I remember leaving the car and walking towards you...
My heart was pounding,
and my thoughts were blurry.
I have goosebumps remembering how I felt then and how I still feel now...
I'm ecstatic, you always solve my heart's quadratics.

About to sleep again...
Stress has gone to my head,
I'm tired and miss my friend.

As I walk up the stairs, there's anxiety in the air.

my eyes sting from tiredness
also from tears of laughter
i love tonight, you're such an enchanter.

Laughing until I cry
Building walls way up high
staying up late into the night
But I don't care, because you're by my side.

My heartbeat scares me,
It's keeping me awake.
I feel it thumping inside me,
I can hear it in my brain.

Maybe I'm just sick,
Or maybe I'm insane.
Maybe I'm losing it,
Or just feeling strange...

At times like these,
I wish I were home.

I tend to write directly before I sleep
Or just when I wake up
If I write somewhere in between,
That's when you know something's up.

Today was good, it was okay
Tonight was lovely, I saw his face.
But now it's real late and I'll be asleep soon,
Someday I hope, next to you.

When will I feel your arms around me again?
I'll wait forever even if you make my head spin,
You haven't yet, you fill me with bliss.
The room may be spinning,
but not from sadness.

in the car
I blare music
in the car
it's warm
but not humid
in the car
I can be loud
or quiet.
In the car
I'm alone
but it's not silent.
In the car
I can drive away,
in the car
they can't hurt me.
In the car
I'll say goodbye,
in the car
I'll drive all night.

this night is over
i'm all tired out
remember when I say
everything's okay,
d*on't let them bring you down
because tomorrow is another day
and things will turn around.

The girl clinged to the trees
As she ran through the woods
There was a passing breeze
She got chills but still ran,
She had to get away
From that dreadful land
and go back to the one she loves.
She got lost a time or two
But always kept pushing through
and soon she will be where he is.

You're the one that I want,
you're the one that I need.
You're the one that I see
when I close my eyes and dream.

I turn the lights off
I don't want to sleep
but I guess I should.

There's a moment when you first wake up
when you don't remember anything
you're just awake.
In this moment you feel no pain, no worries
but as I wake up this morning
The first thought in my head is
I want to wake up next to him
Followed by sighs and turning around
I decide I'll sleep longer.

My hands miss yours, I think that's why they're so cold.

I woke up flustered,
as I remembered
In my dream,
We were dancing in sheets
High on each other,
we created steam.

You keep me warm,
with you, things are good
I never feel cold with you,
even when I should

You hold me closely
with you, I feel safe
I want to stay with you, *always.

My heart hurts when I remember.

If you need me, you know where to find me.

Once again**
Laying in bed,
Playing pretend,
You're in my head.
Instead, *I'd like
if you were in it
with me.

I need to stop overthinking
and just pause for a moment,
...do something distracting
just become frozen.

Pull me under
with you into the sea
hold me close as we sink,
and don't let go of me.
You're still my octopus.

You could tell me anything
And I'd believe you always
"Rebecca you're left handed."
"Oh, I never noticed, really?"

"Oh, wait..."
Yeah, I'd probably fall for it.
I'd take the bait,
but it's only because I trust you,
and believe the things you say.

I'm not so tired,
I feel kind of strange.
I wish you were here with me,
But I'll be okay...

Last night I cried myself to sleep...
But tonight I'm filled with warmth
and hope to dream of you once more.

I lay here silently listening in the light for her to scream or possibly cry, during this time alone I realize how I may have sounded. Now I'm less frustrated, more sad. I didn't mean for what I said to sound bad. Today turned around quicker than I had expected. I haven't felt this bad in a while. I'm sorry.

when I get there,
Can we drive somewhere?
I want to feel your hand on mine
As we disappear down the road
To somewhere we'll be unknown
We can listen to cheesy songs through the radio
And be together for a while.
I'd like that right now.

.

I feel awkward
You're making me mad
You tell me one thing
And then take it back

What's your deal?
Do you want me here or not?
If I'm just a burden
Tell me so I can go get lost.

It's not fun for me either,
Being somewhere I'm not wanted.
Regardless I smile
And will not be haunted.

I want you to touch me
Press your lips against mine
I'm feeling flustered,
But I won't hide...
If you'd just touch me,
I might lose my mind.

my eyes are red
as im laying in bed
im remembering what you said
so many thoughts of mine are left unsaid,

but i couldn't tell you why
even if i tried
sometimes it's just hard to decide
if these words I find sound just right.

That I want you to make marks on my skin...?

I'm holding onto you and shutting my eyes, as the song keeps playing, my heart continues to melt. The sounds from the squirrels jumping on leaves are all drowned out... I feel your hands moving, I smile and breathe you in, our faces come close again, your nose touches mine and I know I don't want this time together to end. *It was cold outside but you left me feeling heated.

Today has come to an end,
and I'm feeling rather content...
I held your hand
and I heard your laugh.

And as we were standing,
I didn't want to let go.
I wanted to hold on to you...
You, I'll always follow.

The moon is so big, let's go live on it.

Back into the car
I watch you walk away
A few minutes pass
My niece is crying.

I think inside I am too,
I already miss you.

Why am I crying

Just a few more hours...
and I'll be with you.

I'm awake once again,
In the middle of the night
I can't get back to sleep
I don't feel too alright,

I'm shaking and tired
I wish you were here
My head is spinning
Is this out of fear?

I thought of you today,
But that's nothing new
I thought about you yesterday
And the day before that too.

This morning I woke up
Wishing I could kiss you
My cheeks felt warm
Logan, I love you.

A tear finds its way down my cheek
I smile and hide my face in a pilllow
It's been a somewhat long week
But now that it's coming to an end
And I know what's about to happen...
It's becoming so difficult for me to stay calm
Because my heart is turning to liquid.
Your voice simply melts it,
I can't begin to imagine how I'll react in person,
I'm nervous...
But I'm excited too.
There's no one else I'd rather be with than you.

10% and I feel tired and somewhat sad.
8% and things are stirring in my head,
I might take a nap.
5% and I plug my charger into the wall.
I'm not sure what just washed over me,
But I'm ready for the fall.

I stayed up so late just to re-read
the things we talked about,
And laughed throughout
Each funny line you'd write.

To see your name in a blur
on my phone's screen,
It's not so bad to me.

to be able to pretend
you were laying right next to me,
I stayed up so late.

I'll hold your hand
And won't let go
I want you to know
How I love you so

You make me smile
And I always blush
I just can't help it
You stir my thoughts up.

My face hurts from smiling
I just can't stop.
The things you say to me
Make my heart throb.

I can't tell if I'm nervous,
or happy or both
But I do know one thing,
Our love will continue to grow.

I had a dream that turned into a nightmare,
We were laying on top of a jellyfish bell
We were small and in the center
Our hands were holding each other
Then I looked over and you were gone
My hand was empty and the ocean turned dark
The last thing I remember,
was being stung and waking up in tears.

The waves are crashing in
I think I've failed to mention
With you there's no tension
but I'm sorry I'm always,
craving your attention.
When I'm talking with you,
I'm in another dimension.

I love you from the bottom of the ocean,
all the way up to Saturn and past it.

You've stood beside me,
and never let go of my hand.
Even when our feet were
slipping in the sand.

Surrounded by creatures, all around
we stand together
and embrace every sound,
I hope it'll stay this way forever.