****,
Molly,
Mushrooms,
LSD,
*******,
Crack,
Heroine,
****...

Do­ you have any idea of what this stuff is?
What it can do to someone....
How much it hurts the people that love you.

NO ONE knows what my life is like...
NO ONE knows what I've dealt with ,
How many times I've cried,
because I was scared....

Scared to lose someone I love,
Scared about what it'd do,
worried sick,
crying hard.

I just can't deal with someone else,
who I care about,
doing anything like that,
or getting hurt.

I try not to care,
so I won't get hurt,
but I can't not care,
it's just who I am...

Please don't put me
through that experience
again by doing the same thing,
I care too much to not care.

If only we could have met each other sooner,
we'd be closer than the stars in the sky.

Heartbreak...
is like waking up from a good dream,
at first everything was all cool and then,
it suddenly hits you and boom your awake.
Eventually you'll forget and move on
it's what we humans do...
It's how we excel and evolve.

Depression...
It is but only a stepping stone to
achieving happiness.
Depression is a reminder...
"Hey, you've failed once at chasing happiness
and grew stronger and smarter from it,
give it another go."
Depression is only to make happiness
that much better.

Sometimes there is no reason behind what I am feeling.

Why do I fight for something,
for someone who's going to betray me?
You said you loved me,
you said you'd stay.

I told you my deepest secrets,
my deepest regrets,
my deepest fears,
you used them against me.

You fed me lies,
I never knew if you were honest,
if you ever told the truth,
did you ever really love me?

I gave everything to you,
you took it when you left,
everything I was,
everything I will be.

My heart,
my love,
my trust,
but the pain you left.

Being betrayed by someone
I never thought would hurt me,
and I let you use me,
but this time...

I give up.
I'm leaving,
walking away....
I will no longer be hurt by you.

I'm moving on,
and forgetting your name,
My heart may need to heal,
but my mind is made...

Good-bye
past love.

Because of you...
I can see myself like you do,
I have the will to wake up the next morning,
I have a reason to be happy.
❤❤❤
You're the reason I smile,
you're the reason I get up,
you're the reason I feel beautiful,
you're the reason I'm in love.
❤❤❤
Because of you...
My sky is no longer gray,
my world is no longer "blue",
I feel special for once.
❤❤❤
You're the reason my arm is healing,
and no longer bleeding...
you're the reason the heartache,
is going far away.
❤❤❤
Because of you...
I can love again,
I'm not afraid to be myself,
I don't care what others think.
❤❤❤
You're the smile on my face,
the butterflies in my stomach,
the twinkle in my eyes,
and the skip in my step.
❤❤❤
All this to say "I love you."

We met by a smile,
and we talked for a while.
You make me laugh,
and make me happy.

We were amigos,
at first,
but now,
I'm your mi amor.

Talking in spanish,
though hard to do,
just helps me,
get to know you.

We talked today,
and that's when you said it,
you called me your love,
your mi amor.

I melted in my seat,
as my heart raced faster,
and the smile on my face,
grew larger.

My spanish is muy poco,
but my love is mucho,
soon you'll know more than english,
you'll know me, you'll know my heart.

Your mi amor.

I love you, but I can't... It hurts too much!

Don't push away the people who deal with your *******.

Save me, for I don't want to fall in love,
but yet I have with you.

Save me from my self abuse,
the cuts show the truth.

My hearts breaks when I see you,
save me, help me forget you.

It's to late,
I've fallen for you.

No one can save me,
not from myself at least.

For my mind knows I'll hurt,
but my heart doesn't care, except about love.

Save me from this world of doubt,
and keep me locked about your heart.

Tell me you love me,
for I love you dearly...

I love you
but I'm afraid to love.

I'm afraid to fight,
for what I want.

Save me,
and take me away.

Don't let me fall,
don't let me hurt anymore.

I don't deserve to live, I am better off dead.

Its beauty unravels as in bursts in the night sky,
multiple colors unleashed and free,
exploding with awe.

Fire in the sky as some call it,
the rays of color and shape amaze,
as always I watch intensively.

