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Aug 2018 · 147
Hardest time(of the day).
Gulishta Aug 2018
The three hours I spend
Asking my mind to shut up about you.
And get on with the sleeping.
Aug 2018 · 803
Why I choose to stay!.
Gulishta Aug 2018
Plaster a fat curve,
Whenever asked to smile.
Mind and heart in shreds,
Being beautiful outside.

Unwanted attention,
Being centre of attraction.
Getting inside my shredded mind,
That's only distraction I seems to find.

Blatant ogling,
Iron clad hold on my waist.
Walking through an exhibition,
As if being the one presented on display.

Abused soul ,
cursed life,
Smile so big in the photograph .
Standing side by side.

A relation on pins and needle,
A bed made of glass shards.
Unacknowledged discomfort,
Sharing the world apart.

Blazing brown eyes,
The hatred inside.
Fingers clenched in fist,
Anger the blood-thirst in disguise.

Unveiling the monster,
Underneath the surface.
Projecting all the charm,
No room to escape.

Trapped in a life long bond,
An exchange of the vow.
Fear ingrained in every bone,
Not seeing an out.

Emotional instability,
No shrink can heal.
Threatening to destroy the destroyed,
To keep the mouth's seal.

The end is near ,
I smell it in your fear.
In the surprise on your face,
When everything turn into haze.

What I miss the most about that day,
The moment you realised,
Why I choose to stay.
Aug 2018 · 151
Familiar but not.
Gulishta Aug 2018
Surrounded by the warmth of the loved ones,
Feeling the chills in every bone.
Living in the house of my birth,
Still not being at home.

Knowing ins and outs of this neighbourhood,
Not knowing if it's here that I belong.
Watching familiar faces passing by,
Not sure if I know them at all.

Refusing to stand still,
Giving my everything to the efforts of moving on.
Can't recognise anymore,
What had been my comfort zone.

Every corner tainted,
Every edge is sharp.
Watching my every step,
Couldn't save my heart.
Everything is familiar. ...
     And everything is not.
Jul 2018 · 240
Golden cage.
Gulishta Jul 2018
Dark blue sky,
    Not a star to shine .
Overwhelming pride,
    Nothing can excite.

No breathing room,
     No personal space.
Made of glitter and stones,
     My golden cage .

Dull rhythm,
      of my breathing,
Unblinking eyes,
      Not a key in sight.

Unchained bondages ,
      Invisible clutches.
Insignificant life,
      Unexisted existence.

Shivering bodies,
      Blazing minds.
Fearing monsters,
     Being one inside.

Only shreds are left,
    Nothing to sacrifice.
They say I'm privileged,
    Choosing to stay the other side.
Jul 2018 · 1.5k
REALISE.
Gulishta Jul 2018
The idealisation of the far-fetched reality ,
Doesn't make it right.
The happiness coming from someone else's pain,
Doesn't make you thrive.
The insensebility of taking wrong decisions,
Doesn't make you look cute, just cruel and naive.
The passing on of the confusion,
Shows your incapability of commitment or in general Life.
The repetitiveness of a command,
Doesn't make people oblige.
It's a simple game...
A game of what's wrong and what's right!.
Of seeing things you ignored ,
Being a self-centred blind.
It's an opportunity to open yourself up,
For the things you've done to others,
and putting yourself in their shoes...
And.....REALISE.
Jul 2018 · 133
Untitled
Gulishta Jul 2018
I wanna lost myself into the depth of your eyes,
And never come out.
I wanna race through the city,
Climb the tallest building,
To shout out loud.
I wanna ride the giant ferris wheel,
And let my hairs down.
I wanna join the circus,
And see the world upside down.
I wanna spread my arms and fly,
Till I meet the white cloud.
I wanna dance under the moonlight,
With shooting stars ,
And crickets being only sound.
I wanna stay in your arms,
Till I get put into the ground.
Jul 2018 · 178
Moment of the time.
Gulishta Jul 2018
I don't know who we are.....
               Half of the time.
All I know we exist. ...
               In the moment of time.

