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Jan 2019 · 155
Sun Raise
JaxSpade Jan 2019
I found the sunset
Orange in footsteps
With yellow eyes of crayon
I just kept walking
No one could stop me
Ever again
We sank down
Into the earths round
And burned our rays
You can still hear us
In the whispers chorus
Carried by the wind
I found the sunset
On the horizons doorstep
And it invited me in
Jan 2019 · 135
Wasted on ifs
JaxSpade Jan 2019
If I could die
Would I be alive
Or gone

If I could live
Would it be like this
Or not

If I could dream
Of a better peace
What would it be

If I could understand God
Could I be a man
Without one
Jan 2019 · 483
Days Dazed
JaxSpade Jan 2019
The end of the daze
Awaits
The heart of face
Buried alive in his grave
The other side of the fence
Begs for green
As death begets
The man
Through the armor
Of a Father husband
Gone and lost
In the cost of it
The cause
She was
The wrongest lips
The kiss of death
Will end the days
Of the minds myth
The heart of face
Beaten to a pulp
Under a chamber
Where bullets take
It all away
The end of daze
Awaits
The calendar of fate
Everything love made
Dies on the day
Earth claims
Dust to the dust
He came
And purpose
Will lay instead
Of the forever
they vowed to make
The good times
Share the memories
In the sublime
Aftermath of tendencies
A sacrifice paves the way
To recoveries
A smoking gun
Leaves the hand of the lamb
And now theres peace
The end of days
Has come to save
Everything from
All the pain
It reaps
Jan 2019 · 207
A New Years Eve
JaxSpade Jan 2019
The Eve I knew
Years ago
Under the midnight hour
The lord bestowed
A woman in the night
My eyes could hold
Into forever she would
Find no more
A New years Eve
Leaves me cold
But my memory
She will always know
Dec 2018 · 143
So Long
JaxSpade Dec 2018
For long
However love comes
Maybe it'll be stonger than him

No matter how much he gave
He couldn't give enough of it

For long
However she's gone
He has to be stronger than he is

No matter how much he cares
He didn't care enough to have it

For longer than he managed
To live
Dec 2018 · 202
CaliforniA Wax
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Old faces

I haven't seen you for a year
Those two moonlit hearts
Devoured by the world
Living in the evidence

Old faces

Pulled apart by
Separation
They used to cry
In each other eyes
Before they died
In relation

Old faces

Remembered goodbye
And why
I haven't seen you for a year
Tonight

Under the moonlit hearts
We'll feed the earth

In the evidence
Of what we were
Never again

Old faces

Leaving the traces
Of two bodys
On the asphalts pavement

Asking
How have you been
Dec 2018 · 194
I saw you disappear
JaxSpade Dec 2018
He said he would rather be defined
By the color of his content
Than the skin of his character

He was a little mixed up
But I think I knew what he was sayin'

If we could live in quotes
And poetic notes
We could overcome pain

But too many people
Can't understand
What he was saying

He would rather be defined
As a
Human being

Being

Inside the color
The same color
Everybody bleeds

He said he would rather be defined
By the color of his content
Than the skin of his character