I watch as the flowers spark,
as the blooms buzz,
and as the sparklers sizzle.

Amazed at the beauty and happiness
these small simple things bring,
to all who watch.

To be a part of such...
is much more than lighting a fuse,
it brings people closer.

I watch out the window
as the rain pours down,
watching as the droplets
roll down the glass...

I see a flash in the distance,
lightning not to far away,
followed by a loud crash,
thunder on it's way.

The storm coming closer,
as I lay down in my bed.
Thinking what it'd be like,
easier done, then said...

Of what it would be like,
to be a rain drop.
Who lives again,
and again.

Of what it'd be like,
to be a lightning flash.
To touch down to the ground,
and light up the sky.

Of what it'd be like,
to be a clap of thunder,
As small as a yawn,
or as big as a roar.

Of what it's be like,
to be a rainbow.
After the storm is gone,
to be something beautiful.

I wonder what it'd be like
to be apart of a storm,
from something harsh,
into something sweet.

But all I can do is wonder,
and listen to the skies,
for something amazing
to happen.

You pushed me,
now I'm pushing back.
My chains are gone.
I am no longer a slave,
you don't own me
You don't control me.
I'm stronger now.
My head is clearer,
and now I see...
how could it be?
That I let you in,
in the first place!?!?
I'm free to wonder,
I'm not in your control,
My heart is free,
and the rest of me...
I'm stronger now!
So leave me alone,
Because God is on my side!!!

I'm leaving HP...
I can't do this any more

I like personality, not popularity.
I like sweetness, not beast mode.
I like gorgeous eyes, I don't care about the "gun show".
"I wanna cuddle" is not the same,
to me, as to you.
I want conversation, not fornication.
The bad boy thing is cool,
but not being an *******.
Why you have to ask me?
"Are you single?"
Of course I am...
Because what I want,
I can never find.
I want marriage, not just a slot in your weekly calendar.
So if i ask...
"Do you wanna be my boyfriend???"
Then you fit the profile.

Who would?


Escape:
"If you like piña coladas and getting caught in the rain
If you're not into yoga, if you have half a brain
If you like making love at midnight in the dunes of the cape
Then I'm the love that you've looked for, write to me and escape"

I'm not crying because of you:
YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT.
I'm crying because my delusion
of who you were,
was shattered by the truth
of who you are.

I'm in love...
I've been in love since we've met,
And I always will be in love with you...
❤
Since the moment our eyes met,
To the moment your lips found mine...
I've been in love.
❤
But no one understands the way I feel,
No one realizes that I'm happiest,
When I'm thinking about you.
❤
So now we are apart from each other,
And I still think about you,
But do you think about me?
❤
Time and fate have kept us apart,
No one on my side....
No one to realize.
❤
I'm in love with you,
Though we may not be able to speak,
I still think about you.
❤
Do you still think of me?
Do you love me?
Do you still even care?
❤
Forever on my mind,
WhiteFang

No one notices your
tears,
No one notices your
sadness,
No one notices your
pain,

But...
They all notice your
*mistakes!!!

The Best success story is the one you write for yourself,
Make it great!!!

If only someone loved me, that I can love back.

~ <3 ~

I'm worthless....
not a reason exists why I should be here...
but yet, here I am...
why?
-
I'm a nobody,
why do you love me?
why are you still here?
you hate me.
-
Life not worth living....
I'm not worth living...
I'm worthless...
So there...
-
I'll be gone....
away for good...
no longer taking your precious air...
I don't need it, where I'm going...
-
I'm worthless,
so there...
GoodBye,
and farewell.

The day we met we knew from the start,
that we'd be best friends...
and not soon after,
we became like sisters!!!
~
We had our differences,
our ups and downs.
but after every storm,
comes a rainbow!!
~
To this day,
you're still my best friend...
and it feels just like yesterday,
that we met for the first time ever!!
~
I love you sis!!!!
Best friends forever!!
Happy friendiversary!!!
Miss you girly!!!

