I invite your collision
No matter how fatal
The crash might be
At least we will be
Reunited on the other
Side of Heaven

i loved you
beyond sanity
beyond common sense
i would have stolen
a ******
just to give you a child
knowing you would
have followed in
your father’s footsteps
and walked out of our lives

i dug up the plants
you forced me to tend to
turns out
they were just weeds
absorbing the water
that would have
actually created
my garden

shrouded in mystery
a quest into myself
diving into a deep state
of solitude and introspection
i see you
i know you
i am you
yet something is off
until the puzzle
that is you
reveals itself to me
i will never truly
know myself
i am calling upon
your name
from the delta
to farish street
i will forever wander
until you
show yourself
in your totality
the sorrow
the resentment
the blood
the rage
the beauty
i need to witness
all of it
i need to witness
all of it

moments like these
full of teeth and laughter
are as close as i will get
to Heaven
i never forget to
honor the blessings
that you embody
not everybody has this
not everybody knows what this is
this is home

you really got married
while my finger remains bare
i still leave
the porch light on
hoping you will
be there

i'm losing weight again
it's hard to force myself
to eat like a glutton
i'm not sad or anything
i just don't have the time
i stay on the run