in these trying times,

our houses locked and shuttered,

fear is the king.

I.

i’m alone. soon dead.

i’m going to die alone.

alone in my house.

II.

so open your phone,

and do not look at the news,

and pretend it’s fine.

III.

wish i’d remembered

to say hi to them before

the world fell apart.

IV.

the world fell apart.

even if this sickness ends,

the glass is shattered.

V.

you can’t fix the glass

after it has been broken.

we can’t fix the world.

VI.

week four of it all.

i’m going to die alone.

alone in my house.

For eight long years I stood
Unable to see beyond base color, and movement
I'd look at the white fuzz ball in the night sky
And wonder what it looked like in detail

It's happened
I got my assigned looking glass and went out
And as the night air kissed my skin
And the sweet dew on the breeze blessed my lungs
I saw you

A clear cut light bulb
Surrounded by a flooding white light
With hints of blues and greens tussling the cloudscape

You wore a crown better than any I've ever had the blessing to see
And gracefully and silently you hovered
Clearing the way for your astronomical war path of silent and peaceful soft light.

as the wind blows
my thoughts begin to bleed
sharp words reflect what’s within
a stripped down body mirroring a freak
few moons ago I learned to breathe
the air was heavy it restored my pain
but that’s okay
lessons are learned the hard way

i saw the geese fly over yesterday
in formation

heard them coming first

it was voted the best thing
of the day

besides the tidying
in the garden
clearing the storm debris

making
plenty of wild wood
for the fire

second favourite thing
is the plastic monkey toy
which claps and chats its mouth

complete

with sweets that cost one pound

Ever feel like your in a movie?
Like each frame moves you closer and closer to an end goal?
I feel that way sometimes
Except here's the difference:
It's not my movie
I'm not the person this film is about
The plot involves me
But I am not the key person in the story
I'm the best friend who everyone loves
But nobody would peg as their favorite character
Forever in the shadow of the hardworking lead role
It's sad really
To think I'll always be number two
Forever the expendable second choice
But what can you do
When it's someone else's movie