I need to go away from here
I'm starting to go insane
I need to go far away
so I can release this pain
I don't want to worry about tomorrow
I don't want to talk to anyone
I want to hear nothing whatsoever
I just want this day to be done
Why does my head hurt so much?
The pills I take are not working
Why can't I stop panicking?
I feel like my brain is bleeding
The noises I hear are getting louder
I need to go for a walk
I need everybody to leave me alone
I don't want anyone to talk
I take more pills that I don't want to take
but my head hurts some more
I leave my house and I want to puke
I don't want to hurt anymore
My hands are sore I sit down and I start to cry
if this headache does not go away soon
I'm gonna have to say goodbye

Sometimes I wish I was dead
these tears that I have are getting too old to shed
Whenever you're gone
something tells me you're not alone
I can't reach you on the computer
and you won't pick up your phone
What are you doing when I'm not around?
Thinking of you being unfaithful
makes it impossible to hear any sound
It hurts me inside to think badly of you
but the stories you have been telling me lately
just seem so untrue
Even when we hug
you smell different to me
You smell like alcohol and ****
the perfume on you doesn't smell like me
Even when we're together
you forget what I like
I point these suspicions out to you
then you get mad and we fight
I'm sick of the only one
who is doing her part
If your unhappy just tell me
don't keep breaking my heart
I can't go on like this
this fear is driving me crazy
just answer me honestly
are you cheating on me?

And so the foolish jeweller played
With rocks, minerals
Dirt that made
Precious gems
Time forged:

For ears to listen
For fingers to feel
For necks to hang above our hearts

For engaging a promise
For a gift
Or memory

Cut, processed
And boxed for a fee

True gems
Come from within
A soul mined deeply
A journey begins

Body please rest
Mind please ease
Even if you do

Friends dont let me be a memory

nothing but a dream and a pen
they say i'm too creative
to be working 9 to 5 again
who's to say i really didn't know
that nothing would come of
the dream i was sold
i just water the seed to watch it grow
but to harvest the farthest
is the distance i'll go
they say to never give up fully on a dream
keep the hope well alive
and your heart will be free
still entrapped within my mind's brutality
sometimes i'm told just to go
without even knowing the personality
it's a gift
it's a blessing
it's curse
it's all the same
do i do it for the love
or do i do it for the fame?
attention can be tricky on our sleeves to be as shade
when your world around flips upside down in a selfish pride parade
but who's to say i can't be proud
i speak my mind
i say it loud
i can't help that the words flow like water in a stream
that me without expression is a soul that lives unclean
a window to a world that remains unseen
you think you've seen the full on vision
but you're looking through a screen

let me open the door for you
and show you my dream