I don't want you...
               Out my side.
Just let me have you...
               One more time.
I'm trying to hold on...
                Let's take a pause for a while.
You don't have to go over many heights.
                Just grace me with your smile.
Don't be afraid to fall,
                I will be here to catch you every time.
Because we are...
                The moment of the time.
Jul 2018 · 205
Clean slate.
Gulishta Jul 2018
You don't know where to begin,
               But it's not too late.
I'll take you there don't worry,
               I won't let you escape.
Even if I'm a consolation,
               Don't try to manipulate.
You are my salvation,
                I can be your clean slate.
Jul 2018 · 227
A message.
Gulishta Jul 2018
I asked you to let it go,
    You kept chasing me .
I told you there isn't any us,
   You choose to ignore me.
I asked you to knock it off,
   You kept being cheesy.
After all these things,
     How can you blame me?
On ever turn ....
              I feel your watching.
At every moment. ..
              I see you waiting.
Even if I wanted to..
               I can't force the feeling.
Am I actually reason for your heartbreak? ?
     Or you just refuse to see it?
If I hadn't make myself clear. ..
   You are nowhere near my head or heart baby.
Jul 2018 · 179
IF....
Gulishta Jul 2018
When I sat alone and look inside, all I found was solid heartache and longing.

Heartache of getting too close to something but still having it out of reach.

Longing of having that thing out of reach but that doesn't stop my heart from thinking about "what if"?.

I don't know if it's the person I miss or the feeling..
I don't know if it's the reasons it didn't happen or me..
I don't know if I wanted to survive or die trying..
I don't know if it's the eyes were at the fault or your smile..
I don't know if I was the one to drove you away or insecurities inside..
I don't know if .........
I don't know.
Jul 2018 · 134
Reborn before we die.
Gulishta Jul 2018
Hold my hands above my head.
Wrap my wings as they starts to spread.
Keep me concealed as I tried to expand.
An illusion so grand.

The walls crumble as they descend.
The floor becoming the roof,
As the roof become the ground.
Tearing apart skin and bones.
Or Maybe awaking the conscience they never had.

Different sets of rules are going to apply.
With my wings wrapped I'm going to fly.
You and me are going to be reborn,
Even before we die.
Going ashore as they watch on stand by.
May 2018 · 226
You and I.
Gulishta May 2018
You pull me up,
        When I let you down.
I'm the one who float,
        You bring me to the ground.
You are better than me,
        You make me better.
You put us back together,
        Everytime when  I shatter.
I'm the one guilty,
         You are the one who plead.
I'm evolving,
         You are the one who succeed.
I have desire for the wings,
         You are my teether without any string.
You make me stronger,
          When I make you weak.
You are a part of me,
          Without me you can't exist.
I'm understanding,
           You are the depth.
I'm the words ,
            You are the strength.
You are everything,
            That I need and want to have.
May 2018 · 154
Perception.
Gulishta May 2018
The success in failure.
The lesson in hurt.
The prey in predator.
The fondness in curt.

The colours in black.
The doors in the back.
The stillness of the time.
The loudness of the night.

The warmth in the ice.
The best in just nice.
The love in the hate.
The average in the great.

The survival in drowning.
The stuck up in moving.
The hesitant smile.
An enemy by your side.

The relief in confession.
The envy in affection.
The edges in perfection.
And the boredom in passion.

It's all about perception.
May 2018 · 149
Wish it was.
Gulishta May 2018
The times I stop myself from trying.
The times I wanted to let fingers fly.
The times I consoled myself after crying.
The times I asked the question "why".

I love you baby!!...with my whole heart.
Wish it was the situation! !...where I could say that.

Holding your hand...I'd pull you down.
Keeping you close....straddling your lap.
Looking into your eyes...no needs for words.
Breathing your scent in...then slowly closing the gap.

You were here...can still feel it.
I closed my eyes...can still taste it.
Never my intention. ..to let you go.
Didn't gave me a choice...you wanted through .

