybe I’m jealous
Envious of what I can’t have
Or become
Truthfully I’m just bored
Trying to be me
It’s an overwhelming task
With excruciating circumstances
A complete overkill if you ask me totally mundane