I’ve got these scars on my fist, invisible cuts on my wrist never thought I’d come to a moment like this a broken image in the shattered mirror to which I’m looking through while crying my eyes out cause I’m thinking of you how you were so depressed yet angry with the universe feeling like a loner cause no soul understand the curse of being a fatherless child while seeing your mother painfully surviving the abuse of another broken lover from the arguments & fighting not only from his rage but from the hatred felt from a family root gone rotten after the death of the King & Queen that started it all only to see a once beloved kingdom take a devastating fall & there you was in the mix seeing it all unravel without knowing what’s taking place trying to cope with knowing the truth years later after life turns 19 to know that everything was a lie you were exposed to as a teen you were doubted & isolated since you come outta the womb of the very mother that was blessed the second you came to but her tears were imprinted in your heart & they became a part of you So face to face as I let you go so you'll know what happiness feels like as you carry on, no longer putting this dark cloud over your life that makes you feel like you won’t feel peace until you’re buried so go be happy, I can’t bring myself higher to make your future more scary - Poetic Venom
It’s crazy how the one thing we used to desire is now something we fear And every time we get a taste of it, things begin to disappear Can’t get attached to anything cause it’ll eventually drift away Trying to see the good in people but everyone’s not who they betray We fear Happiness due to things going bad after a while So destroyed from the let downs that we pretend to be cool & fake a smile Crying became a perfected routine & trying doesn’t work anymore You just wanna know what can be done so you don’t hurt anymore Anytime you see the light to a better day, you stray away from it Happiness caused more pain so you easily fall back from it High expectations always lead to severe disappointments Push anything away that gets too close, you don’t wanna risk trying enjoy it Fearing Happiness the most, who knew it would cause so much pain Suffering from a shattered heart & coping with the pieces that remain
We Fear Love; fearing the thought of getting attached just to give it everything we have to a heart that never does seem to match
We Fear Love; fearing getting close to someone who seems different fooled by their claims & words only for them to use us right before they become distant
We Fear Love; for the many painful lessons the past taught us trusting the one to be there when we needed them to cease our fall but they never caught us
We Fear Love; turning away all chances to find the one thing we’ve always dreamt of but it’s always led to being nothing but a waste of time
you fear the rain & the thunder in silence where you suffer sunshine for the masses inside you’re shattered rain drops dance from the eyes causing the soul to keep dry the rain describes you as weak so you share it for one that’s who you trust don’t fear the rain let it shower you for its whole purpose is to empower you - Pencasso
Every time I give “us” a chance, you make me walk away I can’t trust someone who’s never there to make my day All we do is fuss but yet I refuse to quit on you Still I care & have yet to give up on you Are we best friends or strangers with stale feelings? Got me listening to sad songs & staring up at the ceiling You said you’d always be there for me but you’re always missing I constantly question your reasons & I kept entertaining the excuses given Guess falling outta love was meant for us, who knew? Should’ve known it was end now I gotta deal with losing you Gave you more chances than you deserved, my mistake Still you took me for granted & I drowned in self hate Asking myself what I did to deserve what you gave me Gave you everything but your love was incomplete & lazy We both broke my heart, but I did the most trying to love you Cause I saw myself clearly from your point of view What’s meant to be is meant to be & you wasn’t meant for me Now I see the picture clear, you were never there for me Fell outta love with a dream but I guess this our destiny
Things aren’t the same between us, I don’t know what changed No need to talk about it, this trouble can’t be saved I’ll be okay, just drifting away from who I loved most Falling back & taking my love from the one I loved most You’re a stranger in my eyes now, don’t even look at you the same Non stop tears & broken hearts, guess we’re the blame Never thought I’d fall outta love but here I am saying goodbye Letting go of what my heart became attached to before I let it die I don’t wanna walk away but it’s best for us both Feeling like a joke & your laughter played the host Tried to fix what’s damaged but it made things worst Don’t wanna see you cry no more when I’m believed to be the reason Look into the mirror & look at us, that’s the reason I’m leaving I fell outta love from the love of a lifetime Deuces to the love I once dreamed of, this is my final farewell this time
I fell outta love with you but what was I supposed to do trying to make it all work but I hit a dead end trying to love you What’s a man to do when the love he wants walks away & no matter how many attempts, it doesn’t wanna stay You told me you loved me but I was a fool to believe it gave me your heart just to force me to leave it Hooked me up with someone else when you wanted me just to prove you’re like the rest, you disappointed me You told you didn’t wanna be loved but still wanted to get acquainted that’s a difficult picture to look at & your heart couldn’t resist to paint it Making me hate myself for being the man that I am when in reality, you really didn’t give a **** Putting me through all these emotions I hate most sending my heart to find yours but yours became a ghost How could I fall in & outta love with someone at the same time trying to set me up for the worst just to fall off line We were meant to be apart, away from each other & it’s sad how I did so much to love someone that my heart never had