He was a little mixed up
Like everybody he meets

He said we could all be invisible
When we see

And there would be nothing to define
Just peace

If we could live in quotes
And poetic notes
We could overcome pain

If we could be invisible
We could see

Again
Dec 2018 · 68
The Olde Town
JaxSpade Dec 2018
The old town
       Yesterday
Where the old smile
                 Used to live
Walking around
Visiting
The same surround
        That used to be        
Before it let me down
All the pleasentries
That used to come
                 Found out
I was gone
         Home
It couldn't figure out
What had gone wrong
Maybe it was just me
                   Or my heart
Broken down
It could have been the breeze
                        Or something else
The old town
Of sullen sound
        Tommorow
Won't stay around
                    Too long
Yesterday spit me out
Onto the dead leaves
        And ***** ground
But i knew to get back up
As the world turns me upside down
There is always a yesterday found
                     Maybe it was the *****
That left me with a frown
But i just can't wait
               To go home
Dec 2018 · 100
Dehydrated Horse
JaxSpade Dec 2018
I gave a peace of my mind
With a portion of truth
To **** the lie
But you wouldn't subscribe
Because the piece that puzzled
Your try
Couldn't swallow the pride
You held inside
Whatever you decide
I will be right here by your side
To lift you back up
When you fail to listen to advise
Dec 2018 · 115
Ever Again
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Looking at me
Back
The strands of your
Flaxen hair arching back
I remember the way
Your eyes tied
And twisted my mind
Into everything I liked
I was blind
But I felt everything with my hands
And I tasted you on every fingertip
I had
Where did you go
Where you at
Lookin back
At me
Turn your head
You've changed the color of your hair
And the feeling in your heart
I remember the way you were
And how I wished you'd change back
Until I found someone else
Who could be
Everything you couldn't be next
To me
Lookin at me
Back
The strands of brunette
Took my hands and made me forget
You were ever here to collect
My brokeness
And everything she fixed
Was on the list of everything you'd neglect
So I say you this goodbye
From  the smile off my lips    
I don't ever want to see you again
Lookin back
at me
Dec 2018 · 193
925/1000
JaxSpade Dec 2018
The silver rain

A sliver of cloud
And blackened pain

Pouring down face

We've seen it shine
Mirrors and moons

The reflection of rays

A sliver of moonshine
The silver rain

Tilt back your head
And pray
Dec 2018 · 112
Santa
JaxSpade Dec 2018
I'm leaving town
i hope you got what you wanted

left me in the cold

call me Santa
in the North pole
Dec 2018 · 127
Fat Kid
JaxSpade Dec 2018
It wasn't chocolate
Or the skinny of waist
That melted in my mouth
And left sugar on my taste

Salivating

It wasn't the desire
Or the action taking

It was fate

That left me in candy
And smothered my face

I needed something to blame
On the falling of your dress
And the way your mouth dripped
Color on my lips
In kiss and paste

Gluing your body against my
Wanting to never seperate

It wasn't chocolate
Melting away
Or the skinny of waist
My hands felt
When I ate

I needed something to blame
When you came
And quivered in fate

I knew it wasn't chocolate
But it was cake
Dec 2018 · 263
Merry Happy
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Happy Christmas
Merry New Year
Cheers on the floor

I'm drunk on alcohol
And I've lost all memories
Of the previous year

Tear up the calendar
No need to remember
Who you were

Whiskey fireballs
Burning sensations
Welcome me
To dear January
Already here

I'm now a new man
Merry and happy
On the eve of hangover

But my eyes are too blurry and red
To remember the changeover
Dec 2018 · 251
Page 100
JaxSpade Dec 2018
What does the night sky hold
In its head
Above the stars hanging
On the walls of his breath
I saw one shine unto a light
Put forth before I step
Into the oddness of a every normal
Pile of ****

The sky of the night does what
Ever the moons says
Talking about the sun
And all the days he reflects

What tommorow brings
is the mystery you can't solve
Till it is

Every day you say you're going
To change
but the only thing that changes
Is what you meant

What you meant to say
Is that the changes that take place

Change
because they're different
Than the same thing that used to be before every thing changed it

The night sky changes what it holds in it hands
Comets and cosmic droplets
Of ultraviolet radiation

Somewhere in the human
Blood and oxygen
Consumes this universe
In a race for selfishness

Maybe one day
The night sky could change
The way it pays the day
Its darkness

And when we come to the end of the
Page
We could read one hundred
in the corner of the pages
Percent
But what we really need to change is the way we came to the end and Calculated
The fate of our death
Dec 2018 · 207
S p e c u l u m
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Off the slide
Crawled a microscopic life
The smallest naked eye
No one knew he was there

All the time

Through the scientific mind
He lived for the why
Under a naked body
Held by a tenaculum

And in the process of ausculation
He indulged inoculation

Because the palpation
Discovered his flesh
Was to blame

Inside his brain
His thoughts claimed the fame
That became the curriculums
Lies

After the apple sliced
Under the flesh of knife
Skins peeled life
Down the barrel of eyes

