Happy days, lonely nights,
Burdens weigh, upon my mind
People come, then they leave
But these memories stay with me,
Stare out into a crystal sea
And your secrets, I will keep

I may start, begin anew
But my heart still says with you
But please know, though it's the end
I will always be your friend
It's been years, and you've moved on
At least I still have you on my songs

I'm such an idiot
going Crazy over
Him. such and Idiot.
he's never going to talk
To me ever Again. I
doubt he ever Will.
I probably scared Him.
Or maybe I'm just too
Weird. he'd make a Great
friend. I kinda hoped we
were Friends after that night.
But i'm such an idiot.

i want to Disappear, maybe
block him so I can Hide from the
shame. I have no confidence.
it's about Time to cry. i want
to tell His friend to never
Mention me. save me the Embarrassment.

...i'm such an idiot...

Your kiss would do it
Just one
Is that too much?
It's all I've been waiting for
All my life
The softest touch of your soft lips
The feel of your tongue
What the universe was made for
Your kiss
Your lips pressed against mine
Ten seconds to define our entire existence
Is that too much?
Let me slow down
Forget the universe
Lets rediscover ourselves
I belong with you
You belong with me
And everything else that follows
Does that work instead?
Now about that kiss
I've craved it to a point where I ache for it
Is that too much??
Ok then let me come out straight
I think we are at a point
Where kissing is the only thing
Only sane thing that would lead to my insanity
Get me drunk enough to be sober again
Hear me out love
One kiss
That's all I ask
One kiss to save the world
For I might just lose it
But if you feel it's impossible
Then just say it's too much
And I''ll go kiss her instead.

(Kathmandu, Nepal 7/5/2013)

I can't tell
if it's the lack
of sleep
or the lack
of human contact
that makes me
feel the way I do

but somehow
of all feelings
i feel empty

like the cigaret pack that used to be full
lying on the balcony table
or the bottle of gin
that do not seem
to notice
how tonight again
i didn't feel a thing

Long walks, sad talks. Forever dreams, sad as they seem. Bright smile, depressed style. Shining eyes, hidden behind long hair. Scared girl, mad dad.

You cant leave her out. Don't shut anyone out.

Funny girl, dark secrets. Arms covered in scars. Face covered in bruises. Hidden with makeup.

Long lies, short excuses. Struggling girl, successful man, coming to take her hand. Long nights, short time.

She struggles from the trauma.

Long fights, short nights. Cut even shorter.  

She tried and tried to breathe. But he was just too strong.

Long fight, takes flight. Another angel up in heaven tonight...

She wants to sing,
Pour her heart out,
To me,
feeling so lost and alone
She sings of love,
She sings of loss,
Of how she's turned,
And how she's tossed
And how she's been through this
More than enough

She looks to me for guidance,
I hold her through the night
She looks in my eyes, so,
Kiss her, I just might
A kiss that could bring us together,
From now til forever,
Or make her go back to him,
And leave my with my lonliness,
And my sins

i know i'm not as sad as i let myself believe
but sometimes it all just feels so real

what is this in front of me?
this false notion of what i'd like to be
take it away; i can't see
this is too painful to be a reality

i'm caught up in all the wrong things
and got my affections stuck in all the wrong places
silly me, will i ever learn this time?
i've been here a thousand times
and all i've done about it is rhyme

there really is no excuse;
maybe i am just a desperate soul
but i know the truth and i think that makes it worse

come here
don't come here
hold my hand
but not my heart

i just need someone to love me but i don't want to fall in love.