If I told you a flower bloomed in the dark, would you trust it? Not knowing its background or the contents within would you still desire to become its friend? Appealing to the eye but will it appeal to your mind? Will it blossom after its showered in the rain or slowly begin to die out overtime? There’s a mystery beyond its image but are you willing to explore the roots of its foundation to see where the journey leads Either you discover a path of something magical or it leads you down a path of regret & misery a twist of fate or fairytale ending
Mental Health is the wind that I often soar against with my tears of rain creating great turbulence desiring shelter in the comfort of friendly arms only to frequently land on dense structures, being attacked upon arrival finding refuge in dark spaces where I feel at peace waiting for the sunshine to arise, where my journey to freedom awaits
I’ll learn how to fly again when the sunrises upon me & my soul has risen above all self hatred built from the past to which I’ve buried myself in since youth never knowing how to accept thyself causing me to neglect love for myself I’ve been deprived from my wings but i continue my journey in search of the one who i used to know before this thing called life took a turn for the worst & I’m there staring in the shattered glass mirror but it hurts when i realized the one thing I’ve been missing has been here all along reminding me that I’ve been physically weak & forever mentally strong I was that eagle in the sky held down by depressions cry as I’ve yearned for help but never got it got up again but the confidence in my soar was forgotten so I flew above ground breaking every momentum I’ve had Now here I am on the edge of it all, ready to take flight once again but hopefully with this leap of faith, I learn how to fly again
Back down this road we go reliving memories that nearly died long ago Back in your arms I foolishly fall back to love as we crawl
If this is what’s meant to be let this be the last straw for with you I feel free from all faults & any flaw
It’s never a right time to say goodbye & I know why you still cry from the lack of love that made you fly but in your heart forever is where I’ll reside - Poetic Venxm
I’ve tried taking this away cause it was too much been at war with myself since my world was crushed Tell me why a man with a good heart has to be so dark & only feel safe when he’s talking through his art it’s like I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m confused trying to find a way to the light & follow the tunes of happiness but each time, I come to a dead end looking for my peace in these temporary non friends who claim the same thing as the last person before them & I’m stupid for given a chance or to even believe them I wanted to throw life away cause it didn’t mean anything do me a favor & let me join my family if anything I know I’m selfish for taking away what you created but the gift of words or being a loner couldn’t save it a good heart turned cold being mixed in with the wrong world picture perfect in your eyes but it’s my vision that’s blurred So forgive me for not appreciating what you took the time to make flawless in a way & it’s honestly my mistake threw my life in the trash, the only thing besides my dad I hate but I understand now that the greatest stories ever told have the worst nightmares before the beauty unfolds attached with a few storms from tornados & hurricanes with the rainbow shining right behind the depressing rains of life when the sun decides to fade away & everything aligned becomes a disaster before we see the replay of the carnage left behind when happiness no longer exists with pain being the only way to end a story like this Forgive me, for not appreciating life for what it’s worth being blind by the lies, deceit, & the hurt the disappointments led by false expectations of those who cause harm without hesitation using our fear of letting go to bring more misery further making our self worth feel like an unsolved mystery I stand here in tears as I plead for another chance to get this right to embrace the lessons that come with life never again shall I question your reasons even if I’m overwhelmed when fighting demons All faith placed in you through hell or water, my friend as you guide me to peace & further protect me, Amen
We all wanna be Free from pain & Free from hell Free from the sadness & Free from that mental jail Free from depression & Free from the Anger Free from the fears & Free from self danger Free from the one thing we run from the most Free from self destruction & hurting those we love most What’s the price from freedom? What are the steps to be taken? How much can be build up before one begins to lose patience? What’s the destination to freedom? Is it worth being free? If the truth lies within existence, how long before they begin to see? Free every Lost Soul from themselves & from the harm they’ve endured Reveal the light & show them a new world that’s waiting to be explored Do you wanna Free or forever exist within the pain that traps you? Do you seek Happiness or forever remain with the hell you’re attached to? Seek Freedom or remain a slave to what you’re afraid to depart from Be Free from the chains on your life or continue to be controlled by the mind Be Free or forever pay the price for the same uncommitted crime Slaves to the mind, slaves to that addiction, & slaves to the pain Suffering the most due to commitment & it’s ourselves that we blame What’s Freedom? How long does it take one to find it? Silence speaks very clear for the scars that rest behind it Just wanna be Free, free from everything that you’ve been running from your whole life And if Freedom is really what they make it out to be, is there a sacrifice?
