Nobody

Nobody Nov 2024

Anxiety

Anxiety seeps into my soul
Like stains on a white couch
Like songs to your mind
Panic rises
Thoughts coming faster than before
"Maybe I'll die"
"Whats happening?"
And sometimes
No thoughts at all
But never any barriers
To brake my fall
What's wrong with me?
Loud noises and yelling remind me of what happened...
Why though?

#anxiety #trauma #panic #panicattack

Nobody Nov 2024

I'm fine

How many times have I said
"I'm fine"
"I'm fine"
I'm fine"
When I am not okay
How many times have I said
"In time"
"In time"
"In time"
The feeling will go away
The felling of fear, the feeling of failure
The feeling of being lost
Can maybe be healed...
But at what cost?
I'll lose my friends, my reputation,
I'll be all alone
Just because I can't do this on my own
Over time, nothing has changed
I still say
"I'm fine"
"I'm fine"
I'm fine"
When I am not okay

...

Nobody Nov 2024

I miss

I miss the days
When I could just eat without thinking about it
Without counting the calories
Without shaking with guilt
Without feeling so awful that I shove my fingers down my throat just to pull it out
To remove the weight
To release the guilt and shame and food into the toilet bowl

The cold bathroom floor has become comforting.
Knowing that after kneeling down on it, my hands trembling
I'll lose weight

Haha I hate my brain i miss how it was before

#ed #eatingdisorder #unhappy #trauma #bullying #anxiety

Nobody Nov 2024

pen

a pen lost in my bag
that has run out of ink
become a useless little thing
think, Nobody1234 think!
what shall i use it for
not writing
or art
or laughing because
i'm trying to hide a ****

I'm doing a race w/ my friend @Eternity (follow him he's amazing) to who can write the dumbest poem and get 200 views on it first. wish me luck <3

Nobody Nov 2024

Nicest person on the site~

I love the way you write
I love the way you comment on so many poems
I love the way you post so often
I love the way you bring happiness and poetry
I love the way you show others you care
I love everything I know about you
(Platonically of course)

In the rare case you couldn't guess who I'm talking about, it's... (drumroll please)
Liana!!!
Liana is always so nice to us and comments so many positive things. Nobody is truly grateful though 😤 let's show Liana we care <3
everybody go like/love/comment on as many poems of hers as possible. she deserves appreciation :D

#poetry #liana

Nobody Nov 2024

Hide

I Hide everything about myself
The fresh cuts and scars with a sleeve
The stomach with an oversized hoodie
I want to leave

I Hide everything about myself
The pain with a mask
The trauma with a wall
Finally, silence...at last...

Pure quietness
Silence
Darkness
No conscience
...
That's the dream.

Nobody Nov 2024

Losing it~

Words no longer coming to my head
Fingers no longer able to hold a pen
Hands no longer able to type
My skill flown away
Losing my mind
Losing my hope
Losing my happiness
Losing everything
Slowly
Going
Crazy

Not going to lie, I just watched about 13 minutes of a horror movie and now I am traumatized. The movie was 'smile' and now I want to hide in a hole 🎀🎀🎀

#crazy #chaos