Standing at very point you left.
Knowing you won't be back.
You and me and possibilities. .
Oh ! how I wish....I wish it was.
May 2018 · 155
Everything will be alright.
Gulishta May 2018
The pain reaching its limit.
The unpredictability is constant.
The extreme is already here.
You've bared what's there to bare.
You are what you have to be.
You are what you can be.
You are with the battered body.
You are with the stronger soul.
Your mind still a chaos.
But with a sense of peace inside.
A strange combination. ...
      But a fulfill life.
There isn't anything that can be worsen.
There are only and only the chances of improvement.
You've been down...
            You're going up.
You've been crawling...
            You're speeding up.
You've been failed. ...
            Your succeeding.
You've been broken. ..
             You're fighting.
You are as you are in plain sight,
Keep fighting. ....
       Everything will be alright.
May 2018 · 185
Another day. .
Gulishta May 2018
Another day of waiting,
Another day of hoping,
Another day of thinking,this might be it.
Another day of feeling drained,needing to recharge it.
Another day of praying,
Another day of realising ,God have another plans.
Another day of trying to get it out of my head.
Another day of working on being optimist.
Another day of being bone tired ,and trying not to resist.
Another day of moving,because it's required.
Another day of not letting my mind loose.
Another day of wishing to have a choice to choose.
Another day of smiling for others.
Another day of living just see another.
Another day of waiting ,
Another day of Hoping,
Just another one praying.
Apr 2018 · 152
I miss you
Gulishta Apr 2018
I like you,
I miss you ,
I want you ,
I need you...

I don't like you,
I hate you,
Don't wanna see you,
I miss you.

I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you.
Apr 2018 · 219
Have you ever? ?
Gulishta Apr 2018
Have you ever felt??
As if you are watching your own life from far away?.
Have you ever felt? ?
As if this thing thats inside you.,it has a shape and aching presence that's eating you away.?
Have you ever felt? ?
As if you don't even recognise yourself?.
Have you ever felt? ?
Like a candle burning from both sides?.
Have you ever get tired??
Of always being sane and good and nice?.
Have you ever regretted??
Letting your decision get away??
Have you ever looked into the mirror?. .
And promised yourself to be a little bit more selfish? ?..
Mar 2018 · 176
DEMON.
Gulishta Mar 2018
An uncertain situation.
A faithless faith.
A hope shattered facing the eyes.
A life living in vain.

Crumbs!! That's all what left.
Hands too small to grasp..
Blank minds...
And hallow chest.
Unbreakable bonds...
And the treasure chest.

The hidden darkness,
That comes to surface.
Every corner occupies. .
No place to escape.

Chains around the ankles..
Bogeyman lurking from every side.
Crying....
Trying to reach out and to hide.
But imagine the surprise. .
When demon came with beloved face
And warm eyes.
Mar 2018 · 232
Can you??
Gulishta Mar 2018
Can you hear me??
    I'm calling you....
             Without my words.
Can you feel me??
    I'm touching you....
             With my presence.
Can you see me??
   I'm right there....
               Besides you.
Can you exist? ?
   With or without me??
Can you smell me??
   I'm living in your essence.
Can you live??
   As I'm alive for your breath.
Or can you let go??
   So I could die in peace.
Mar 2018 · 235
A lost love.
Gulishta Mar 2018
He came to my life..
When I wasn't expecting him.
He stayed for four days.
And I lost my everything to him.

I didn't know how that happened! !
We were just doing what felt right.
Now I can't get him out of my mind.

I want him to come back.
I told him to go.
I wish there was another world.
Where he and I can have more.

Now I wish him the happiness.
And someone to fill his loneliness.
To have a good and fulfill life.
And a love to last a lifetime.
Mar 2018 · 271
A beginning. .
Gulishta Mar 2018
You loved me for that moment. .
Why should I ask you to love me forever.?
It was enough for me....
                         to know you ..
I won't change it for the world.
It was the best....
                       while it lasted.
We had a tremendous time.
It was beautiful...
                       Please don't be sad.
We got what we wanted. .
                It doesn't matter for how long.
Can you imagine??..what a tragedy it would've been..
                 Not knowing you at all?...
I'll carry a part of you with me .
You carry a part of me..
Someday.........somewhere...
       In the long down future ....
You smile when see me..
And I'll smile with all the light and memories that you left with me.
Feb 2018 · 159
Last chance to fight.
Gulishta Feb 2018
No time to actually say that I miss you.
No time to actually express that I wanna be there for you.
I'm human, is that an excuse enough?
Or do I have to grovel and find the pieces to pick up?
I broke you into million pieces..
I'm the only one who can piece you back together.
Was it really a mistake??
Or were you just knew,how much we were putting on stake??
The dismissive way, you behaved..
Do I accept it??.
Or do you want me look beyond it ..into your unsmiling eyes.?
Help me here.... I'm not inside your head.
I want a last chance to fight.
Before you decide for us to separate.
Feb 2018 · 285
By my side.
Gulishta Feb 2018
I wanna hold still,
     But wanna keep moving.
I don't want a choice,
     But the choice of choosing.
I wanna stay ahead,
      But so far behind.
I wanna live on the edge,
     But with a precocious mind.
I want you to let me go,
     But hold on to me tight.
I wanna fly in the sky,
     But with my feet touching the ground.
I wanna loose it all ,
     But still want to survive.
I wanna be alone,
     But with someone by my side.
Feb 2018 · 212
Better than me.
Gulishta Feb 2018
The things I've never said.
The emotions I was too afraid to express.
Why?..why I didn't tell you?
What you mean to me.
Why ?..why I didn't accept your love?.
Instead of being mean to you.
Is it too late now??
Can I say it to you somehow?
That ..
For me you are the rotation of the earth.
That I miss you with my every passing breath.
You are the sunshine on the black stormy night.
You are my smile.
You are my expression,
when its hard for me to express.
You are my joy in the time of stress..
I wanna say come back to me. ..
But I won't.
Because baby!!!...you deserve far better than me.
Jan 2018 · 233
Memories.
Gulishta Jan 2018
Living in the memories of you.
Dying a little every day for you.
Hoping to find a distraction,
Or maybe for wishes to come true.

