Had me in his arms, safe and secure
Thought it was fate and pure.
I was sure.
Then i see the betrayal in front of me
How could it be?
This perfect being is cheating on me?
I am hurt and frustrated.
Relationships is just overrated and complicated.
Im just devastated.
I am trash you are throwing out
I didnt doubt.
I see youre addicted and want to stop
But it isnt easy and off the top.
My body melts as i see its not enough
And life is rough.
I wanna help you, but i dont know what to do.
First i need to be
or else i will feel ****** for all eternity.

Do u crave me like i crave you?
I thought i knew.
Home.
Its not here, its everywhere
The cosy and secure home is fair
But i want it and im just sitting in despair.
Gasping for air.
Home is wherever u go
And im trying to follow the flow
Trying to show, that i can also glow.
So i could be the home u wanted
Or i will be haunted.
With the feeling of trying my best
Not being good enough and cant rest
I just want to see u happy
Not ******

Show me your love
As my daydreaming dove from above
Will always be here to help

I love you, my boo

Im isolated in my own home
Like im thrown.
Out the window to survive by myself.
I just need some help.
I cant eat anything.
It feels like im vanishing.
Watching everyone have fun
While im at the corner like a ****.
This aint no life, its a lie.
People who say they would be there
But when there not even here.
What am i supposed to do?
Alone in this cage.
Im full of rage
Im screaming inside trying to get out
Like a monster in me trying to shout
But nobody’s listening
I just hear whistling.
Of the evil inside me
That cant hide and flee.
Because who i am, nobody wants to see.

Alone in my room and nothing to do.
Feelings bottled up i got no clue.
Does he really love me? Does he care?
Where?
Never calls, never falls.
Am i being too much?
I just wanna be loved as much.
Reassurance doesn’t feel right u say.
Is that because im not your bae?
Im not the one having ur attention, ur just in another dimension.
Forgetting about me.
U just wanna be free.
From me.
I lay here thinking when he wanna spend time with me, but what i really dont see is that he let me be.
Behind the shade.
I fade.
Into the void.
Ur just annoyed while im overjoyed.
This mask cant hold much longer
I cant be stronger.