As a symbol
Of our endless love,
Ill shower you
In gifts.
Not little trinkets
Or things of expense
Something that you can
Remember my love by.
Something that will
Make you shed tears
Of happiness
With every gaze.
I don't know how long
My body will remain
On this Earth
But at least you will
Have that symbol
Of our love to remember me by.

I owe myself the
Pleasure
Of confessing to you.
I loved you,
Since that first smile
On that first trip,
Remember it in grade 3.
You looked at the seals
Dancing at the gleaming waves.
Screaming in happiness
When the water touched
Your skin.

As you grew older
That smile seemed to fade
The screams of happiness faltered
Your bright eyes
Masked by glares.

All i want is the return
Of that happy child
The one from grade 3
The one I fell in love with.

Every now and then
I think back
To my relationship
With you
How you loved me
But loved them more
How you were compassionate
But too insolent
I wished on every star
That you can see
My love for you is boundless
And that my eyes sees no other
But each day
I heal that breaking soul
You break mine twice as much
And when I call out to you
You brush off my presence
When will you see
That I want to be more
More than Friends

Goodnight my love,
Even though the moon's
Greeting comes
to separate us,
I will always love you.
Our bond that was
Formed by Fate
Can never be broken
Because with each
Setting sun
You enter
My dawdling mind
And my heart begins
To sing songs
Like the birds of
early morn

If you had told me five months ago that
I would laugh again
And love again
I would have spat in your face
Because how could I possibly ever feel
Again after losing nine precious people to me?

But I am laughing
And loving
And smiling once more
And I think about them yes,
Sometimes I cry
But pain is apart of being alive.

If you had told me four months ago,
That we wouldn't be
I would've rolled my eyes and said
'You must not see the way he looks at me.'

But we are not
We will never be
And I guess that hurt me for a while
But I still smile
And I don't even notice you
Half the time
Because other things
Like happiness are consuming my mind.
And I know that before the school year ends
I will have another
And you will be the last thing on my mind.

If you had told me twelve months ago
Things would be like this now
I would have laughed out loud
Because it couldn't possibly be true?

But it is
I am happy
I have grown
I will
Continue
To
Grow
I
Will
Glow.

Gone,
Taken from our midst,
Our grasp.
We waited so long
For her arrival
And now all we do is mourn
Because we were careless
And she slipped through
Our glossed fingertips.
All we can do is cry,
Cry to God
Asking, no Begging to bring
Her back.
But its too late
No miracles can change time
She is gone

I am knocking
Waiting at the door
Seeking your assistance
So I won't cry anymore
My knocks are louder
As dawn becomes dusk
But all I hear is a shout, scream and cuss
Will you open
I am begging please
Because I can't take it anymore
The demons of suicide, ****** and madness
I dragging me into the darkness
All I want you to do is let me in