They say people come and go in your life.
Why didn't they tell,
There's only bits and pieces to gather,
Of what has been left behind?.

Why didn't they have the road map,
For passing it through.
Or Maybe a magic potion to go back in time?.

Seeing myself in your eyes..
Made me feel beautiful.
Now I can't see myself without wishing for your eyes.
Not a blanket in the world to keep me warm,
Without having you by my side.
It's a dreadful feeling,
Wishing to be here as well as the other side.
Jan 2018 · 545
Welcome home.
Gulishta Jan 2018
The butterflies in my stomach.
Jumping around and dancing is not enough.
The world is shining a little brighter.
My chest feels a little tighter.
This feeling! !..
      Can't contain it inside.
Eyes burning with joy this time.
The pearls flowing out of our eyes.
Don't wanna touch, ,
         What if I'm dreaming like every other time.
Then you hold me in your arms.
        I'm nothing but a piece of you,
That you left behind.
      Oh baby!!! Welcome home.
You are my every prize.
Jan 2018 · 219
Happy ever after.
Gulishta Jan 2018
A touch like feather,
             Like warm summer weather.
A hope shining bright,
             And stars twinkling eyes.
A promise of a new life,
             No reasons to hide.
A love forbidden,
             A color that's crimson.
A feeling like wind in the hair,
            The life about to be shared.
A dodged bullet,
            And a happy ever after.
Jan 2018 · 160
Mine.
Gulishta Jan 2018
Is it real? ?
       Or just smoke and mirrors??

Are you really mine??
      Or its just an illusion having you by my side? ?

You've always been mine...
      Just in the wildest dreams...
I have at night.

Is this the way how magic feels??
      Surreal.....,
           Indescribable....
                     Unbelievable...,
                             Unapproachable.
But....still existing!.

The way you smiled with your eyes for me...
The way this time I actually saw the vulnerability.

Were you waiting? ??...
                          like I was.
For me to claim you as mine..
Jan 2018 · 175
To the beginning.
Gulishta Jan 2018
Going back to the time,
When everything was bright as sunshine.
When there wasn't any regret or longing.
When there wasn't any heartbreak or betrayal.
When there wasn't any Lost dreams..
And I wasn't a lost soul.
When there was a world full of hopes and day dreams.
Favourite books and ice creams.
When our greatest worry was ...
  How to stay out late..
Ohh how I wish to go back to those days.

Now ,
I came back to the place,
                      Where we started it all.
A place of firsts and forever.
A place that still feel like home.
A place where you were 20ft away.
Where We tried several times but couldn't stay away.
A place where now I feel like an intruder.
Just like people living in your house being strangers.

I came back to see where things started to fall. .
Did I read you wrong??
Or our bond just wasn't that strong? ?
I couldn't stay with you..
Even if I wanted to..
You are not the person you used to be.
So I came back to the beginning. .
To search back that boy who was my soul.
And With whom I had it all.
Jan 2018 · 169
Let down gently.
Gulishta Jan 2018
From the moment we met.
                 To the moment you left.
I knew you gonna hurt me,
                    Gonna let me down..
      Oh! You let me down so gently.

