It's a scary thing, yes
You can't help but mumble
and sway
and mess with things around you.
Public speaking to me feels like
I'm on the edge of a cliff about to get
p̶u̶s̶h̶e̶d̶ ̶o̶f̶f̶.

i felt so empty inside
that i would rather feel like dying
than feel like nothing
so when my old friend came back
i greeted him with open arms
and it was comfortable
for a little while
but then it became unbearable
and i wanted him to leave
but i couldn't make him
and when he finally did leave

i felt so empty inside
that i would rather feel like dying
than feel like nothing
so when my old friend came back
i greeted him with open arms
and it was comfortable
for a little while
but then it became unbearable
and i wanted him to leave
but i couldn't make him
and when he finally did leave

I can’t bring myself to get out of bed
my aching soul just wants you near
the tiredness of my eyes craves your warmth
so finally they can close with a sense of safety
the burden on my heart is too heavy to bear
I lug it with me everywhere I go
I tell myself that a happy heart still breaks,
and joy still has pain
but even through it I can never rid it
so please forgive me
I am feeling an unimaginable sense of grief

I crave life
I crave life like a child craves their mother
I want so much
I want to experience everything
I want to feel every feeling
I want to walk in golden sunlight
and drink from fresh springs
I want to dance naked in the forest
I want to fall in love
I want to have my heart broken
I want to stay awake for 3 days straight
I want to walk the edge of a cliff
and fall
my heart longs
to be free and wild
but grounded and in control
it swells in my chest
until i cant think
of nothing else
but escape

We don’t always need to be talking to enjoy each other’s company
We enjoy the little moments when they happen
When I reach for her hand, it’s always there
We have a wanderlust together
A mutual respect that is unique
Always in love we are
Every kiss is important
We send a message each time we do
It’s the date that lasts forever
And she’s all and truly mine