SMILEY

May 2015

Xyns

You walked out.
Not me.
So don't pout.

You want me back?
Too bad, Jack.

You did this ****.
Now, live with it.

May 2015

Urmila

Maybe I remind you, of the love you once had
Maybe I remind you, how vulnerable you once were,
Maybe I remind you, of things you forgot you could feel,
Maybe I remind you, of a wound you thought had healed,
Maybe I remind you, of the pain you ignore,
Maybe I remind you, of the insanity you escape,
Maybe I remind you,
Maybe I remind you, of everything you want to forget,
Maybe I remind you, of an old regret,
Maybe I remind you,
You are human

SMILEY May 2015

"Temporary"

I put myself here
You walked away
Got onto that airplane
All my actions finally caught up to me
The only thing to do now is wait
Home is just a thought
I have to earn you back
Patience is a struggle at this point
So close in my mind yet so far

The drugs remain in my mind and desire
But I have to fake it to make it
It's so hard to be fake when I've always been so real
This place get smaller every day
The noise and chaos more immense
Drama stirs every body's brains
Turns them into robots programmed to be the same
Hate the same person

I've become the odd one out
The one that's best at faking a smile
The hardest to annoy
I have no doubt
Not one ****
About these robots
I have the tools
My belt is on tight
It would take the world to take that away from me
I'm not the fool in this bunch of druggies
I'm the one with my mind right

But then I remember
I remember the definition of it all
Temporary
I keep in mind
I try to not forget
My dear home is there, awaiting my presence
My bedroom
My little sister, missing her pet
I miss my older sister
Her silence gives me company
My mother and that old lady twinkle in her eyes
And in her soul
It gets brighter each day
I miss the **** out of her

My mission here is passing the test
Re-glue my poker face each day
My mistakes have gotten me to a farm
That's what I get
People that also have poker faces
They are all known for taming the animals
My mission is becoming tamed
They won't know
I have to get from 50 miles per hour to just a crawl
That's it
That's all
Then I get to go

With out mistakes, 'wisdom' would just be a word..

#treatmentlife

SMILEY May 2015

Hurting

You shot my heart out
I told you it'll be alright
It wasn't your fault
You didn't have to fight
Look at you now
You're addicted

I'm lost without your guidance
I need you to be the old you
I haven't talked to you since
The day you became homeless

I wish I could help
But I'm too hurt
And too afraid
To talk to your sunken in face
Your eyes all tired
You don't care
You're lost
A disgrace

I wish that I could hate you
Forget of your mistakes
Of your existence
But you're my sister
And I truly love you

We grew up together
We became best friends
But that's where our sisterhood got ****** over
You taught me the ways
The ways of living with no belief of an end
No belief of consequences
It's unfair
You're lost
While I'm close to my destination

Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional

#disconnected

May 2015

mia

Marijuana

Grind it
Pour it
Twist it
Lick it
Light it
Inhale it
Swallow it
Exhale it
Share it
Feel it
Finish it
Adore it