Our desires were chalk lines and strawberry wine,
A beautiful disaster lost somewhere in time.
Yellow tape fluttered where promises bled,
Broken glass glimmered like the words left unsaid.

Lipstick stained bottles tipped over the past,
Your hands left their mark, and Gods, did they last.
Velvet night violence hits sweetly under covers,
Choking the life out like an aggravated lover.

I wore my heartbreak like a diamond-cut jewels,
Dancing through wreckage addicted to you; like a fool.
You left me for dead in the heat of your crime;
But darling, destruction was truly sublime.

I packed for love or so I thought,
With truths I wore and the lies you brought.
A threadbare trust in a dress of grace,
Your smile tucked into the velvet case.

Hidden deep beneath the seams,
Were ghosts that danced amongst my dreams.
Each one a whisper soft and low,
A secret you thought I'd never know.

A kiss that strayed, a veiled excuse,
A promise made and then cut loose.
You folded guilt in woven lies
And tucked it snug under alibis.

They stir each time I try to sleep,
A weight I carry, buried deep.
They follow close, like silent hosts
I'm bearing a suitcase full of ghost.

Now every step I feel the drag,
the silent weight, like a tattered flag.
No zipper shuts them in too tight,
I'm haunted still by morning light.

Cherry stained lips in the heat of July,
dripping sweet nothings like peach colored wine.
He called me his sugar, his muse, his flame,
but summer's a dream that won't ever remain.

Lemon light kisses strewn in my hair
his hands are on my hips and pulling me there.
He tasted like heat waves and strawberry sins,
a charm so alluring he ****** me right in.

Now the orchard is quiet the nectar runs dry,
the vines are all empty, silently I cry.
If I close my eyes I can still taste the past,
sweet like a promise and too golden to last.

Love once hummed in perfect tune,
A symphony beneath the moon,
Each heartbeat a scar we couldn't mend
like a melody we softly bled.

But silence crept through shifting skies,
Like violins with broken cries,
The notes we knew dissolved in mist,
A phantom of songs we once had kissed.

Now every chord is out of place,
Each rhythm stumbles, lost in space,
The lyrics fall like brittle leaves,
A ballad bruised by make-believe.

Where harmony once wrapped us tight,
Only aching echoes ring in the night,
our love, a song without its core,
Drifts unheard forevermore.

There’s a tidepool behind my heart,
small and silver in the evening's breath.
Not deep, but torn in every part
holding you close, keeping your death.

A cracked ring lies in the brine,
still warm with what we never said.
A memory flickers, out of time,
like candlelight around the bed.

***** click like clocks inside my chest,
marking hours I can’t reclaim.
Anemones bloom with soft unrest,
each one uncurling saying your name.

The tide recedes but leaves it all—
your cologne, your smirk, a Polaroid of our crowd.
A sea-star clings against the wall,
where everything we built has fallen down.

No current comes to pull it free,
this shallow grave of silent songs.
But I return religiously,
to worship where your ghost belongs.

So yeah,
the moon looks on forever marred,
but this is where I rot instead.
In the tidepool of a love too hard,
where nothing lives, but nothing's dead.

I'm a daydreamer, a drifter, lost in despair,
Writing love songs through fog that's filling the air.
Smoke in my lungs I'm lost in the haze
it helps blend together the darkest of days.

Kissing this wine just to numb the sting
Everything was a lie and now I'm an angel without wings.
Through mascara tears with a soul laid bare
I realized hell doesn't want me, and heaven never cared.

With a revolver, I'm here tongue in cheek
Pretty when tragic, divine when I'm weak.
Pour me another, let the bottle confess,
All of my sins leave me undressed.

Moonlight's my witness and the night knows my name,
Beauty and madness are one in the same.
Light up my sins and watch them consume,
The scent is morose like heartbreak’s perfume

I'm a daydreamer, broken and scared,
My life’s a nightmare, like chaos without cares.
I'm in a reverie moving too fast,
Sh*t luck future and dirt covered past.

When everything is loud the mind goes silent
but never in the way one would like it
The race is so overwhelming it's now just a hum
The hands are steady but the mind grows numb
Eager to please unsteady to rise
Constant exhaustion from boundaries pushed aside.
Anger held down suppressed in the void
Feelings inundate, set up to destroy.

The needle drops like rain at night,
Soft hiss, then suffering takes its flight
Your voice a ghost in satin sound,
Still sings the lie that brought me down.

It spins around, so bittersweet,
Sounds of idolatry on every beat,
Same chorus clings like cigarette ash,
Your same old promise, the same old crash.

In candlelit noir, I play pretend,
and darling this track just won’t end
Just vinyl tears and minor chords,
Your love is a loop of empty words.

“You’ll never be alone,” you said
But baby, that skip plays loud instead.
A line that lingers, carved in pain,
Are like desires that lurk in the rain.

You were the song I always craved,
I was the silence you couldn’t save.
Now every dusk, I press rewind,
And bleed your echo from my mind.

Same song, same skip,
Playing over in essence
And that lyric still haunts me,
Like a fingerprint on all my affections.

I feel so tired,
I feel so alone,
and yet in this life
it's all I've ever known.

Darkness looms within my mind
Eating up all of my insides
All good things come to an end
But what happens when they never began?

Am I stuck in limbo
Forever in this war
Do I even know myself?
Just a shell of who I was before.

Committing to everything is all that I want,
but the guilt living in my head is what haunts
I seem in the moment to be able to forget
all the good things that live within my head.

I know there will come a time when I will make that choice
but do I try to make forever last or do I fall into the void?

The battle in my mind rages loud
and on the outside I'm calm,
but really there's no one around
and so into depression I fall

the silence is eerie where I sit,
in limbo with the love and hate
one side so deserving of one to commit
the other longing for a dreadful fate

there is nothing left to be done or said
no words to help heal the heart
when you live a life at war with yourself
and call your chaos an art

The weight of the void pulls me deep,
a temptation I can’t seem to outlast.
The only solace I find is in sleep
bound by the nightmares of my past.

The battle in my mind rages loud
and on the outside I'm calm,
but really there's no one around
and so into depression I fall

the silence is eerie where I sit,
in limbo with the love and hate
one side so deserving of one to commit
the other longing for a dreadful fate

there is nothing left to be done or said
no words to help heal the heart
when you live a life at war with yourself
and call your chaos an art

The weight of the void pulls me deep,
a temptation I can’t seem to outlast.
The only solace I find is in sleep
bound by the nightmares of my past.

I play roulette with every thought,
Spinning chambers I forgot.
Mirror demons sip my tears,
Whisper vices in my ears.

Will it be the blade of blame,
Or pills pressed down with sweeter shame?
A noose of pearls, a kiss of lead,
Which love song will I die with? My dread.

Velvet chains or drowning gin,
Sapphire lies or suffering’s din.
Every shadow takes its turn,
To light the match and watch me burn.

Choose your weapon, take the stage,
Beauty bleeding out of rage.
Gold-tipped sorrow, silk regret…
Darling death, we haven’t danced yet.