I'm not who I used to be..
I've changed my ways,
and cleaned up my act.
-
My ways were so different then,
I hung with the wrong crowds,
I know that now.
-
I made a stupid mistake,
but I don't want that life,
not anymore.
-
I'm not who I was,
no longer astray,
I'm here to stay.
-
Why can't you see?
That, that's not me...
I'm not who I used to be.
-
I wish you could see,
the new me,
the one whose been set free.
-
I'm not who I was,
I'm not who I used to be,
When will you finally see?

If you are following her stop!!!
And block her now...
warning!!! She posted a comment on my poetry,
stating she would **** me...
and she doesn't know who I am...
I am not the only one!!!!
She needs to be stopped!!!
This is a petition to get her away!!!
Comment if you agree, and has been tormented by her as well!!! or message me!

Please stop hurting me </3*
I can't take anymore.

It's smooth as it goes down,
the taste is bitter sweet,
it takes away the sorrow,
and the regrets.
~
It's better cold,
never warm,
it's never weak,
forever bold.
~
It takes away the pain of yesterday,
and helps you forget,
of the things that have gone wrong,
at least for the night.
~
This is my pain reliever,
my little helper,
it never seems to fail me,
and always calms me down.
~
No one understands,
No one tries to help,
I'm to help myself,
My pain reliever.

Trust you!?!?
Trust you!?!?
How do you expect me,
to trust you after everything?

Trust is a fragile thing,
and when you lose my trust,
it's hard to get back...
How can I trust you?

Trust you...pshh
You don't even know
the meaning of the word.
Trust you

You have not a clue,
do you?
Of what it takes to keep,
nay, earn back trust.

My heart is *not a toy,
that can be replaced.
It's fragile, and should not be broken.
But yet... you have.

Trust you?
I can't...
No way...
No how...

See what you have done?
*My Trust is gone!

He listens; He speaks
He watches over you
and always loves you.
My God, My Savior

I'm strong, no longer weak
because He is with me.
He has saved me by Grace.
My God, My Savior

My heart is finally whole
when I found Him.
I know I am loved.
My God, My Savior

Tears run down my face,
for disappointing Him.
But He is forgiving, His love is strong.
My God, My Savior

He is the one and only,
He is the one true King,
He is my Heavenly Father above.
My God, My Savior

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody too?
Then there's a pair of us?
Don't tell! They'd advertise you know!

How dreary to be somebody!
How public like a frog-
to tell one's name... the livelong June.
To an admiring Bog!

Hey you with the amazing smile,
would you smile for a while?

Hey you the one with the gorgeous eyes,
would you give me the time of day?

Hey you, yes you...
Do you know how good looking you are?

How beautiful you are out,
just as much as you are in...

Hey you....
Why don't you stay a while.

Don't be angry; Get snappy
Do what makes you happy
For you know that things
Are hard to change;
And life is full of krappy
So- smile when you feel slappy
or sing when you feel trappy
Because you know deep down inside
You can never keep people happy!!!!

As I drive along the ocean side,
I think of how it used to be,
Of just you and me.

Life seemed much simpler than,
The sky was blue, and not a cloud in the sky,
Along the ocean side.

But now the blue skies have turned gray,
And the clouds above, are pouring rain.
Things are changed, by the ocean side.

When will the sun come back?
When will the rain stop?
When will you be here again?

With me, along the ocean side.

There's marks on her body.
The cuts on her wrists,
The bruises on her legs,
The bags under her eyes.

These marks you see, she makes.
The cuts she does,
is to feel something.
The bruises she makes,
because she feels ugly.
The bags under her eyes,
because she can't sleep.

These marks you see,
she makes.
To feel pain,
to feel prettier,
to not rest.

Until her body is a goner.
These marks you see,
she makes.

My heart starts to race faster,
my hands shaking,
tears running down my face.

I'm scared, and worried,
"why is this happening to me?" ,
I wonder to myself.

"I don't know why this is happening!!"
How do you stop this feeling?
This feeling not being in control.

This thing that is happening to me,
I'm having a Panic Attack.

My anxiety is out of control,
I can't control it,
will you help me?

