How do I build myself up again?
When the person who built me
Smashed me into pieces
And scattered those pieces away?

As I walked the path,
The memories flashbacked,
Moments of you and me, us and them
Times when we were still liberated and young
Reminiscing all of them,
Ahh, I miss my youth
Those days were now gone

We love each other but what can we do?
Look at those gestures,
Those smiles,
Those eyes,
How would you know that I love you too,
If i'm too scared to tell you to?

I have no time to be sad.
There are school works,
I have to be a functioning human.

I have no time for drama.
There's too much of that in my life.
It is evident, it is rife.

I have no time for emotions or whatsoever in general
I still have a lot of things to do,
I don't want it to be affected
It only brings pain and melancholy.
I've had to much of that.

Because I am a coward and I'm afraid to be hurt,
I forgot how to feel emotions
And instead felt numbness.

You are an ocean.
The deeper you get
The darker you see

Maybe that's why I felt lost.

Because the more I got to know you,
The more I saw your true colors
And it was pure black.

What we had was real
Now, it's gone.
What we had was genuine.
Now, it's gone.
Everything's gone.
Everything.
Every little thing that we had.
I therefore conclude that the quote "people come and go" was definitely true.
I learned it in the most painful way anyone could.

Sometimes in life,
We have to accept
The incidents
That hurt us
Is meant to happen
To strengthen us
And to make us
Feel alive

Our past where once part of a sweet memory we forged.

I stole your ideas
Gonna pretend that it's mine
Oh, someone praised me
But it didn't feel flattering

All I wanted was to be acknowledged
But oooh, that acknowledgement didn't feel genuine
It felt so fake. Like me, and my creations.

I guess, this is it.
This is our ending.
It's not sad nor happy,
It just feels incomplete,
Like we shouldn't have ended at all
If only we didn't shout
and fought
and got caught
with our pride.
we'd still be happy after all.

my face,
full of acne and blemishes
my *******,
not as perky as you want it to be
my skin,
full of scars and not milky white
my hands,
very rough and blemished
my stomach,
looks like i'm pregnant
my legs,
have no thigh gaps, no toned legs
my feet,
callouses surrounds it

even if you tell me it doesn't matter,
it does for me
you always push me
to be the person
i'll never be

I learned to appreciate myself
When you told me
I'm not good enough for you,
Well *******
I'm too good for you

I can't forget you
Yet I always try to
Everything just reminds me of you
The morning breeze
How the afternoon's dish tasted
And the look of the evening sky
And even If I try to pause and erase these thoughts
The flashbacks of our memories will go through endlessly
Again and again and again

The pain is there again.

Midnight crashing down
We're under the streetlight,
Where is this going?

I loved you

even when it hurts

I understood you

even when it's illogical

I helped you

even when you don't want to help yourself anymore

I always made time for you

even though you cannot commit to me

And I grew tired of it

even when I don't want to

Don't worry, I'm now leaving you

because I never felt your love and affection

I am tired of being a martyr

I loved you, but I am so freaking tired of your excuses

It'll hurt a lot

*but I'll move one and find one to replace you soon

Was there a night you just stared at the ceiling and cried?
Was there a time you just were too tired to fight?
Were there moments when you just wanted to die?

There'll be times that it'll be hard,
Those are the times that'll give you an illusion to give up
Be strong and hold on,
Until then you'll strive
You'll live and survive
Not happily ever after,
Not like the movies or those dramas you watch
But with your own kind of reality,
Your truest reality that will genuinely make you happy

Until then, you have to fight,
Until then, you have to strive
Until then, you have to live
Until then, you have to survive

We were once strangers,
turned into friends
then we became lovers,
but now, you're just a stranger,
with all my hidden secrets.
and right now,
you're the person
I wished
I haven't met.

You said you'd never leave
So I introduced my real personality

But when you knew,
You suddenly abandoned me.

Judge me all you want,
Hate me all you want,
But you can never erase the fact,
That you're thinking of my life.

I'll never break your heart
I'll always be by your side
Just trust me, just give me your heart
Just give me your all, and I'll guve you mine

They say that promises are meant to be broken
But no, i'll never break mine
I'll keep what I said so just stay by my side

I miss myself
I'm not who I was before
I'm changing
And not for the better
I feel suffocated
And tired
And anxious
And depressed
All these feelings that were repressed
How can i let this all out
When the only solution in my head
Is death?

Escaping is
Drowning yourself
with depressing music
and suicidal thoughts

You confessed to me
That was the most beautiful thing
I've ever heard and seen

I'm suffering
You just don't know at all
I'm afraid to show it
You might just leave me at the hall
Finally had the courage to open up
You just left me to cope up with everything
I'm doing my best to overcome this
Because you said this is all delusions,
You told me "this is all in your head"

Hello poetry,
Thank you for always being there for me,
You're the one I poured my melancholy
The happiness I felt, you're the one who first knew all about it
You became my emotional punching bag,
I expressed everything in you
And thank you is not enough to express my gratitude,
But really, thank you, you're the one I leaned on
When I thought nothing's gonna go better
Thank you for never getting tired of me.

And so I cried for you,
When you never cried for me
And I fought for you,
When you never fought for me
And now, I am leaving you
Because you never stayed with me

Sitting at midnight
In front of a laptop
While wiping the tears
And weeping in silence

I looked at our photos
We were so happy before.
Before was the time that
I wanted to get over.
The past is still haunting me,
Moments of you and me,
I still cannot fathom
You being with someone else.

You can't be mine,
Neither can I be yours
And all I could do
Is write poems about you

From that very moment, I just wanted to die
However, I saw your smile
It radiated through my lonely heart.
I was warmed, I was delighted
You became my reason to live,
My child.

Sunrise
Rice
Suffice
Breakfast
Held back
Emotions
Let's break up

the sea breeze feels nice
sun is perfectly shining
what could go wrong today?

Yes, i'm aware that i'm being stupid
Yes, i'm aware that she's not gonna love me back.
Yes, i'm aware that i'm indulging myself in fantasies with her.
Yes, i'm aware that she's taking advantage of my vulnerability.

Yes, i'm aware, you don't need to tell me,
I don't care.
Because that's how I love.

I've changed,
I know.
I'm doing everything not to.
But it's just not effective.
How can I build myself again?

It was just a mere attraction
But ended up with obsession
In constant hesitation
Is this love or infatuation?
What will be the continuation
Of our love story full of contradiction?

The rose has withered,
Its petals started to fall out of its core
The thorny vine that ******,
Will no longer do so,
Oh life, where is it!
Bring it back, bring it back!

Why does the world had to witness its beauty
If it’s going to wilt in the end?

I'm out of ideas
I just want to sleep forever.

Out of 7 billion people in this world
I liked the one
I can't have.