My attempts of being a poet: Favorites

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

space

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

alupa

space

The emptiness inside his chest
It felt like a vacuum
Like everything would be forced to fall towards it,
in an attempt to fill the void.

And indeed the emptiness,
the vacuum
****** in everything
in an attempt to disappear.

It ****** in the world around him
Until it collapsed under its weight
into a black hole,
until he couldn't carry the weight of the world anymore
and collapsed under the weight.

It ****** in his soul,
until he disappeared.

The emptiness inside his chest,
It was so consuming,
so heavy,
so full,
It left no space to breathe.

Emptiness is basically the opposite of what it implies.

#emptiness #space

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

For Mr. Poe

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Qualyxian Quest

For Mr. Poe

A dream within a dream
Mr. Poe, I scream

At those Dylan shows
He's the one who knows

I don't like UVA
JMU I say

But you on Halloween
Attract my eyes of green

Ravens in the night
Horror and delight

See you in Baltimore
See her? Nevermore.

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

But it was the right choice

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

J

But it was the right choice

that's what i'm telling myself as i think of her.
her best friends messaged me
i broke her heart.
would they have preferred that i
continue to hurt us?
i miss her, i miss her a lot.
i know she doesn't understand this
and that her friends hate me so very much.
relax, Gaige, I hate myself a fuckton more
it was the right choice, this is what needed to be done
we weren't good for each other.
god but i feel like ****. i feel so sad and alone and
**** but..
was it?

i never posted something this short, it was supposed to be posted yesterday. she ended up making another account and we talked. and we're back together. i told her this was the only chance we're giving us, we can't give ourselves any other choice. I'm really sad sick.

#choice #lesbian #love #missing #understand #broken #heart

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Blind

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

JK Cabresos

Blind

Love is not blind,
but he who did not see your worth.

#blind #love #sad #unrequited

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Perhaps one day...

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Nat

Perhaps one day...

You’ll become a poet of habit
A Monday’s offer in the supermarket
Your words will sell themselves
To feed the overfed
Alas
You don’t like the idea
Yet
You’re consumed by it.

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

never grow up

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

caroline

never grow up

pony-tailed playmate
head tucked in her shirt
gazing steadily down
at her toes in the dirt

chaos tiptoes around her
naive oblivion
journeys in far away lands
just west of the meridian

watercolor fairy tales
bleeding outside the lines
unaware of the danger
unaware of the signs

let me sit with you, darling
in the dampened flower beds
and paint a new world
for us in our heads

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Chasing Dad

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

William J Donovan

Chasing Dad

I was young and lost. I was
unable to keep up when he
went in the bank. I saw him
leaving across the street and
ran after him and a car hit me
and broke my heart and leg.
He was the god I disappointed.
He was the man I kept chasing.

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Depression [Nothing Was The Same]

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Lowkie

Depression [Nothing Was The Same]

-
Someone asked me
"What was your life like before the depression?"
And without hesitation, I asked him
"Don't you have a better question?"
I could not give him a straight answer
-
For as long as I can remember
I had a imaginary companion
Living inside my head like he is a rent payer
He told me sweet stories
His favourite one was
"Nothing matters, Dying is way better"
-
He gave me advice
"Cut off your friends and family" he said
"Lock yourself up in your room" he said
"Starve yourself, nobody cares" he said
"Take this razor, be careful it's sharp.
Don't say I never got you anything nice"
He said while smiling from ear to ear
-
He called himself Depression
He invited himself into my house
Along with Anxiety his spouse
And ever since they moved in
Nothing was the same
-
Lowkie ®

#lowkie #depression

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

"Friendzone"

Nov 2020 My attempts of being a poet

Lowkie

"Friendzone"

-
She said she had a lot of baggage
Running from things she's been avoiding
Since a young age
I told her we were in the same boat
I'm also trying to stay afloat
-
Few days later I was her favourite
Late night calls and early texts
Those park dates were best
Surrounded by a crowd but it feel like
It was just the two of us
We would bearly notice the rest
-
I said with you I don't feel alone
And that my feelings for came like a cyclone
Maybe I came in too strong
But I felt weak after she said
I feel like that too
But we should keep it in the friendzone
-
Lowkie ®

#friendzone #lost #love