I am stuck, dreaming
I wonder what dream is awaiting me in this dark place
I hear my perfect dream calling
I see a floating, breathing thing
I want to leave, and then i don’t
I am stuck, dreaming

I pretend  i won’t wake
I feel as free as air
I touch my perfect ecstasy
I worry that my mind is a million miles away
I cry out, for i cannot wake
I am stuck, dreaming

I try to be heard
I understand what i must do
I say that  reality has a price
And i hope for freedom
I am stuck, dreaming

Then i plunge down, under the gelid water
And the world around me softens
I open my eyes to a familiar glow
The muffled light and the deepened shadows
Remind me of a time when all we said was “hello”

When you leave, i’ll still seek her
But she never left that stupid coffin
So it seems we’ll never know
The world beyond the shadows

A fictional character,
An unrealistic goal,
I feel for him more than any other
And now what am I supposed to do?
I guess I’ll never love someone real…
So i’ll just hide from reality
Until someone finds me.
He is fake, and i know it
But at least i can’t ruin it in my imagination
One day i hope it’ll be different
I can’t experience reality like a normal person,
So i’ll just live with the fake
And die alone

You aren’t your worst actions
You are not your hair
Nor your height
You aren’t your age
Or your skin
You aren’t your name
Or your weight
You are not your clothes
And you aren’t what others think of you,

You are the smiles you try to hide
And all the words you speak
You’re all your favorite books
And your  croaky morning voice
You are the hope in your laughter
And every tear that has ever escaped your eyes.

You are the songs you sing at the top of your lungs when you’re alone,
And the dances you do in secret
You’re the things you believe in
And the struggle it took you to be here today
Your the art you create
And the love that you share.

You are so beautiful
But it seems you’ve forgotten
And decided you were defined
By all the things you are not.

What do i do
Can you please be concerned
Try to understand
My world ends almost every week
And you just stand there
I can’t do this without you
I deserve to sleep at night
But when your gone,
I wonder if your ok
School is getting so hard
If you don’t come back
I’ll be dysfunctional
I won’t come back
I’ll stay in my mind
Nonexisting