You were always right.
                 I always at the fault.
I showered you with trust,affection and friendship .
                You kept your's hidden in a vault.

I was quick to response.
          Always eager for more.
You were hesitant in everything you did.
           Wasn't able to assure.

It was a modern day fairy-tale.
       Not at all a happily ever after.
But you did leave a scar behind.
       For me to remember you forever.

You are the mistake I don't regret.
      I stepped into it aware and intentionally.
But I didn't count to get my heart involved.
And getting "let down gently".
Jan 2018 · 319
Coming undone.
Gulishta Jan 2018
Your breath fanning my face.
Your hands in my hairs.
The depth of your dark eyes staring at me.
The power that flows from you to me.
The intensity with you love.
This spark simmering between us.
Blood flowing with undercurrent.
The pulse beating behind your ear.
My hands drifting down your back.
Our breathing that's increasing every passing sec.
The buildup of this chemistry..
Hovering over the edge.
Diving down from this cliff.
One touch..... is all what it took,
For me to come undone.
Jan 2018 · 292
Who am I?
Gulishta Jan 2018
Sitting at your door,
Knocking every once in a while.
Waiting for you to open up,
So I could stay there for a while.

Call me an opportunist,
Call me a begger.
Call me your own reflection,
Call me a wager.

Won't go until I met you,
Waiting for it to happen.
Or you can make it easy for me,
Do something about it.

Everything that has to happen,
Is going to happen anyway.
You wanna stand and stare me in the eyes?
Or you can give me your back,
I'll enter from your side.

Being afraid of me,
Won't do you any good.
I'm persistent, stubborn and relentless.

Wanna know who am I? ?
         YOUR DESTINY.
Jan 2018 · 180
Invisible.
Gulishta Jan 2018
I walk around with
My chest wide open.
My heart ripped out.
Nobody can see it.

My world's falling apart.
No land beneath my feet.
My soul crushed into
Millions of pieces.
Nobody can see them.

My eyes bleeding tears.
My hands outstretched for help.
I'm crying for mercy.
No one to can hear it.

I'm invisible. ..
     Nobody can see me.
Dec 2017 · 275
A poet without words.
Gulishta Dec 2017
You were music and sunshine.
You were laughter and light.
You burned so bright while having a dark side.
When you were around. ..
                           I felt alive.
I was unstoppable. ......
                           With you by my side.
You inspired emotions. ....
                           And intense feelings.
You became my muse....
                         Made writing easy.
Then you left....
                    Took away my words with you.
Now I'm a poet ...
          Struggling to write anything that doesn't remind me of you.
           Every word feel dishonest.
           Every verse broken.
           Every promise a lie.
           Every poem incomplete.
          And I'm trying to get by.
I let you go...
            Because you wanted me to.
I closed the door...
            I thought it'll help me through.
Just please return my words...
           Then go back to being you.
Dec 2017 · 621
FOR MY MAA.
Gulishta Dec 2017
You made me by your flesh and blood.
You brought me to this world.
You bled for me,you went through immense pain for me.
You fed me the bite out of your mouth.
You dress me up in the fanciest gowns.
You are strict when you need to be.
You are gentle,.when I want you to be.
You are calm in between a chaos.
Your kiss can heal any wound.
Your touch is the best medicine.
Your hugs the warmest of the cocoons.
Your lap,the best bed I've ever slept on.
Your voice itself is my lullaby.
Your arms still the best home.
Your fussing over ,I won't exchange for the world.
You are my UNIVERSE.

You are my best friend. .
    When I need one.
You are my cheerleader. .
    When I have no one.
You are the difference. .
    Between good and bad.
You are the FACE OF THE GOD.

You are my partner in crime.
My bank where every dime is mine.
You are my first school.
You are everything that I wanna be.
You are the strength that no one can beat.
You work every minute of every week.
You stand up for me even when your knees went weak.

You are what every child should have.
You are what we took for granted.
You are the world itself..
You have so many names.
YOU ARE MY MOTHER,
MY AMMI......MY MUMMA.
    AND MY MAA.
Dec 2017 · 256
Lost in it.
Gulishta Dec 2017
There was a corner in my heart ,
That I didn't let anyone see.
There was a space in my mind,
Where I didn't let anyone be.

