No matter what I do it seems like there's nothing to impress you
all you love to do is stress me out and get in my face
and down my neck about the invisible people
you always tell me about
how you cant trust me then why do you stay
Why would you stay
If it's a constant fear a monkey on your back
While cause your own problems
When nothing's wrong I would love it if we could always get along
But you noice the peace
The bliss and joy we're having
As you stop and catch yourself your search for something to go off about
Search for something this **** this up something to break us off
This pain and ache I constantly feel
And think why do you stay
Why wouldn't you go
If this is a loveless love
Theres nothing were in holding onto
There's nothing here anymore
To say its not here anymore is and understatement
Because I truly would never know
I wouldnt be surprised if you dragged me along
Just because I was a trinket you paraded to your friends
Call me out of the room
Say we have company

Feeling everything on the inside, while feeling numb on the outside. To wear a mask I just stay quiet the more quiet you stay the more you'll see your not the only one who wears a mask at times when its needed maybe just convenient maybe its your armor and with it you feel the safest no matter the situation or the case at hand we all have choices but with this gift I know you wouldn't really care about what I said. So I saved my little bit of hope and lots of dread. I guess I rather be here unsaid, then lying in the dirt dead

Can you help me
I think I’m lost
Can you help me
What's it gonna cost
Can you help me
A helpless moth
Can you help me
All I need to do is follow you home
Can you help me
I’m nothing more than
A garden gnome
Can you help me
I can’t find my way home
Your diffrent now your tone scares me
I’m all alone
I’m far from home
I’m scared
Help me
I think he's the one to seal my tomb
Disregard my pleases for help
I’m home
Forever resting
So much I wish I done
But I was to busy stressing
Now it's to late
Is what I'm guessing
I'm happy I learned my lesson
But the session already ended

Being alone was nothing new to me
day in and day out always by myself
didn't have anybody but my shadow
with every passing hour and every new issue that occurs I'd always wonder is there something more
is there somewhere I'm needed
Someone who needs me funny I thought to think this and said no that really couldn't be
Because how could I ever be a need
Something special in someone's life
When I couldn't be special in my own eyes
Thought there's no way someone could ever need me
Because there just couldn't be
But the day finally came
But it wasn't a person
But he was my little person
Just the most special little guy
He had so much personality
He was so smart sweet and loving
And I knew what it felt to be special to someone
To have someone special
With every morning till night came
I couldn't believe the sadness and loneliness I finally overcame
And just like that in a blink of   an eye I discovered a new type of depression,sadness, anger and loneliness
The type of pain I felt when this little angel left my life
Was and always will be so unbearable
I never felt love like that
And I don't think I'll ever feel it again but I'm happy I had him when I did and I'll never forget him my pupus

A loop full of consistencies and inconsistency's
a cycle of love lust and hate
we swear we'll never love again the pains are to much to bare
than again your getting ready for your next new date
what happened to giving yourself a break
well now that's to late
onto the next
you easily let them in right past your gates
a little too soon
don't you think
you should wait
it's better now than never
why stall if you feel everything's right
Settle a date
Tie the knot
but no
Imma give myself time
Only a few hours past and your making sure everything is perfectly timed
sweating off your masterpiece that took over what seems to be forever
What will it matter when the new paint you got to change the painting that never really changes
When the painting you try to change is forever permanent

You never seem to go away your a rusty stain that never fades your the bitter odor of lust full lies and a loveless relationship we hug we snuggle and kiss this is love or is this how the script goes if you force yourself to see lies as love trust and believe it could be done

I am who I am and that's possibly someone you cant stand, someone you wont be able to demand and command Im someone who won't fall in line I was so naive than finally learned how to open my eyes I'm more important my time is more valuable than having someone for a few hours to be between my thighs I can lie say I had a good time but why spare your feelings when you didn't care to spare mine why am I giving my time to someone who spoon fed me little white lies to many guys who jumped up and down telling me what a real man is when they still live at home have money for this and that but didn't have money to pay your phone and that's why you can't call me back what's the real reason for that am I just your after lunch snack **** that keep those little memories because I ain't ever going to want you back remember all that **** you talked and how you'd fight me for loving you than,when your phone rang and you were with, just a friend, after the calls are over, its all eyes on me, but you couldn't tell anything that, it's just you and there was no we and now you can't see, it's just you, and than it's just me, I so try again, remembered I'm only a friend.