We all wanna be Free from pain & Free from hell Free from the sadness & Free from that mental jail Free from depression & Free from the Anger Free from the fears & Free from self danger Free from the one thing we run from the most Free from self destruction & hurting those we love most What’s the price from freedom? What are the steps to be taken? How much can be build up before one begins to lose patience? What’s the destination to freedom? Is it worth being free? If the truth lies within existence, how long before they begin to see? Free every Lost Soul from themselves & from the harm they’ve endured Reveal the light & show them a new world that’s waiting to be explored Do you wanna Free or forever exist within the pain that traps you? Do you seek Happiness or forever remain with the hell you’re attached to? Seek Freedom or remain a slave to what you’re afraid to depart from Be Free from the chains on your life or continue to be controlled by the mind Be Free or forever pay the price for the same uncommitted crime Slaves to the mind, slaves to that addiction, & slaves to the pain Suffering the most due to commitment & it’s ourselves that we blame What’s Freedom? How long does it take one to find it? Silence speaks very clear for the scars that rest behind it Just wanna be Free, free from everything that you’ve been running from your whole life And if Freedom is really what they make it out to be, is there a sacrifice?
Freedom isn’t Freedom when we’re still fighting amongst ourselves all because one race feels superior & the others still fight for equality to be seen as human & not animals
Freedom isn’t Freedom when we’re divided by hatred & political beliefs the past still being taught to the youth by those who hold on failed objectives that got us here in the beginning
Freedom isn’t Freedom when certain sexualities are seen as a disgrace in the eyes of those that follow religious practices preaching “love thy neighbor” but the 1st to judge as if we’re not God’s children on different paths
Freedom isn’t Freedom when we’re still at war with inexcusable deaths committed by bullies with badges who serve to protect freedom will never be Free even Peace comes with a Price
I resulted in doing things to cope with the pain washing away the sorrow watching my soul break down in the rain living every day with a heart that’s hollow
I mixed all that anxiety powder with liquor to keep my leveled listening to the voices within my head stepping further away from God & closer to the devil not caring if I live to see tomorrow or if I end up dead
Life took too many turns for the worst & I wasn’t ready losing myself thru the feeling looking death in the face & telling it I’m ready pills & alcohol was my only source for the right healing I’m only free from pain when I’m intoxicated can’t cope with what’s killing me, life & emotions never fully cooperated Never wanted to admit I was an addict until life was almost cut short but I guess when you back is against the wall, death seems like the only resort
I’ve experienced enough pain, I’m trying to seek what brings me happiness so i no longer have to beat myself up & live with so much anger & madness It took 25 yrs for me to love the man i kept seeing in the mirror but after realizing a few things, a lot of qualities became clearer I gave my love to a lot of toxic people which inspired the self hate that i grew attached to telling myself over & over that I’m worthless & no one really loves you It’s crazy how anxiety can make you feel like you’re a burden to most even those who you’ve opened up to & eventually became close I’ve been at war with myself for all this time, the war between my heart & my head with my head convincing me that I’m better off dead I’ve been hurt a lot in the past so the flashbacks tend to weight heavy on my mental pausing me from believing in myself so I’ve been declining steady As I’m transitioning from my former self to a new version of the man that I’ve doubted i see a new man full of self appreciation & I’m completely astounded Though the war is far from won, i keep fighting hoping victory is within my grasp trying to steer clear from the mind tricks within mind that tend to often run laps I see a great man who’s been shattered but slowly he’s pulling himself together while learning to love & accept himself 10x better No longer looking at the world thru anxiety but thru the view of his own reality From never cracking a smile walking with his head down to gracing life with a new found happiness, refusing to let toxic energy ignite a frown I stand proud of the man I’m becoming & grateful to the man i used to be for he taught me to appreciate thyself before allowing others to love me -Poetic Venom
It’s been a while since you were mine, since that spotlight was mine Since you placed your lips against, since our love last intertwined We ended things way too early without knowing how great we could’ve been not knowing the memories awaiting from the times we’ve yet to spend You want us to be close but not the way I’d wish us to be guess I’m the only one that wants to see how great we could be I should’ve played the fool for you, should’ve went hard for you but now I’m just forced other guys loving you which very much breaks my heart in 2 pieces & it’s all because of you having this illogical mindset that you do failing to realize my heart beats because of you so when that day comes & you’re walking down the aisle looking beautiful staring into his eyes as he looks back at you it’ll become my funeral when your heart says “I Do” - Poetic Venom