There was a piece of my soul,
That I didn't let anyone have.
There was a part of my life,
Where no one came to stay.

There were some of my words,
Those I never said to anyone.
There were some of my actions,
Those I didn't let anyone understand.

Then you came by..
    And everything changed.
You started to exist. .
    I was ceased by.
I called your name so much. .
    I started to get recognised by it.
You were what I became. .
    And myself somewhere lost in it.
Dec 2017 · 244
Life goes on.
Gulishta Dec 2017
You learn to walk..
You learn to run..
You fell down. .
You scrap your knee. .
You broke your hand. .
You loose your patience. .
You loose your mind. .
But you still try..
You get up. .
Try to stay upright. .
You crawl. .
You wobble. .
Then you stand up..
You start to fight..
You prove yourself. .
You defeat every obstacle. .
You conquer every fear. .
You became what you wanna be. .
The best version of yourself. .
It doesn't matter what you left behind. .
Everything that came and went was a lesson..
Everything that stayed. ...is yours.
Life goes on.
Dec 2017 · 501
A borrowed life.
Gulishta Dec 2017
There was this girl. .
   Living her life in peace. ..
      There was she,her books and poetry. .
             Then a boy came. ...
                   And swept her off her feet. .

Maybe she was looking for a friend.
Didn't wanted to complicate what could've been a simple to an extent.
She didn't realise that life doesn't work that way,
Whenever you think you have it under control.
It will ****** it away. .

It wasn't her life she was living. .
Don't know when but she started believing. .
The boy wasn't a part of the plan..
Those feeling couldn't be a part of her plan..

Manipulated and justified action..
Suppressed and false reactions. .
Then it changed drastically. .
She was baffled basically. .
But what could've been done about it? .
She was the one who didn't do anything about it.

Now,she is back..
living her life in peace. .
Where there's she,her books and poetry.
Does it matter? ..
That there are pieces where her heart should've beat. .
It was a borrowed life. . Never her's. .
Still. ..loosing it does hurt.
Dec 2017 · 304
Don't kill the saviour.
Gulishta Dec 2017
Suppressed emotions,
Depressed mind.
Looking everywhere for courage,
Instead of looking inside.

Struggling to stand,
Don't want the support.
Wasting away a life.
Don't know how to afford.

It isn't a bad thing,
Asking for help.
Want to conquer the world,
Hoping to be blessed.

Accepting what life gives,
Doesn't mean a failure.
Imagine yourself a hero,
Don't **** the saviour.
Dec 2017 · 416
To the girl who broke him.
Gulishta Dec 2017
It's been a while since you left him.
But you are still living in him,
He says he has moved on and forgotten about you.,
But when he is drunk and have his guards down,
I see the real him,
I see the regret and heartbreak he's keeping.
The regret in his smile..that never reaches his eyes.
The regret of being so in love with you.
That it change him...Everything about him.
From his watch to clothes to apartment to his personality .
And I don't have to ask if those things reminded him of you..
Because he has said..everything does.
Maybe that's why he hates his skin..
Because he can't change it..
He says it smells of you..
He says love is a tragedy happens to two people at the same time.
You are killing every part of him.
One by one ..
I'm listening everything he has to say..
I can't do anything about it for my dismay.
I've heard him cry himself to sleep.
I've seen him struggle to do simple things.
Is it love that he carries on his body or a scar that you gave him.
Isn't love supposed to be a good thing??
Please let him go for good
or come back to him.
Dec 2017 · 259
Not in love.
Gulishta Dec 2017
I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that I wake up every morning  wishing to see your face.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that everthing reminds of you.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that I check my phone every few minutes, wishing to see your name pop up.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that if you don't talk to me a single day,I'll go crazy.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that If you are sad,my heart refuse to feel any joy.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that I'm missing you like I'm missing a part of myself, while writing this poem.
Dec 2017 · 498
An ugly side of love .
Gulishta Dec 2017
LOVE....a four letter word.
It's beautiful if it's in your favour..
It's ugly if it's not.
           I've seen an ugly side of love.
It breaks you..
     Shatter you....
          Consumes you...
                   Becomes you...

