Staring at the dawn horizon...
The sun is going again, hiding beneath the sea...
Trying to reach it..
Only my arm moves, but my feet...

Wondering what was i doing in this life...
Locked up in this land by my own thought...

What i have seen this far...
And What i haven't seen....

I want to see what the sun see...
I want to be free like the sun is!
Meet the stranger that i miss!
Challenging the world!

Just wondering...
What a spectacular sight i will face later?
imagine it!...

she was an amazing friend but a horrible lover
the flame who warmed my heart but burned my soul
the calm soothing night and my darkest of fear
a rose of sweet blooming scent filled with thorns
and this from someone who's been all this to her

Your life is like a story written in a book.
Memories are like pages.
Burnt pages are forgotten.
Be careful for which pages you burn.

between good men both sinners and the saints
power in the art of compromise and trade
negotiating with no further restrictions or restraints
either with a firm handshake or a sabers blade
history obliterates in every picture it paints

Your not holding someone hand
Your holding a memory
Your not looking into the stars
Your looking at the rain
Your not dancing with someone
Your dancing with reflection

The wind gently brushes against me
As I gaze upon this vast empty sea
I feel just like the sea

Empty yet drowned in sadness
I can no longer see your smile
I can no longer feel your warmth
The tears your eyes shed

Can no longer ever be seen
We were always together
You and I are one soul solely

Like the sea and sand
We are inseparable
I shall stand here waiting for you

Call my name oh freedom wind
I will strengthen my fight
Yes I hear you on the bend
And dream of you in the night.

Oh freedom wind I know, I know
Tug at my soul and pry at my heart
My desire for you does grow
With the dawn again I start.

And as you beckon unto me
I work at the very core
To answer the call to be free
And seek those who desire more.

So freedom wind send the test  
Pry at my heart and tug at my soul
For it is in the valley of less
Where I will climb the mountain of more.

They charged into war
With power and grace
A breed of horses
Wrapped in lace
The men oh wonderful
But slayed so forceful
Oh dear my Lord, my Shepard
My fate
Many have fallen with terrible hate
The skies were grey
The Devil was paid
With the lives of the fallen
And the grace of hate
Oh such grief
It twas such grim
As death played its hymn

weathered faces and ragged men
sorrowful hurtful smiles we give them
such who wander the cold dark streets
hiding your pain tattered sheets

hoping for a soothing loving hand
to help you and understand
suffering within life's hard reality
suffering in a world of broken sanity

nameless stranger crushed so low
with eyes that watch the world grow old
perhaps someday you'll be healed
waking up in warm heavenly field

i fear that i'm ordinary just like everyone here
to lie and die among the sorrows
too tall and solid to steer
away from...

she told me she was in love
but that's all gone now
i believe in someone who could never be

she said so many things long forgotten
and i can't fault myself for being one of them
for just only being me

but i talk in code to keep from just anyone to know
what i really mean
and i was hoping that she would be
the one to know what i've always seen

i see the things ahead
i hear the words you will have said
i remember scenes that haven't happened yet
a world too big to keep inside my little head

i always stay ready to take a step
that i can't take back
singing at the top of my lungs
swinging at the fences
with no regret

but with this creativity
comes a price only i can pay
time will tell and time heals we know
yet i'm forever broken
i'm the only one left wondering
and finally knowing
how i can bring things together
to make what's great truly happen

To much rhyming
It is as if a bell is chiming
Or the wolves in the night howling
Now stop using such peculiar timing
Listen to these words, or receive a pining

i gave up patience for this about halfway through
but my love for you carried me towards to you

I am no traitor nor deserter neither a coward
with the blessing of the Father for my loyalty is my honor
to which I am willing to shed all for the banner
what more can you ask for I am here to serve and conquer
I am a Plebeian I have nothing but my will to offer
till i have reached the peak with my brothers and sisters
to march and charge with same the beat of heart over yonder
till our labors have bared fruit shall we be no longer
and if i fail and fall i shall crawl through the slaughter
never shall I leave my post with or without ponder

The mind is such a wonderous thing
It holds our memories
Those we cherish
And those we hate

Forgetfulness is such a common traits
Yet there are just some memories
No matter what will happen
We still remember

Despite the years that will have gone by
Despite the trials and troubles
We can cherished those memories
Until our end.

Though you are gone,
and no longer around,
I will never,
forget your sound.

Though you have left,
and are no longer here,
I will always,
feel you near.