A discarded core
Fell to the floor
And the fall of man
Was born
Dec 2018 · 255
Afghanistanism
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Hide me
Where the moonlight won't find me

In the darkest of unnamed roads

I don't wish to be found
In a population bound

To the evil depths of their hell
Dec 2018 · 211
Sphygmomanometer
JaxSpade Dec 2018
The library was quiet
Silent ischemia read a book called
Myocardial infarction

The radio played techno tachycardia
While myocardium got high on nitroglycerin

It was quiet
I whispered yet no one was listening

I heard a heart murmur something
Into the echocardiography

It echoed
edema
               edema
                             edema

It was there I rested in lipid

I knew my heart was broken
The day she said she was leaving

It was then my diagnosis
became cerebral thrombosis

I had a cerebrovascular accident
And I lost my mind
With my heart underfoot of my lover

Now I'm searching for a surgeon
To put it all back together
Dec 2018 · 217
Saturn is losing her rings
JaxSpade Dec 2018
My eyes sliced
Through the lies twice
As I saw the truth hide
Inside

They cut through the mind
And the darkness blind
When I saw the hearts crime
Shine onto mine

Into the windows
Of the soul
A wind blows cold
Over the meadows
And grasses grown

The frost was lost
On the blades of us
Cutting through the sun
And all that was
A silent ear spoke sound

Then her mirror
Wiped a smiles fear
Of ever turning upsidedown

And there was a background
Of a record which played
An old song
That left our hearts on the floor

My ***** would never clove
In this deck of cards I hold
My wallet kept telling me to fold

Luck had ran out of town
With time and a wound
Which called me old
And caught me alone

I looked up
Into the universes dream
And saw the planets scream
For love

Saturn is losing her rings
And pluto is a different being
With nobody around
To be or not to be
Dec 2018 · 126
Colorforms
JaxSpade Dec 2018
What do you believe in
Said a man
As he pondered his thoughts with crayons

Coloring like a kid
The pages of what he cannot understand

He said he believed in nothing
That this world came from man
And the history of evidence
Wasn't enough for him

Every one believes in something
Who created our hands
Father and Mother
From who created them

It's not rocket science
Reproduction since when
For who created the big bang
And who colored them

What do you believe in
Said a man
Drowing in his denial
In the quickest of sand

The battle in his head
The answer in his land
He refuses to believe the Truth
That born the plan

A man said
You believe in
Where you stand

For it is the foundation
Of where you'll end
Dec 2018 · 1.1k
Poetic Hills Heels
JaxSpade Dec 2018
On the poetic hills
Of love

We ride along

   Pushin'
Fighting

       For the world

We're building the strength

For it
    To fall

So we could get back up again
                                   And love
On the poetic hills
         Of bacchanal

Partys
    and
          Laughter

              In alcohol

Naked under our clothes

We ride along

   Pushin'
Fighting

       For the world

We're going to be strong
When everything goes wrong

And smile
When everyone is back
      In eachothers arms

While she puts on
Those poetic heels of love

We ride along

Pushing and fighting
      For mother earth

On the poetic heels of femme fatale

We write along


    we
          write
                       along

On the poetic hills
                        of love…





















ride.
Dec 2018 · 160
s p a r k
JaxSpade Dec 2018
When I saw the light of the fireworks

The fountains
Showers of sparks
Shooting off
Emitting
Into the night of space

They drew my eyes looking
At the art burning
Passionately


When the fuse was lit


Suddenly there was a flame
And a sparked was touched

It rained constellations

                        Cats
                                 n
                                    Dogs

The Grand Finale came
And it was like the sky was outerspace

Blowning up a million asteroids    

When she lights fireworks
She makes sure there is an explosion
in your face

And after a  loud boom You find yourself trying to resume you

But you can't

When I saw the light of the fireworks
Shine in the sky of her eyes

I fell in love with the way she looked at the explosions in mine
Dec 2018 · 167
ηooη
JaxSpade Dec 2018
ηow is the hour
For that sileηt souηd

So loud
ηo one could hear it

Yell

ηo oηe could see it comiηg
It was already there

Hiddeη iη the eyes
Liviηg iη the air

Iη the ηow of the hours
Haηds
Dec 2018 · 111
Elephant In The Cathedral
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Futility absorbed the entire funeral

A ghost named esoteric was spotted by a select few
Dec 2018 · 146
(-.--)凸
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Don't fucc around
                They said

These weren't words from my pastor
Written in red

But the message was there

                 If you fucc around
You eventually get fuct yourself

Middle fingers and knuckles
SLinging

Sayin fucc the world

The world said fucc you back!

