I have a problem
It isn’t a secret, but it isn’t something you’re likely to know
You see, I can’t cry
I try and I try
But, the tears never come
And my riverbeds stay dry
I don’t really remember when it started
This isn't how I was before, I know
But, did something happen?
Is it something I’d rather forget?
Did I break?
I don’t remember breaking
But, I’m broken nonetheless
Are tears like glue?
Could they fix what shattered?
Am I scared that if I repair myself I’ll remember?
Remember?
It’s not that I don’t want to cry
It’s just that, the tears don’t flow
They build up in my eyes, and it aches
I want to cry… And it hurts
They say real men don’t cry
Well, I guess that makes me a man
I suppose I became a man years ago
But, it wasn’t my time!
I had no choice
Just like that, I grew up
And now I feel old, worn
Tired, torn
Did I use all of them?
Where did they go?
And, what exactly made that river flow?
All these thoughts and questions run through my mind
The headache has already begun
I want to cry
But I can’t
They- the tears
They don’t flow
Don’t flow
Won’t flow
Can’t flow
No one would suspect
No one knows
It’s not a secret
But no one ever asks why you’re not crying