Though I miss your laughter,
as you brightened up the place,
I will remember,
your smiling face.

And though I miss your hugs,
and the twinkle in your eye,
I know you'll always,
be watching from the sky.

And so I will wait,
for the glorious day,
when I see you again,
and you say, "Hey!"

Figures dancing gracefully
Through a silver storm
Across my memory
Held safe and warm
My heart yearns to remember
your lips from December

For her I love.
At first I felt thy lust you warned of
A passion so fierce and so great
I only thought of you as a mate.

But then I filled myself with hate,
You called me a ******
And you said it was never fate.
Oh why did I love you so?

But when all was lost, my heart was tossed, you were there to bring it back
You showed me the Cross.

An angel inside me smiling,
T'was you who called me darling,
A funny pause, I heard you farting
Alas, I will always love you my dear star thing.

Such youthful beauty that lies awake
In smiles that hide such a frail pale heart
grows a shadow around a glowing radiant face
weary gentle golden eyes knows no escape

many questions have been eagerly ask
yet answers come so slow to even pass
misty country fields and wondrous night sky
as crackling ember ashes scattering light

oh my tender kind simple fellows
such hearts are glaze and mellow
moonbeams rays touches the darken house
serene and silent as a church mouse

painted portraits with palettes of black and blue
starry is the nights that only few have viewed
to stay awake with life so endlessly gray
knowing well the world is a chaotic fray

dreamers tear their mournful souls away
lovers passions fades like summers day
swirling winds flow through the grassy plains
twinkling stars that kisses my sorrowful pain

glass domes
of swirling water
glittering wonder

a shimmering storm
that demands to be heard

yet delicate crystal
breaks so easily
fragile hopes and dreams
shattered time across the ground

but then flows free
vanquished walls
endless form…

what perfect timing
for when i looked up at the sky
there were lightnings everywhere

When the day is done
The horizon hides the sun
A starry night fills the sky
Look up to the heavens
In awe one may feel
The trillions of lights
Glitter down on Earth
Some may say they are ancestors
Others tell a representation of hope
But no matter the interpretation
They still strike imagination
Into everyone's hearts

i am but like the stories of fiction
but you believe me to be real
i am but a shadow in the dark
yet you see me as though i was there
i am only a fleeting dream soon to pass
yet you cling to it as a memory not to forgo
soon you will forget like a child's thought
still you talk as though time hasn't touch it so

In sweet wonder that fair dream begins one more.
That lends all that's best in our only place.
In that shade we fall from grace, we will part.
That awakens the sleeping morn.
Embrace such sweet sorrow.

A promise made,
a promise kept.
To say those words,
this is the first step.

A promise is as old as time,
made by who it was or is.
Whether they be young or old,
to be hers or his.

Keep this solemn oath,
you future generations.
Let your words be true,
and lay down the foundations.

you my dear, are the life saving rain
that cries on my drought of a heart...

It's funny, how warm thoughts are.
The times we had together,
Although now, well,
You are afar.

Even in the deep chills of winter,
Your words couldn't be sweeter,
Even if you don't speak,
I hear you.

I feel your heartbeat,
Even if you aren't near,
For you are my best friend,
Although I don't have you here.

There's beauty in your calling,
Even when I'm falling,
I a deep pit of despair,
Knowing you aren't really there.

It's been years without you,
But I can still hear your voice.
You could of stayed right here with me, but...
But...
You took the other choice.

She's sits on a chair
A tear on her cheek
looking at the world
so wide so bleak
with nothing to do
and no places to go
she wonders why am I here?
I want to know...

I know, the mesmerizing painting in the skies, I watch its every moment, I'm entranced with It,
I feel the breeze as my leaves caress each other in harmony,
I hold unto earth, my home,
Only to be, and just to become the being itself,
I am rooted in freedom as it only is, and all only are.

I am the sun, the light, the warmth
I am the clouds, the life, the silent traveler,
I am nothing to know, nothing to call,
I am you, I am you unknowingly, i am you unintentionally.

Come be nothing with me,
Forget all words, all forms,
Close your eyes, your mind to what you know
But only, just only be.

let me live a life as a name that time has now fade
where all my story written in ink now becomes faint
where my voice once heard by a few echoes and cease

You, in your corner
Me, by the window.
I wonder how it would feel
To close that gap.
Is it weird, I ask myself
with a nervous laugh.