And said"
?who the fucc are you

D'ont fucc around

       Listen or learn
How to behave yourself

Because Mr.Hardway
Is always in town
Lookin for men

Who fucc around
Dec 2018 · 129
have you heard the clock
JaxSpade Dec 2018
I am here
The clock says
Day and night
In the same circle
I woke up again
Good morning
Afternoon
Night
It says I'm here
Just like yesterday
The same kind of day
Year after year
The clock keeps repeating
The same chimes
I  hear
With the sunrise
The clock says
I am here
Again
Nov 2018 · 6.2k
Out Of Line
JaxSpade Nov 2018
I made a mistake
I meant to be perfect

But I colored outside the lines
On purpose

I crossed the line
That meant to keep the lines inside

Because I'm not supposed to do it
Nov 2018 · 159
Finish Line
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Walking along the side of life
I looked at the stride
And tried to pace it with time

It was running so fast
I couldn't catch up
And I fell behind

I was just too slow
So I gave up trying
And I sat down
In the middle of the road
While it passed me by

Then it called me an old man
When it left me to die

But I had a plan
With my bible in hand
There was a victory inside

Walking along the side of life
I decided to walk with Christ
Then Gods kingdom
Became eternally mine

And when I crossed the finish line
The Angels sang a chorus divine

To God be the glory!
For this is HIStory!
In the race of a man

He then raised my hand
And said my son
You didn't lose to life

         You won!
Nov 2018 · 454
Mouth To Mouth
JaxSpade Nov 2018
I died in the moment I lived for
They tried to resuscitate me
Pumping my chest hard

Air
Air
Air

C P R

The moment passed
I was laying on the floor
I opened my eyes and saw the sky fall

Air
Air
Air

I coughed up a lung
And the world stared

I should've been dead
But instead
I lived for


Another moment
Nov 2018 · 149
Caustic Sin
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Broke another mirror
My face of ugly
Is devastating
My wretched flesh
With a terrifying texture
I am a monster
Under my own bed
Inside my own closet
Wearing claws
And fanged jaws
A wreck of havoc
A ruination of habits
Reflected in the mirror
My kiss toxic
How could she press
So deep into my soul
Her lips buried into the depths
Of my miserable control
I am a beast and she is the beauty
Of this old tale told

Of this old tale told
I am a beast and she is the beauty
Of my miserable control
Her lips buried into the depths
So deep in my soul
How could she press
My kiss toxic
Reflected in the mirror
A ruination of habits
A wreck of havoc
And fanged jaws
Wearing claws
Inside my own closet
Under my own bed
I am a monster
With a terrifying texture
My wretched flesh
Is devastating
My face of ugly
Broke another mirror
Nov 2018 · 112
Kiss Of Death
JaxSpade Nov 2018
The kiss of death
Press your lips
Pucker up
You're all wet
Your charcoal eyes
And silhouette
Cast the shadows
Under evils breath
I see you out there
So passionate
Sliding your fingernails
Across several men
The kiss of death
Invites intimate
Souls for buying
Pornographics
Press your lips
Against the blackest lips
Sink those fangs
In the barest neck
Death kisses
And dark mistresses
Have your ***
Plenty of fish
To trap your nets
Kiss of death
Sink the deepest depth
Bury that tongue
In the tar pits
Pucker up
Boy
To the darkness
Pressed
You're a man now

Dead
Nov 2018 · 126
The Faith Of A Baby
JaxSpade Nov 2018
The aging man
Wipes his face
With clock hands
Another hour
Drips from his face

Every second ticks
And tocks minutes
While the sun and the moon
Revolve space

Each year he withers
And wrinkles form quicker
With every week that collects days

