Dust, Lust of a heated up bust of us
hidden down into the cold snow
of long ago where our love is frozen
where love was once told,
Now true loneliness made a home
where love no longer roams
feelings of love have been locked away
in the bright of day
where Dust and Lust
has made a cloud of gray
where true Love could never stay
In my mind of lost of time
your old words come back
like a hearten up  heater attack
words do hurt when they come from you
words of a darkened past made its way back
Love, passion made a crashed
gave my heart abashed of everlasting pain
that brought on lots of rain
Dust, Lust to an end of Us
locked away in the cold snow of long ago.

Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Been lost for how
To save lost spaces—
Backtrack in time
Can't erase this

Rewinding in rhymes (over & over/ asleep & awake)
Tape cassettes made
In Retrospect—
Spinning and remixing
Sealed in semi-broken plastic covers, buried in a glove box disaster
      Scene ready to be rediscovered
After years have passed and time has advanced
Playing for all time—
Sealed and safe
free to replay
For decades
Until they are replaced

And if the universe allows it,
They will never be lost again,
They will always have a place
To replay

Tears dribble down my skin
Dripping like rain, down my chin
Wondering if he'll ever come back
Into this world that's as dark as black
Shivering, shuddering down my throat
Drowning in sorrows
In my own boat

Coronavirus
Don't come back
If you will
I'll give you a thwack

-some ghosts refuse to stay in the past-

Bad habit

the moment
you first sprinkled stardust
in my hair
so tenderly
caressed my cheek
the husky morning light
throwing faint shadows
bed sheets scattered
hearts caught
by surprise
then shattered
into shimmering bright
as pre dawn
had me forlorn
lost in your
sweat
my tears
kissed away
your tongues mixology
feeding back to me
my tears and my ***
breeding
blending
alchemical lust
the birth of
a bad habit
born out of
a good love
this little bird
caught
in your gilded cage
would become
locked out by
your inner rage
as madness descended
four lives
upended
passion
fighting the good fight
biting back
against the strain
of this
            bad
                      bad
                                habit
loves first bloom
birds singing
before the sun rise
you tearing down
all my defences
raw desire
the fire
             the fire
   the fire
in your *****
becoming my ******
scribing incantations
of love
of dreams
of wanting
with your ***
on my belly skin
glistening in the
early morning sun
when did your love
mutate to ownership
passion
become obsession
your misbelief in
imagined transgressions
tearing the silk
at it's seams
then on your knees
begging to

redeem

redeem

redeem

too many
heartbeats
too late
the light snuffed out
stuffing the ****
in loves spout
sweet turned bitter
now
just spit
        spit
        spit
                  it all out
loves lamb slaughtered
throat cut and bleeding out
my teeth & blood
on the floor
of our house built on
'love'
feel my jaw
     crack
           splinter
under strong hands
that once held me
"safe'
'loved' me
wed me
then bled me
dry of all hope
love hanging
choked on the rope
kicking me
to pieces
and me
kicking this
bad
         bad
                   habit

clean.


© J.C.