Those intense eyes
silently gazing away,
Nobody seems to notice it
but how I wish it was me
that was reflecting in your eyes.

Smiling to yourself,
isn't that cheating, i say to myself
and i would get embarrassed
all on my own.
Ah, she's looking this way
Was I too direct?

As flowers bloom and wilt,
Our time is also fading,
You, in your corner
Me, coming nearer.
Did you finally notice,
I smile at that nervous face.

Let's leave the present
And fly to the future,
A future of you and me,
In our own corner

From ashes you rose
From light you were born
The hope that has been lost
And the darkness that has been claimed
You surrendered yourself to the worst thing
And watched your own soul sink
However it's not too late
As the day light's shine awaits
Claim your weapons
And make your escape
From the darkness you hate

It stalked through the day,
And swept through the night,
By the ports and cargo bays,
To the hangars and flights.

Through the crowded streets,
It linger so long and so far,
It crept quietly by the guards,
That it toppled the kings cards.

It started with a small cough,
That soon ****** by the lot,
It took away young and old,
Into deaths gloomy fold.

any kind of tyranny
against our democracy
will only lead to anarchy
a revolution in our century
it shall ring out in history
against corruptions insanity

if i was to rest by the banks of the river
near the old tree were the shade was nice
till i drift away to an afternoon slumber  
as the cold winds kiss me forever

Weathered faces and ragged men
Sorrowful hurtful smiles we give them
Such who wander the cold dark streets
Hiding your pain in tattered sheets

Hoping for a soothing loving hand
To help you and fully understand
Suffering within life's hard reality
Suffering in a world of broken sanity

Nameless stranger crushed so low
With eyes that watch the world grow old
Perhaps someday you'll all be healed
Waking up in warm heavenly field

The days pass quickly
The looming nights veil the world in mystery
The moon reveals nothing but a glimmer
Of what is to happen and makes the mind ponder
What is there to wonder and where shall people wander?
Be it alone or together, the night skies slowly turn
The horizon aglow with creeping orange light
Through the Days that shall never be forgotten

the honor of my standard my loyalty
where I swore my oath joyfully
I did my duty and smiled with pride
even if it means that i would die

that liberty shines bright so do not fear
sing for me though i couldn't hear
the hour is near for i am to be free
bury whats left under the willow tree

if i die today as a martyr
do not shed to much a tear
as the calm night fades to dusk
tomorrow there will be more of us

This world beautiful and addicting traps me
with the eternal smell of roses in the air,
the forever sunny skies,
the beautiful grassy fields;
but one thing is missing
the imperfections,
love, heartbreak, sadness
I stay forever trapped in this beautiful lonely world.

what made me special or better
then the rest of the crowd
what made me great or unique
to your eyes from the billions around

so tell me why
did you grab my hand
and drag me to greater heights than this

are you okay with me
are you fine with this

am I just a joke of a choice
or a mistake that you made

cause please tell me

cause I'm still in doubt
still in doubt

if you love me

You are not merely art,
you are so much more,
you are beauty,
that was never known,
by it’s own creator.

The sky is so light,
it shows it's might,
with unique space,
and heaven's grace,

Can you feel this feeling?
do you think we're dreaming?
with the shinning stars nearby,
come watch asteroids pass by,

I can stare at it forever,
I hope it lasts forever,
It's worth the endeavor,
it's full of wonder,

Reach out your hands,
reach out your hearts,
come with me and dart,
come with me and start,

Look at that planet there,
look at that lovely star glare,
it's something magnificent,
it's something pleasant,

The universe is something grand,
It's full of mysteries and unknown,
it's beautiful and painful to see,
Beneath the Starry Skies.

Time ravages you,
time takes from you,
time is the ultimate power,
time takes life from a flower,

This is the beginning,
or it could be the end,
your life is just a cycle,
as it can turn and turn,

As you start young,
as you start to grow,
as you begin to know,
as you take the stroll,

We form love,
we form relationships,
we form partnerships,
we form into destiny,

We go in pairs,
we try and dare,
we begin with flare,
we try and snare,

As we grow older,
we get colder,
we get bolder,
it's such a order,

We have young ones,
we see them grow,
we see them behold,
it brings such a tear.

If you don't know pain
You won't know life
If you don't know sadness
You won't know happiness
If you don't know darkness
You won't know light.

