Look,
one day,
it’s all
going to happen
to you.

You’ll wake up one morning
and skin your knee
for the
very first time.

You’ll jump
into your best friend’s
pool
in the middle
of winter
just to feel the
cold.

You’ll fall asleep
drunk
in someone’s
backyard
on cheap *****
that sticks
to your fingers
like pancake syrup,
and burns
like the hell
you’ll feel
the first time
you realize
he doesn’t love you
back.

Your life
will be full
of
laughter
and
heartache
and
temper tantrums
from not getting your way
at 5
and age 25.

But baby girl,
if you’re lucky,
and since you’re
your mother’s daughter,
you will be,
your life will be bursting
at the seams
with all the stars
shores
and peanut butter cups
your little body
can hold.

Maybe you’ll
grow up
and save
the world.

Maybe
you’ll slam
your car door
when you leave
and break my
heart.

Or maybe you’ll be
like me,
awake at all hours
writing down words
for someone
who doesn’t yet
exist.

But no matter
which path
you choose,
know that
I’ll always
be at the end of it
waiting for you
with sweets
and bandaids
in hand.

i can't wait until i fit into these boots.
my ankles sprouting forward, into adulthood.
it never occurred to me
that i might have to buy my daughter a pet
so she can watch it die.
there's nothing scarier in this world
than falling in love with anything you know wont last.
the hardest lessons are the ones
we know we have to teach ourselves.
i dont know how to thank you lord
because i dont know if youre there.

People say 'Treat others the way you want to be treated'
But I don't entirely believe in that philosophy
How about, treat others as if you were to die today
With death having been on my mind a lot
I often think of how others perceive me
That if I were to die (not would they care)
But what would they think
Does my voice ring in their ear like a fall breeze
Or does it cause pain like sand in a sandstorm
Do my words help heal wounds like a bandaid
Or do they split them open like a thornbush
Does my presence cause your heart to flutter
Or does it cause your heart to sink into your stomach
I want to die knowing I've done well to those around me
Never in a thousand years would I treat someone the way I want to be treated
Because I'm still waiting for that day when metal touches my skin
The **** of a trigger echoes in my ears
The boom of a fire silences everyone around
As I feel the bullet passes through my broken and stitched back together heart

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