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Hannah Field Dec 2018
I have nobody except you
But sometimes you just made me feel like
I'm just another girl
That kiss and tell
But ****
I need to talk to someone
Can't you see
That I have nobody
That I'm lonely
That I only accompanied
By my own thoughts
And sometimes
There Trying To **** You
Hannah Field Sep 2018
It's Sad
Knowing That
I Love Others
More Than
I Love Myself
I Hate To See Others
In Pain
But When It
Comes To
Me
"I'm Fine'
Hannah Field Nov 2018
If wild my breast
I bask in dreams in suicide
If cool my heart and high my head
I think how lucky are the dead
Hannah Field Sep 2018
I AM ME
and I
won't change 4 you
Hannah Field Oct 2018
I feel like everyone hates me. But it's okay I hate myself to
Hannah Field Sep 2018
I want to die but no one will let me. Please let me go
Hannah Field Sep 2018
I went to sleep
blood on the floor
of my life
there's nothing more
Hannah Field Oct 2018
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (What it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Hannah Field Sep 2018
The monsters my parents warned me about when I was younger weren't under my bed or in my closet but in my head
Hannah Field Nov 2018
Roses are red, Violets are blue
If he's busy on vd
The side chick is you
Hannah Field Sep 2018
Suicide doesn't take away the pain it gives it to someone else
Hannah Field Oct 2018
Just a cut
Just a scratch
What's that Mark?
It was just the cat
Just an excuse
Just another lie
What's with all the bracelets
It's fashion why
Just a tear
Just a scream
Why are you crying?
Just a bad dream
But It's not just a cut
Or a tear or a scream
It's always just one more till you die...
Hannah Field Oct 2018
I don't want you to save me...
I want you to stand by my side as i save myself
Hannah Field Feb 2019
Maybe in the world of Emojis
They laugh at their ignorance
Every time we send smiley faces
with sad intentions
We no longer laugh like humans
we just imagine laughter
Hannah Field Oct 2018
I'm one bullet away from suicide
No one feels darker then me inside
Hannah Field Feb 2017
the gift of friendship

the gift of friendship is a priceless gift, that cannot be brought or sold,its value if far greater than a mountain of gold. for gold is cold and lifeless,it can neither see nor hear,and in the time of trouble it is powerless to cheer. it has no ear to listen,no heart to listen. it cannot bring you comfort or reach out a helping hand. so when you ask god for a gift,be thankful if he sends,not Diamonds,pearls or riches, but the love of a real true friend. PS: this is from my anthology. i hope you like it
Hannah Field Mar 2019
I loved her...
Her hair
Her eyes
Her body
Everything
She was special
She was unique
I wanted to tell her
But she was one of my best friends
I told Erin and chloe and everyone else
I hope she reads this I hope she knows
That I love her very dearly
Hannah Field Apr 2019
Living with mental illness makes almost every single day a battle. Will we wake up and handle our stress or will our brains completely derail and make us want to give up? Will today be a good day or will we fall closer to rock bottom again?

We KNOW we have everything to live for (kids, family, friends, great jobs, etc.) and we ARE grateful for those amazing fortunes...but something always haunts us. We are always fighting to stay on top and to control how our emotions flow out. There is always a fear, however small and maybe even subconscious, that today could be the day that breaks us or that we fall back down from however far we've climbed. Its a constant, conscious effort to survive, let alone thrive. Some days are easier than others. Treatment and/or therapy helps, but we're never "cured". The demon can be tamed but never exorcised. This is us.

We are mothers, fathers, friends, coworkers, siblings, sons, daughters. We smile through pain. We cling to the smallest hopes and continue to climb.

So show some compassion. Give hugs and high fives when you're having a good day. Check on your friends who may be slipping. Help them up. Show them you care, don't just tell them. You could be the light in someone's darkness that brings them back to life. #Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe
Hannah Field Sep 2018
Darling,
The world's not really against you
The only thing that is against you
is yourself...
Hannah Field Oct 2018
Silly little girl
Don't fool yourself
They've seen your scars
Just don't want to help
Little do they know
How much it could change
With three little words
" Are You Okay"
Hannah Field Sep 2018
You are a work of art
The thing you have been through
Make you more valuable
Hannah Field Nov 2018
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I really like garlic bread
I don't know how to rhyme
Hannah Field Mar 2019
I saw the pain in her eyes
she was hurt and broken
no one cared did they
They snickered
They judged
They talked
They bashed
Until that one day
That one day
After 4 years of abuse
She was found dead
Hung
She had killed herself






( Comment if this has happened to someone you know or you?
Hannah Field Sep 2018
Why did you try to **** yourself...
You told me to be happy...
Hannah Field Oct 2018
We stopped checking under our bed for monsters
When we realized they were inside us
Hannah Field Dec 2018
I think of my best friend and know that she is the person who will be there for me, even when I can't be here for myself who will CHEER me to my greatest heights and who will console me when I've fallen down. She will STAND UP for me and LIE DOWN beside me. She will FORGIVE me when I've hurt her and will occasionally, even bite her tongue when she could have easily said " I TOLD YOU SO"
Thank's Chloe Brazel, Erin Johnson, Jacinta Alt and Saffy Lafsky
Hannah Field Oct 2018
When I saw your body for the first time
I realized how war torn you were
how many you battles you lost
on your wrists
on your thighs
how many fires occurred
on your sides
your lovely sides
and how many times I told you
I loved you because I do
because no matter how many times
you have lost the battle
you will always win the war
Hannah Field Nov 2018
Roses are red
Violets are blue
****, I don't know how to continue bye
Hannah Field Sep 2018
Just because my eyes don't tear
Doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry
And just because I come off strong
Doesn't mean there's nothing wrong
Hannah Field Oct 2018
Skin
so perfect
smooth and soft
canceling the pain within
suddenly the knife cuts deep
trying to cut away the suffering
that's hiding underneath a smile
a blood red waterfall
ending a life
whispering goodbye
forever
Hannah Field Oct 2018
I loved her
but then she cut to deep
And then she was fighting for her life
She lost
Now i don't wanna be with anyone else
Only her,
so i just plan one more week
Then we'll be together forever
Me and my love
How stupid she was
I don't want to go so early
But she is my life
I miss you baby
Hannah Field Oct 2018
A broken mirror
A bleeding fist
A sliver blade against my wrist
Tears falling down on lips UnKissed
Ignore her and she won't exist
She's not the kind you will come to miss
Hannah Field Oct 2018
Doctor: She is dead
School:The fat one? Oh yeah she deserved it
Boyfriend: I didn't even like her
Friend: At least I don't have to pretend I like her anymore
Counselor: I had to many clients I have to deal with.
She made my job easier
Hannah Field Oct 2018
When I'm gone what will you do
Who will write and draw for you?
Someone smarter- Someone new
Someone Better- Maybe YOU!!!

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