i always wanted you
together we finally
could make our dreams come true
cause anything was possible
when i was with you but
they kept on sayin
we'd never
amount to anything
we had many dreams for the future
i....I'll miss you
and our…
unwound future!
I'll be leaving soon
to another place
all of the dreams
we built up from the ground
they never belived them
they just tore them down

all my problems
all my insecurities
all my fears
all my hates
all my feelings
and all my loves

I don’t cry anymore
the salt ran dry.
I don’t look up
the sky stopped looking back.
I don’t believe
in believing.

Where are you now,
God of broken pages?
That book
full of thunder,
full of fire,
full of once.

Where are the miracles
when we need them
more than ever?
Silence
—louder than prayer.

You’ve
forsaken me
in my heart,
forsaken me
in my mind,
forsaken me
in my...

Why?

You wanted a boy
You got me
Were you happy
Of course not
I did all the right things
Took care of you
Didn't chase after boys
Rather, I chased my dreams
Made a name in the world
People I meet say- we are proud of you !
But you are ashamed .
I am still your worthless child
Just because I am a girl.

I used to draw on my arm all the time
Nothing big or elaborate
Just a triangle
One triangle
Then I wouldn’t hear the end of it
Everyone complaining
Ink poisoning
Future punk
What’s next, a motorcycle?
So I stopped
I stopped drawing that little triangle on my wrist
Right above my pulse point
But with it
I
Stopped
L I v I n g.
A triangle was supposed to be the strongest shape
It was supposed to make me strong
But I wasn’t even strong enough
To let it stay

my head is spinning
because im not winning
this battle in my head
i think im gonna be dead
my pain is taking over
my body's a little fuller