I release this red balloon to you
Fly high in the sky and reach you soon
A letter attached to share with you
How much I miss you hope you do too
A red balloon flies high in the sky
I still often just wonder why
Why you are gone and not here with me
But then I think, it was just meant to be
You lived your life and made me who I am today
I will always treasure that each and everyday
It never is easy to say goodbye
But I know your flying high up there in the sky

It's my birthday today, and I can remember a time
When some things weren't so distant
And other things weren't so close

I remember when all I ever wanted
Was to pull you close and make love to you
To be part of something I couldn't understand

I remember when all I ever wanted
Was to find the edge of our universe
To find the brightest of stars instead of the deepest of scars

But now, the effortless way you drift away
Makes me feel empty and unsheltered
And rusts away at dreams that once shimmered

It's my birthday today, and I can remember a time
When I wanted a future with you
More than I wanted a future with myself

My head Spins
Emotions run wild
Everythings changing
I'm not longer a Child
People expect the best of you
and growing up just makes me blue
I wonder how I will be able to make it through
But growing up it what you have to do

I've stayed quite long in despair,
Lurked my fears, faked my emotions,
I've been asked by many if i was okay,
But I kept myself composed and engraved,
So many times i fell in abyss,
A different dimension with hopelessness contained,
I cried alone in the darkness,
Everytime that i was pale I'd say,'I'm okay!',
Slowly and gradually i lost my faith,
In burdening up sins and choosing to be left stained,
On losing a part of me i realized,
How alone i was and how regretful i was,
It was the emptiness in my soul that struck me hard,
It was the fraility in the choice of my words that sunk me in the dark,
Every tear that  I shed,
Every memory that i had,
All but a lie pulling me to my own death,
All the guilt that i had,
Scared of what I'd done and i how I'd face God,
I lost myself half way and the other half just faded away!

I hope you know that love is never still,
It can go downhill.

It can be blooming with flowers but the next thing you know; thunder and lightning is already striking.

I'm afraid that you'll be surprised,
For love is never stabilised.