"It's been a while"
That hit me hard.
How can you still smile?
When you are the reason,
Why my world turned upside down.

The warm breeze of the blue sea;
Blue tangs swimming around;
And bluebirds flying freely.
Falling petals from a blue rose;
Blue butterflies hanging upside down;
And its blooming beginning that shows.
I'm always blue;
But I wish I'm that kind of blue.

I'm tired of crying every night
I'm tired of being in pain
I'm tired of getting mood swings and having unstable emotions
I'm tired of being scared and lonely
I'm tired of having negative thoughts
I'm tired of being unhappy
I'm tired of hiding my pain
I'm tired of fighting this pain
I'm tired of being like this
I'm tired of everything
I'm tired of being tired
I just want to end this

I don't want to die;
I just want the pain to stop;
And be free in life.

I am I;
I am me;
I am myself;
I am just who I am.

It's raining;
It's beautiful
I'm crying;
It's painful