It have a dark side.
  It will always be in front of your mind,
     No matter how badly you want to keep it aside.
   It will **** your soul right out of you.
It won't let you feel anything else..
Any other emotion...
joy,happiness,satisfaction, pleasure nothing.
All you can feel is it...
All you can see is it...
It will make you search for yourself over and over again.
It will make you a habitual to feel the pain.
It won't let you overcome it. .
No matter how hard you try.
It will a constant always trying to pry.

And at the end.....
You will become it.
You will be the ugly side of love.
You will be the thing you were running from.
You will be what you hated the most.
Then maybe..not loving wouldn't have been the worst.
Dec 2017 · 224
To my friend.
Gulishta Dec 2017
You like me,
As you like a film star.
You respect me,
But want to do that from afar.
You wanna have me in your life,
Not sure as what? . or how far? ?

I've got qualities you wanna have,
I'm admireable as you've said.
We're not lovers, but more than friends.
I think too much, as I've tried to understand.

Now it's clear as water,
Won't be getting any doubt.
We've fought, yelled, cried and got hurt.
Don't know what was that about.

I can't complete you,
If you don't want to be.
You are not happy,
But you wants me to be.
And I can feel your pain,
I can't help it.
Please promise me to try ,
You can overcome from it.
Dec 2017 · 181
The morning breeze.
Gulishta Dec 2017
The morning breeze. ..
        Stings on cheeks. ...
            Making them rosy red. ...
                Doing the work of caffeine fix.

Waking up from sleepy stupor....
       Floating through hairs. ....
            Making them look like the bird nest...
          
Fingers chilled. ...
    Shivering bodies...
        Chattering teeth .....
             Reminding that we're still alive.
Dec 2017 · 763
What is it??
Gulishta Dec 2017
What is it?,
That binds me to you.
What is it?,
That makes me want to be close to you.
What is it?,
That I can't resist.
What is it?,
Without which I'm ceased to exist.
What is it?,
That makes my name sounds different in your voice.
What is it?,
That makes me want to remove every distance.
What is it?
That makes me want to be yours.
What is it?,
That makes me crave these arms of yours.
What is it?,
That I'm wearing like a cloak around me.
What is it?,
That makes me forget me.
Dec 2017 · 224
Come slowly.
Gulishta Dec 2017
Under the darkness of the night.
Under the brightness of starlight.
Come slowly my love.
Come slowly.

Under the moon high up in the sky.
Hearing the mums singing the lullaby.
Come slowly my love
Come slowly.

A night without the sunrise.
A night to claim you as mine.
Come slowly my love.
Come slowly.
Dec 2017 · 238
A story.
Gulishta Dec 2017
The first time I saw him.
He had a far away look in his eyes.
I couldn't look away.
He was the most beautiful of the sights.

Next time,
He was talking with his hands.
I stood on sidewalk, tried to understand.
He looked at me, gave me a nod.
Acknowledging my presence, still leaving it alone.

It was the fifth or maybe sixth time,
then he talked.
For a second, my breathing, my heart, my world has stopped.

His eyes hypnotising.
His voice a song written just for me.
His smile made the world lit up.
And the confidence to never give up.

He was the wind,I was the dust.
floating with him,with a blind trust.
He did everthing right.
I did what I could to make our future bright.

Then he left. ..without a backward glance.
Now I'm a shell of a person. ..
Struggling to give love a second chance.
Dec 2017 · 218
Untitled
Gulishta Dec 2017
I'm sleeping or waking up??.
Whatever it is,I think it's enough.
Reaching across,
The courage to fight.
Is it worth the risk?
That's left to decide .

I'm calm or I'm numb?
I'm empty or ready to burst?
Is this peace that I'm coming from?
Or is it the eye of the storm?

This feeling that surrounds.
My feet above the ground.
I'm walking against the wind,
Every layer coming unwind.

Standing here alone,
Deciding where to go.
Wishing for someone,
To hold hands and to let go.
Dec 2017 · 258
A confession.
Gulishta Dec 2017
I have a confession.
I'm scared.
I'm overwhelmed.
I'm not thinking straight.
I've never been more afraid.
I'm losing it.
This feeling is becoming an essential.
I can't accept a partial.
It's cutting me deep.
It's making me bleed.
It's grazing on my heart.
It's tearing me apart.
It's blurring my vision.
It's raising the suspicion.
And It's becoming consuming.
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