I’ve seen you weather many storms without breaking a sweat & the Devil’s trying to break you but you ain’t gave up yet I know you must be overwhelmed & tired although you won’t say it helping those around you more than yourself though you’re not obligated to put anyone over you but you still do it just for the same ones to make you feel stupid Through all the betrayal, not once have you thrown favors in the face of those who’ve spat it back in your face to make you feel like loyalty should be your reason when that word is more of a tattoo & they’re only good for leaving you in the dirt once they’ve used you for their personal convenience But please, give yourself some credit for having the heart that you do & I know ***** to feel unappreciated for the things you do to be overly loyal to many but most do nothing but mistreat you take you for granted & completely ungrateful You’re a rare breed, there will never be another you Give yourself some credit, you’re entirely too unique & special - Poetic Venom
Ever meet that one person in life feeling like they’re meant to complete your life Been knowing each other for years but every time you turn around, you’re causing each other tears Barely speak like you used to but you’re too caught up to love another can’t love anyone else cause you’re too in love with each other You’d rather suffer the storm with them than to enjoy a sunny day without em Can’t move on from them cause you’d be miserable without em Throughout all the fuss & fighting, the feeling of making up makes you forget that this relationship is like a roller coaster with overwhelming twist If you didn’t miss em so much, you’d **** em off mentally Feeling your heart break every time you say good bye Missing em every minute & can’t help but cry If you could survive life without em, you’d try no rehab needed, their drug is the perfect high Laying in a bed built specifically for your guns & roses
What can I say about the man who's taught me a lot the one person apart of his life that he forgot someone that needed him the most but his presence forever remains a ghost & for the longest time, I've hated you for leaving the last thing you told me is that you loved & I believed you If there's anything you taught me the most, never be like you never create a blessing but toss it aside like you so for you dad, this is my fathers day thanks to the Father I never had but always wanted who's love failed to accept me & the memories forever haunt me but I forgive you for walking away, I understand now that it's more about you than it ever was about me thanks for making my mom struggle to raise me just off lousy child support that was $80/ week Happy Father's Day, I became a man without you - Poetic Venom
You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for You don’t understand why I tend to push away before Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying manage I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it How can one put up with so much & still not lose it? I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on
You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for You don’t understand why I tend to push away before Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying to manage I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it How can one put up with so much & still not lose it? I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on
I’m having one hell of a week before I made that drastic decision to send a text to that one person I regret missing Our pride won’t let us communication, at least that’s what I thought & the ego of a man is the toughest battle a man had ever fought Somewhere deep down, I knew the signs weren’t lying to me but I was hoping it wasn’t what I thought it would be It took a turn for the worst when she said she had something tell me I knew she was leaving since it couldn’t be a pregnancy So how do you cope with the person you love most falling for someone else & them being too “afraid” to tell you so they keep it to themselves It was like the Titanic hitting that iceberg & my heart was the bottom of the ship punctured & wounded causing my soul to sink She didn’t wanna go back to the past but you can’t go back to what never existed so let’s be realistic, you didn’t want me but couldn’t tell me so you fed me the bullsh*t The last woman I had faith in, the last woman I fell in love with the only woman I made love to & the only woman I could see a future with You met me when I was broken, fixed me up, just to leave when he came along then to have me thinking we were going to build the home that our hearts belong You fooled me once but I forgave you, you fooled me twice & that’s all my fault but knowing someone could easily replace me, that’s your biggest loss -Poetic Venom
I used to show mad love Used to put every soul before me but the same ones showed no love & the ones I went hard for, ignored me I cared more for them than I did myself even loved them 10x harder than I loved myself Would’ve taken a bullet if fate needed a life as a sacrifice but doing so only leads to a betraying price I pulled that knife outta many backs only to have that same knife thrown in mine, now I see how evil attacks I never wanted to be this way but what do you expect when I’ve been through so much pain, disappointments, & neglect I showed more love than I was supposed to only because I was chosen to by the same ones that I walked thru the storm for pushing me closer to that edge that I was headed to I pretend not have a heart just to keep from being broken again & I choose to stay alone just to avoid the realization of knowing you don’t have friends This world is a game & depending on how you play, you either end up eliminated or hurt so I’m not heartless but use my heart less being in a world so cursed