This aging man
Born into skin
Isn't really as old as he is

For when he dies
He'll open his eyes
To the kingdom his God
Promised him
Nov 2018 · 299
In The Blink
JaxSpade Nov 2018
When I close my eyes
I can fly
I can reach the stars
Find me on the moon
In my dreams
Of impossible
I can find what I loose
When I close my eyes
My mind opens the views
I could do anything I choose
I can fly
I can reach the stars
Find me on the moon
When you close yours
I'll be there with you
When I close my eyes
I'm in a different world
One that I imagine
Love rules
It's so peaceful
A dream for a fool
When I open my eyes
I see the truth
Nov 2018 · 688
secrets of society
JaxSpade Nov 2018
The glass reflected
Figures inbetween *******
And sipping
The room curved along a wine
Background
Capturing laughs
In the sounds of gossip
Echoing
No one in this room
Would even mention God
However they worshiped many
As they planned murders
And counted pennies
A piano played in the distance
It was an old tune but nobody listened
They were too busy foraging
For an opportunity to be their savior
Like a hungry pack of wolves
Knashing their teeths razors
Only the wrong kind of love circulated
Shook hands and instigated
Evil wrapped in the arms of scoundrels
And their words defecated on each others ears
As God listened in on their plans
They didn't know he was there
No one could see him
He was invisible
Yet if he showed his face they still would not have recognized him
God left the room and not one journalist could have written about his attendance
What they wrote was a different order
A subliminal narrative of sorcery
That would be fed to the gullible
And fatten the lost uneducated illogicals
So many that followed were thirsty and hungry
And they circled about like a pack of hyenas
With evil laughter in their mouths
The moon wasn't even full
This was the new normal
As they conquered the world
Nov 2018 · 913
Dream #9
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Foraging
Through the atmospheric
Forest green
I found the fruit and vegetable
Of nourishment
On a cloud shaped tree
There it was dangling
In the star lit morning
Under my conscious dream

While I floated outside of my being

Answers for the cancers
That mauled and screamed
Cures for the homosaphien
Strength for the weak
I filled my basket
And both my cheeks
I saw the future standing
On the passing steets
Directing the traffic
That ran over me
I began to wake up
And lose what I'd seen
So I grabbed my pen
And recollected
This memory

#9
Number nine
Down the spine
Of sublime algorithms
And unconscious mimes
Picking at the brain
With a vultures dine
Dinner for nines
Times nine
81 times
I eight one
It tasted like knives
Where was my dream
Of honey bee hives
Replaced by a scheme of numbers
Beelined
Foraging
Through the atmospheric
Forest darkening
Searching for a light
That could shed some sight for me
I found some fireflies
Floating in the iris eyes
Thankfully hoping
They could lead me to Jesus Christ
#9
Number nine
I woke up to the scene of crime
I saw me in the mirror
Gulity of living life
Forgive me for sinning
Of everyday and time
I was just out foraging
For something encouraging
And found many things
Multiplied
#9
Number nine
Oh! How I'm
A victim
Of my own demise
Nov 2018 · 300
The Past Is Out
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Lights low
Letting go in the lights strobe
Swinging my head around
Because I can't dance
While the room runs around
My head in the clouds
I can't dance at all
Where are my hands
She has control
Where is the world
I don't want to know
Keep spinning the music
Her body crawls
I can feel her groovy
I don't care at all
I can hear her laughing
While I'm gone
Dancing
Off the walls
In the color of kisses
And wherewithal
I'm in a helicopter
Of lightsticks
In a synchronized sound
Beating a thousand drums
A hundred miles an hour
Leave me alone right next to me
I feel your tongue
But I can't see
Lights low
Alcohol
Perfume of potion
And padded walls
I can't dance at all
But I'm shaking
Everything
round and round
Lets fall
I can feel her body
And hear the song
I don't want to know
Where is the world
So I close my eyes

