You say you want to drink it all away.

Bottom to top,

Bottles empty.

                                                Yet, when you sober up,
                          
                                  You'll
                                               pour
                                                         more
                                                                    alcoholic
                                                                                     thoughts

Down your brain.

                         I don't know if you can cure the alcohol poisoning
                                                 Soaked in your head.

I get to watch you drown even though I've taken the bottle away

Cause I can't take away the repetitive toxic songs you decide to play.

I don't want to remember you anymore.

I want the essence of you to disappear in between the wrinkles of my brain.

Stashed thinly away like money or pictures in between pages of books for safe keeping and I hope to God that I don't pull out the wrong book on a rainy day.

I don't want to see your picture fall out that day,  
Or any day.

Self Love.

A plant inside of us all that we have to constantly remember to water

And grow with.

They say, "It's all about Love."
"What is Love?" asked the Love starved child
Singing, "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Love, how I wonder where you are...."
Her eye caught a falling star
Following it across the sky
Dear Star
I wish for Love.
Show me what is Love.
I want to Love.
I want to be Loved.
Why am I not loved?
Is there something wrong with me?

I hold up your face in the moon
And see the price you have paid
For loving me!
Bathed in pain
Of years of holding me in your heart,
Your eyes are desires burned out in vain!
I hold up your face in the moon
And see the dried up rivers
Of years of holding me in your heart
Yet never being able to get a start!
I hold up your face in the moon
And see relics of a love
Wasted in a desert of despair!

I cannot recall the best advice
I got from my father
but the best
advice I got from
a man that's not
my father
is to
make friends with loneliness

If you and loneliness are enemies
you'll be lonely

but once you and loneliness are
friends you'll be solitary

The difference between loneliness
and solitude
is the difference
between
the naive kid who thinks one's
happiness depends upon others
and the wise sage who knows that
one's happiness depends
only on
one's self
and one's self alone.