Closer and Closer
I watch as my hand touched yours,
You didn’t flinch,
But i know you’ll only like me in a platonic way.
I wish we weren't pulled apart,
I wish i didn’t argue and hiss,
I wish we weren't rivals from the start.
You’re eyes are violent and deep, a storm trapped inside a person.
The pieces of you I tease, are my way of hiding what I love.
Your hair, your anger…
It’s easier to simply forget, to not remember you’re human too.
To hide that time we bonded, that time you held me, the smile you so rarely flash…

Winter dreams and soft love,
Comfortable silences and quiet kisses
You and me, never together, but always held close.

I wish you could live inside my heart, see deep into my soul.
I wish you could rest in our love, be calmed by our mutual “more than friends”
I hope you would see me, feel me and tell me I’m better than I think of myself.
I hope you know how much I love you, adore your smile and how much I wish I could be loved.
I want you to comfort me, to get closer, to stay when I say go.
I want you to understand i’m pushing you away because I care too much, and it’ll only hurt when you eventually leave...
I know you’ll never feel the same, you could never love me, but I want you to understand how loved you are, because if the situations were reversed, I’d want the same.
I know this is cliche, but sometimes these words must still come out...

Your face brings joy to the forefront of my mind
I look at you and know that no matter what,
I’ll be alright. I can be okay.
But along with that, there are times I think of you and my eyes *****
They burn with unshed tears, And for the life of me, I can’t understand why.
Maybe looking at such a great being, at such a wonderful friend, simply is too great for comprehension.
Maybe this feeling brings the same sadness as watching the night sky, and listening to the thunder,
Maybe when I look at you I see sunflowers and daisies, I see the forest in all its majesty.
But whatever the reason, you make me want to live everyday like its my last,
Your friendship brings out that part of me that wants to dance without a care,
That wishful part of me that believes I could sing without anxiety.
You make me want to feel soft kisses, and sometimes when I think of you…
It makes me wish for small tears that never come...

As long as I'm with you it's okay.
You wrap me in your arms,
protecting me from myself.
My heart was yours from the start.
In this unwavering love, your peace surrounds me
I'm found in you, and here I'll stay
lost from the world

I wish you feel these secret emotions
These impulses I lock away, praying to God they’re purely platonic.
I wish to wrap my fingers in your hair,
I wish your uniquely cinnamon scent was up for grabs.
Your fluffy sweaters drape you well,
And your puffy eyes peak out like an unforeseen storm.
If only you would feel the way I do.
But if you do not, can we still be friends?