Remember not to forget what brought you here
To gaze upon the love of wonder, oh so distant, yet so near
And in the glow of that heavenly effervescent flow
I am filled with a heartfelt awe of things I cannot know
But yet such things that I do adore and adore still more
I stand upon this Earth, on the wisdom of no words
And let the music and its notes, unfold my deepest thoughts
Then in the beauty that is just ... just my imagination
I find it ... and I am left but starry eyed
Such a mystical sight, that thing of love and delight
and fleeting thoughts ... of a cosmic sort ...

It was years ago that we met
By the shining silver sea
Into our hearts love we let
By the shining silver sea
Two strangers together
By the shining silver sea
To love we surrender
By the shining silver sea
Both of us searching
By the shining silver sea
Our hearts they were lurching
By the shining silver sea
You took my hand
By the shining silver sea
And for once I understand
By the shining silver sea
I thought I was alone
I thought I could turn to stone
No one would know
No one would care
But...love will now grow
You and I will now bear
The trials of life not alone
We will have flown
To the shining silver sea.

i live in make believe
made of paper and ink
where the breeze whisper
and the night stays and linger

the potion and pills you give
brings fire to the world i see
ink that boils on paper tinder
turns the land to ash and cinder

pictures of patron saints hung high up on my wall
crosses and statues that look down on me
prayers and praises worshipful hymns
and a gospel quotes that shouts loud in my head  

all this idols that captures the image of holy deeds
to remind me that i am nothing short of a fool
tell me where i came from, what i will always be
tell me where my soul will end up will it still be in peace

when i am deceased and buried i won’t join their ranks
because they are both holy, wise and free as the the wind
that’s how it’ll be in the end of my long hard trip
just a small lost child who went to a catholic school

grand churches and bell towers that roar in the air
like thunder that clashes to call us all to prayer
wolves in sheep clothing join the gathering flock
not even the shepherd knows who's the devil or not

so i said make me love myself so that i might love you
don’t make me a liar to say what you think should be true
Jesus said come to me my son and let me carry your cross
but i said its fine for we both carry the same scars

the Shepard and his flock come to me with blessed chains
wearing false cloaks and hiding their true faces  
i feel the binds of the cold chains strangle my neck
making me bark and howl out their holy sacred hymns

this strangers seem familiar from another life
dark shadows that linger around with their knife
****** dolls and tainted flesh that smile with grim
wearing their mask molded clay of porcelain hidden sin

i made this ghost that lurk in my dreams
to which i chase to seek the truth i scream
painted skies that go and fade day and night
still lost in circles in this labyrinth filled of fright

sweet candy eyes and licorice hair dipped in cyanide
his gaze that pierced me bore into my mind in a paralyze
thin scarlet lips gives a cheshire smile to which he purred
a strange billow from his deceiving haunting words i heard

Torn pages upon a growing book.
The story tells with joyous tone.
But dawns on its renunciation.
Lost sight to write the future.
Swept by lack of change.

In silence, in cold, she made her way through ice and snow.
Higher and higher she went,
Higher and higher until
She fell to one knee and could walk no further.


With a bitter cough into gloves as pure as the snow beneath her,
She saw the cost of her trek,
Her heart's blood,
A shock of crimson in her hands.


Chest aflame,
Cheeks burning with loss and regret,
She forgot why she had come.


The wind fell to a low whisper,
And she heard snatches of words she remembered,
Words from a world away,
Long-etched into the trappings of her soul.


She bit back the cries in her throat
As she looked down at the blood on her hands,
Warm and bright against the sullen snow,
Cost and comfort of her dying heart.


Chest aflame,
Cheeks burning with loss and regret,
She remembered the will of her mother,
The courage of her brothers and sisters,
All fallen.
All sleeping in silence as cold as the ice at her feet.

Only she can make my lonely mad world feel right
So things maybe a bit peculiarly different tonight
We may go together in a vivid realm of cosmic flight
Filled with endless apologies of paradise trite
All this troubles seem so far, it feels like flying
within the universe but maybe I'm just slowly dying
You look quite divine among these vibrant lights
Your sweet honest lies is nothing more but pure delight
A blinding star that was meant to waltz and fall on sight
Marveling at your grace my once sweet darling sprite
It's now or never my joyful mirage in the edge of the moonlight
Now that I'm on the verge of waking at first break of daylight
Eternal through the past my sweet shining rose in the twilight
We never meant to part my dearest shimmering starlight
But every siren song ends with me missing you every night
Tranquil innocence's now tainted by bitter truth such blight
It's perfectly clear to stand here as you fade like candlelight