I miss you, and the time we hung out… I miss the bad times as much as I miss the good times… our relationship is never great, we have our fights, but we always figured it out.  
My homie, my best friend.
I love you and don’t at the same time, and I know you feel the same… We can chase each other around the house, hitting each other with pillows, but all in good fun...
My homie, my best friend.
We’re tight, and best friends, I love you…
My homie, my best friend, my brother.

Live today,
Die tomorrow,
Write...
FOREVER!!!

IcySky:
If I ran away,
would you look for me?
If I cried,
would you dry my tears?
If I got hurt,
would you make it better?
If I died,
would you cry for me?
If I wasn't here,
would you miss me?
If I was gone,
would you care?
Would you even notice me?

Written Destruction:
If you ran away, I'll pack up too
If you cried, I'll cry with you
If you hurt, I'll make it work
If you die, I'll follow you
If you wasn't here, I'll drown in tearz
If you was gone, right will slowly turn to wrong
Would I even notice you? Tell me your joking, I seen you shine amongst a parade full of people

My whole life people have told me that I have to wait and see...
I have always heard that expression.
But...
I don't wanna wait and see what my life will be,
I want to know, not wait and see.
I want to know who my love will be,
I don't want to wait and see.
I want to know now if we'll work out,
I am not going to "wait and see".

I am tired of being told to "wait and see"...
It's my life, and I wanna know what MY future holds!!
So from now on you'll be the one to wait and see!!!!!!

If I ran away,
would you look for me?

If I cried,
would you dry my tears?

If  I got hurt,
would you make it better?

If I died,
would you cry for me?

If I wasn't here,
would you miss me?

If I was gone,
would you care?

Would you even notice me?

The worst part about being a writer or poet,
is the critics....
You're your own worst critic.
Take a breath and relax,
don't put yourself down.

I have this feeling deep inside, as I sit on the steps of the beach.
Listening to the ocean's roar, staring at the horizon.
My eyes begin to water as the thought of you floats through my mind.
How could I have been so stupid to let you in my life?
The love I felt for you was real,
yet the "love" you had for me was not.
My love has turned to sadness,
and my sadness into anger.
For my life that you toyed with was not yours to ruin.
And now I think of you for what it used to be
For now I am happy you are gone.

We all have dreams, big and small
Some of us dream of meeting the right person,
some of us dream of getting to be a rock star.
People dream a lot, and of a lot of different things.
But tell me this...
Who ever dreams of hurting the ones you love, or care about?
Who wants to dream about being abandoned, or hurt?
Who really wants their dreams to become nightmares?
I want sweet dreams and good night kisses.
I don't want fighting or hurting or letting people down.
I want a day to come where I can lay in bed next to the one I love.
No body wants a pleasant dream to become a horrific disaster.
I want sweet dreams and good night kisses.

I'm trying to be strong,
but the strength I have is wasting away.

This life we know,
is not the same,
as it used to be.

When you were the one,
the one that laid close to me,
and whispered hello.

I missed you quite terribly,
I fell in love,
in love with you suddenly.

There was nowhere else,
I wanted to be,
but there in your arms.

Time and fate have been unkind,
and everything you want,
isn't always what you need.

I guess that's why I've never
realized what I had till it was gone,
everything I know is wasting away.

Tears run down my face,
when standing in our place.
It's like a dream,
only it's nothing but a scheme.

When you kissed my lips,
my heart did flips.
Your voice I hear,
was the only thing clear.

But now things have changed,
and words have been rearranged.
For now you're gone,
by the break of dawn.

I still remember our time,
when in it's prime.
I love you,
and now my world is blue.

I miss our time together,
before the change of "weather".
When it was our time,
it was perfectly fine.

The kisses caress
Not only the skin
But reaches deep
To the soul within.
The hands slowly touch places
With unrehearsed skill.
Not wanting the moment to end,
Nor even the thrill.
Each minute a mountain to climb;
Your heart beating and racing
As if running out of time.
Although the room may be cool,
Your body's temperature starts to rise
And silence of the night
Is filled with pleasure soft cries.
Soon they become exhausted
And cuddle ever so close;
Slowly falling asleep
Dreaming of the lover they chose.