Help Me Understand the tears of a lady & how to wipe it Help Me Understand how to find the perfect heart & repair what’s inside it For years I’ve searched for the answers that most men question Trying to overcome the challenge of loving a rare blessing Help Me Understand her mentality & how I can prove my worth By giving her something she’s never had but always wished for Remove her fears of being torn & hurt And proving this journey is something to which my heart was built for Help Me Understand how I can turn her mentality around from hating men Or how can I put a smile on her face just by the times we spend To be the Man of her Fantasy & not the Nightmare that keeps her awake To be the Husband of her Dreams & not the inspiration for her self hate Help Me Understand the ways of making her feel electric by my actions Bringing the pieces of her heart back together but not for my satisfaction Help Me Understand how can one make it pass every test Until she sees that I’m the blessing delivered from a lifelong request She’s afraid of me & I’m afraid of her, an understanding mutual fear Of being left alone after feelings were involved but never sincere Help Me Understand that smile to which she keeps locked away How can I be that guy who she smiles for every day Help Me Understand a woman of her standard & what it takes To be the rest of her life & avoid being the man she’ll eventually hate From her head to her toe, from her heart to her soul She’s a rare Work of Art that only one true man can inspire to glow Help Me Understand how to be the man that she’s waited for her whole life And how I convince her to fall in love without having to think twice
Here’s to the Woman; whose smile speaks volumes & says so much still managing to be strong although the pain is too much her presence maybe silent sometimes but it’s always felt she wants to be loved but has never felt her heart melt her smile reminds you of the sunset, so beautiful & picture perfect but her waterfall tears sing the melody of something that feels worthless the heartbeat that matches the ballad of the broken hearted & the spirit of one who’s been forgotten & departed a heart of gold, the kiss of an angel, & a gracious presence the personality of a rarity with the soul of many blessings she brings joy to those who come across her & unforgettable to those who’ve lost her she knows exactly what she wants out of life & what she has to offer though she’s cried a million tears, with each tear shed, she grows a bit stronger -Poetic Venom
What you know about sleepless nights cause you brains have dispersed? Getting back time & interest that will never be reimbursed Keep running into roadblocks everywhere I turn Having interest in these women but never getting the same love in return What’s the use of trying to find something different when it doesn’t exist? When every female you meet, there’s no loyalty that consist She believes she’s special when she ends up in my bed Feeling on top of the world due to something that I said Are you still gonna ride even when things get tough? Are you really about that life? Is your love the one I can trust? Trying to be a better man but I’m battling bad habits Hard to be faithful when the loyalty is absent Back & forth with my emotions, some days I don’t care if you’re mine The sad reality is that I’m loving you blind Dealing with a heart that’s mentally unstable Not ready to love you & I know you feel the betrayal Who can love you better than me? I won’t lie Let the gun go baby, I don’t wanna see this love die Here we go again. Why can’t you let it go? I don’t wanna fight anymore Why can’t you let it go? Just want this love to be restored
Her heartbeat is more than just melodic to me When it details what she sees in me And it’s amazing to see but it hurts me How we’re both trapped souls but she’d rather see me be free While she stands behind & sheds a tear Wanting to follow my lead but it’s that fear Of going back after getting away So i pray that one day, she’s no longer a mental slave And she finally sees the sunrise of her happiness & what it awaits And when the sunsets, i look back as she fades away But every time i reach out & grasp for her, i can never find the right words to say Just so she’ll know how much she means to me & how she’s the sunrise of my every day
we don’t chill like we used to talk like we used to already have a bond established & you allowed him to pursue you
Who do you love? is it me or someone that you just met why the sudden desire to create a remix to the perfect duet
Him or Me? I can’t bother to give you a decision at the end of the day I see that the love for me is already missing So I’d rather leave it alone & let him have you I couldn’t fix this love even if I bothered to try to
There you are again, sitting by the window crying with the rain Gave your everything once again & feeling that never ending pain Doubting yourself & feeling like you’re not good enough Although you gave your all & it didn’t seem to be good enough Heart shattered again singing that same melody Wanting to try harder but love doesn’t have the perfect remedy Can’t win for losing so you question what it is that you’re doing wrong Every time you bounce back, your heart gets placed back to where it doesn’t belong It’s those same rehearsed tears that’s had one too many encores And a severely wounded heart that continues to get knocked off its course Eager to give up, say “**** it” once & for all And I for one am tired of seeing you stand up but constantly taking a fall Hearing your tears loud & clear but it’s heartbreaking to listen to I just hope you don’t give up, I know True Happiness is missing you It’s not that you’re not good enough, just haven’t met the one who deserves you Just running into the same disguised jokes that continues to curve you It’s like seeing the perfect image being tarnished by every presence it meets Being used just for the moment & placed back after it’s defeat Love’s a game of chess but it seems like no one is protecting this Queen False advertising a world that only exist in her dreams