I was high on your love.
But the reality sobered me up.
I was floating on the cloud nine.
Then I realised that you'll never be mine.

But I'm okay! !..I've accepted it.
That sometimes that just it.
This thing between you and me.
I'm gonna behold and cherish it.

I promise to be your sacred place.
Where you can be anything you want.
I promise to be always there for you.
No matter what it is that you want.
Just be my friend,
Trust me we're gonna have a blast.

He said,
I like you, a little.
I want you, a little.
I trust you, a little.
Wanna be with you, a little.
Wanna love you, a little.

I said,
I don't think it's possible.
That my decision is irreplaceable.
That I wouldn't let this happen.

Then why?
I was the one to fall.
I was the one who couldn't be alone.
After knowing everything all along,
Why am I the one who couldn't keep,
My head and heart apart?
Why am I the one,with a broken heart?.

Some says it's a journey,
Some says it's an experience.
I say it's a roller coastar.
The exhilaration of going up,
The calmness of coming down.
The pulsing of excitement,
The serenity of the quiet.
The tears of heartbreak.
And the tears of joy.
The butterflies of falling in love.
The gut ranching feeling of loosing someone.
The togetherness of family.
The companionship of the friendship.
The celebrations of a new life.
The funerals and goodbyes.
The beauty of mother nature.
And the ugly side of humans.
The innocence of a child.
The aqua and wild life.
It's really hard to contain it in just few lines.

I got lost on my way home.
There was this place,
That I didn't know .
So beautiful but out of reach.
I tried the walls but couldn't breach .

There was solitude and greatness .
There was compassion and happiness.
There was a life of absolution.
And maybe with a lot of solutions.

I wanted to stay but couldn't.
I wanted to make a home there but couldn't.
I wasn't what they wanted.
Not worthy enough.

I was just a human.
With lust and envy.
With love and jealousy.
With a motive and a search for empathy.

Once we plant a tree of love.
If it blossomed ..would have been nice.
But it didn't. .so it's okay.
Nothing happened. .it's okay.
We couldn't be together. .it's okay.
There's nothing left for me..it's okay.

You were my journey,I was stranger.
You were the first note of the song,
I was the chorus.
You used to look like mine.
Like you were made for me.
Like we were meant to be.
But it didn't happened. ..it's okay.

Now tears and heartbreak are my best friends.
But I still have a smile on my face.
And even if I don't get a single thing out of this life..it's okay.

Oh life....
I've called for you.
Thought and nourished you.
But you didn't like it.
But you didn't believe it.
I was trying to make it up to you.
Now your eyes are upset with me.
But it's okay..

How does a heartbreak look like?
Does it have a face?
Does it breath and is alive?
Or its just a shadow of my most beloved person?
Who has murdered my heart..
And made my head hallow.
Who took goodness,happiness, colours and my soul away.
Just left a shell, even the wind can sway.

The innocence of childhood.
The excitement of learning something new.
The process of growing up.
The hustle bustle of teenagers.
The hide and seek in the street.
Riding the bicycle for the first time.
Getting A+ in least favourite subject.
The increasing trophies on shelf.
The collection of stupid things .
The crushes on movie stars.
The understanding of friendship.
The push and pull of relationship.
The hovering of parents.
The annoying interference of siblings.
The first love.
The stepping into adulthood.
The going through college.
The torture of professors.
The experience of heartbreak.
The first hangover.
The process of finding the job.
And starting the "adult life".
The finding of forever.
Making a life together.
And starting a family.
And here's come the new circle.

I've struggled,to get up in the morning,
Knowing,you won't be in the kitchen preparing the breakfast.
I've struggled,to go to office,
Knowing,you won't be there to say"see you in the evening".
I've struggled, to get my work done.
Knowing,chances of you forgiving me are none.
I've struggled,to keep myself centered.
since, you are everywhere.
I've struggled,to come back home,
Knowing,I'll be there all alone.
I've struggled,to going to bed,
Knowing ,I won't be getting any rest.
I've struggled,to keep your memories down.
Knowing,I'll be lying awake till the dawn.

A simple touch,
An innocent hug,
I'm trying to rein my feelings,
Please make it worth.

Twinkling eyes,
Goofy smile,
Don't be that sweet ,
It's getting harder to hide.

You're touchy feely,
Please take it easy,
You've got no idea
what's going on inside,
This head of mine.

You're all over the place,
I'm trying to keep inside,
Please behave until ,
You are ready to be mine.

I didn't wanted to ***** you,
Wanted to give you time.
I was taking it slow,
Since I thought,we have a lifetime.

But you were snatched away,
In such a brutal way.
I couldn't get my bearing,
Couldn't believe what I was hearing.

I didn't know you were struggling,
What kind of a friend I've been?
Didn't even know,
The hand you were dealing.

I was just around the corner,
You would just have to reach.
Or you could've just told me,
We would've set up a meeting.

I would've answered,
Anytime you called.
What was your hesitation?
I was your best friend.as you've told!

If you would've just told me,
Maybe we would've still had time.
I would've moved heaven and earth,
Just to make you mine.

I searched for you forever,
Looking for your face in stranger.
Even chasing few wrong persons,
There's new height for my hallucinations.

Now,I'm going through the motion,
Working through this pain.
Waiting for that day to come,
Till we meet again.

No more, expectations,
No more, explanations.
No more, sticking around,
No more, staring at the ground.

No more, letting you tell what to do,
No more, letting anyone through.
No more, saying "I love you ",
No more, weaving my life around you.

No more, wanting to get back together,
No more, the illusion of forever.
No more, hiding my tears,
No more, conscious what not to wear.

No more, letting you near,
No more, living in fear.
No more, pretending to sway,
No more, letting you get away.

It started with a shared meal,
Eventually, became a big deal.
You saw me sitting alone,
Talked! because you were bored.
One simple phone call,
Smallest of the gesture that's all.
You saw something in my eyes,
And Wanted to make it alright.
I tried to push you away,
you kept coming back much for my dismay.
The way you were ready to forget whatever,
just so we could stay together.
you pushed,until I get ready,
And our time together has been crazy.
I'm proud to call you friend,
And I hope "us" never ends.
...Gulishta

Sitting here thinking about my life,
There's a darkness, not an ounce of light.
Battered, shattered wings,
Sadness flowing and consuming like the wind.
Tears left my eyes dry,
Questioning, if I'll ever fly.
They asked, why am I depress?
There's no way I could express.
Sitting over here,wondering what to do?
Situation out of hand,my life never looked so blue.
Looking around myself,
Everything's covering in itself.
I'll walk a road of thousands of miles,
Where no one can say when to smile.
If only I have the courage to fight,
My life can take anothere height.
....Gulishta

When the beating of your heart change,
Because of the texts you just exchange.
When someone's smile makes your heart fly,
And you know there are no rules to apply.
When you can't stop thinking,no matter,
And promises yourself to do better .
When you feel so light ,
And just want to  hold on tight.
When you feel you can change the world,
But still can't say the word.
What you can do for them is whatever,
And the promises of forever.
When you can take what life give,
And still have the power to forgive.
When there's no right or wrong of a side,
Because that one person is by your side.
....Gulishta

The hallowness in my chest,
The constant nagging in my head.
This feeling of vulnerability,
And I'm thinking of possibility.
I'm thinking about you,
But don't wanna look weak in front of you.
Afraid! , what you'll say,
Not saying what I wanna say .
how hard is it to say, anyway?
That I want you back, all the way.
Gulishta