Till I pass out
Nov 2018 · 198
Alarmed Clock
JaxSpade Nov 2018
The sun penetrated through the night
And came morning to rise
Into the blue through the black
Caped skies
The sun shone bright
She was standing there
In the color of my eyes
In the window of my soul
She appeared as a bird in flight
Flying away into the winds kite
Into the clouds framed white
She glided through the air of my mind
I thought about her in the afternoon
And how she looked so good
In my eyes sight
She could be an angel
In the right light
I asked her where have you been
All my life
She said she'd always been in my dreams
But I kept waking up
To time
Nov 2018 · 587
Eyeliner
JaxSpade Nov 2018
My masquera drips
Onto sticky lips
Colored black and red
They mix with tears of death
And losts breaths
They ran
All my make up
And messy break ups
I can't stand
I'm a broken man
My lipsticks
Hold my head
All my makeup smears
With a womans tears
My face is mirrored
What do I look like now
An unpainted growl
I'm a dog
Beat down
All of my make up
Tears of a clown
Nov 2018 · 155
The Last Me
JaxSpade Nov 2018
The last me
Changing legs and dreams
Remember my old face
Gone
Who I used to be
Trapped in memories
Walked on
The last me
Lost in octagons
And hexadecagons
A calculated sum
Gone
Remember my old shoes
Worn on avenues
My old voice and song
The last me
Changed my arms
My hands laws
Reborn
I had to leave you
So
I could move on
From the last me
Left along
The burning sun
A new morning comes
To take away the past
Wrongs
The last me
Changing energy
And a woman
Gone
I had to be myself
And learn about
My God
Leaving you behind
In thoughts
Of what you didn't want
To believe
The last me
Had to change
The old future names
Called
Because I wanted
Love
Nov 2018 · 115
Her Dressing Room
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Change your mind
That old clothing
Made for floors

You used to like that dress
It complemented your eyes

What you think about now
And how it changed color
Now it's too faded
And it's time to change

Your mind

It used to think about
What to wear

Shifting through the hangers
Behind the closet doors
Wishing you could still fit in
What you did before

He matched with everything
You ever wore
But now he's no longer
In your dresser drawers

When you changed your mind
He changed more
Some things you can never find
In a department store

Change your mind
What can you afford
What are you shopping for
Something you already had

Worn
Oct 2018 · 321
Night Trip
JaxSpade Oct 2018
The night crept into his eyes
They were dark lights
Shining on neon
Glowing fluorescence bright

They were purple
Reflecting white skirts
Short and tight

His ears were techno
And he danced in the trance
Strobed in kaleidoscope windows

His soul was inside

And there she danced
In a mirror ball
With her tongue on a tab
And her hands embracing alcohol

She was lost to find

The night was still crawling
And they were stars falling
Out of the sky


Landing on a bed of dark matter
They glowed in a black hole
That grab their earth
And spat her
Towards a new universe

Then the night crawled out of his eyes
And said goodbye
As the new days came
To welcome their life
Oct 2018 · 122
Cloaked With A Dagger
JaxSpade Oct 2018
The darkness pulls down her eyes
It wraps around her heart with thorns
And crys wicked knives

Piercing through the thrusts
That stabbed her life
She bleeds inside
A victim of the night

She sat down on the jack O lanterns porch
Staring at the torch
Inside him flicker

This was the only light
Shining in a goblins bite
Yet the darkness kept pulling down her eyes

It was quicker
Than her sight
And cloaked with a dagger
Penetrating fright

Slicing at the throat of candle
She shivered down her spine
And as her mind grew sicker
The darkness grew bigger
Than the flame that melted in the fire

She was blind
And her eyes bled the sight
That the darkness pulled down
In her desires
Oct 2018 · 209
The Write Days Mood
JaxSpade Oct 2018
Day in waiting
Turn the page
Another story
Reads to an end

Flipping through
The chapters
And the lives they captured
Never knowing they would be read

Waiting for the day
The sun would set
In every memory
They never could forget

How they made the story
Every morning
For the starry night too collect

Day in waiting
Another book
Passing through the novel

Have you looked
At how the author models
Life inside his words

He is just waiting
For his pen to finish contemplating
Another day
Passing by his mood
Oct 2018 · 224
We Are The World
JaxSpade Oct 2018
So what is the wicked world
Confined behind the bars of fools

Consumed by the man and girl
And It keeps each spin of the atmospheres
In the lust and desires of who

Dreams of the end by wars
Or a climate changing her
Under her rainbows
Reminding each neighbor
The end will always draw near

So what is the wicked world
Dark in her prince
Witch does so much work

The fear of the mirror
Each man succumbs dearer
To himself
Instead of his God
Oct 2018 · 97
The Way Out
JaxSpade Oct 2018
The road ended
Without a foot forward
The path was gone
And the only thing possible
                Was to turn around

Looking into the past
I see the foot prints tracked
And memories laid
        On the ground

Without a foot forward
I didn't want to go back
And I didn't know where to look

How could I go forward
If I don't know which way i'm facing

So I stood there contemplating erasing
The existence I am chasing

I wished I could've been someone amazing
A man on a path to somewhere that didn't end
In waiting

The road ended
And I'm standing here
In the same place
Pretending
Everything is going to be alright

But no one is around
And I keep hearing the same
Myself

And I'm left with only one choice
To make it
              Out
Oct 2018 · 1.1k
Eye Glitter°Meltdown
JaxSpade Oct 2018
Turning out the lights
Pulling the covers of sleep
Over the eyes
Staring into the black
Colored thoughts arrive
In visions of dreams
That reality never has
Snuggling pillows
Is better than the lover
You used to have
Keep your eyes closed
You don't need another hope
To die alone
Fold your hands
Hang your head on the rope
Of loneliness
Your dream is gone
And so are you
Turn the lights out
And float in the hope
That someday
Love is more
Then than pain it scarred
Eyes melting
On a tears burn

Like a candle dripping
Slowly hurt

Ice melting
In the summers
Hearth

Icy eyes
Melting

Him & Her

They used to be so cool
And they were so chill

Until one day
Every thing changed

And they started to melt
Oct 2018 · 241
Midori Sour
JaxSpade Oct 2018
Bet you never wanted to fall
Guess you never wanted to get back up
At all
Your always on the floor
Crawling around
You called me darling
Drunken bones
I heard all your whipsers
Under your breath and tone
I understood the gestures
You couldn't make out
And I bet
You never wanted to fall
Guess you couldn't get back up
At all
You love the floor
More than me darling
Drunken bones
Remember I am listening
And I heard your call
Your always whispering
Something I shout
You've fallen down
You've stumblied in a lime green
avalanche
And you bang at the walls
Covered in a landslide
Darling was the name you called
Bet you never wanted to fall
Guess you never wanted to get back up
At all
Drunken bones
Oct 2018 · 124
Event Horizon
JaxSpade Oct 2018
Hanging by a thread
Waiting for that break
You know you'll fall
With increased weight

Hanging
By a thread
Looking at the end
As you lose grip
And faith

You fall

But there is no ground
To catch your fate
You keep falling
Into the black hole
Of your mental state

In this fabric of space
Your gravity is pulled
Through the emptiness

Falling without any floor
You wanted more
Than you could take

This is you

And you're nothing
More than a fleshy face
Hanging by a thread
Between life and death
As you draw each breath

And wait

Somewhere in this deep
Your name awaits
To be called by the only one
Who knows what's Great

And as you remain in your number
You fear and wonder
Why you were made

Hanging by a thread
You lose your grip
Over
    and over again

Then it breaks

And there is nothing to reach for
Except the Law

Which takes

Your gravity
Into a super massive black hole
With enormous power
To erase

It is there
Where you'll find true hapiness

Where you cease to exist

From what you were made
Oct 2018 · 125
Magic
JaxSpade Oct 2018
We dig into the magic hat
Stirring rabbits and facts
Right before your eyes
We act
Like the show is great
But in the back
There is tears
Behind the laughs
& We wave the wand of the past
Over words cast
In smokey dust of drafts
Glitter and the audience
A whimsical appearance
Of a magician and the flaws perfect
Illusions trap
The mind into a bars can't
But his assistant is cut in half
We gasp
but the girl still walks
After curtains collapsed
We all applaud and clap
So amazed the impossible
Is possible if you could fool
The world into thinking it has
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