She finally found her roots
She found them again
She finally found her roots
She found them within

She finally found her roots
Etched deep within her skin
Echoes of her past
She found them again

You finally found your roots
Your core soul and being
You finally found your roots
You found them again

Praying every evening,
To be free from the shackles of overthinking,
By the window I contemplate,
The days of joy and reasons of sadness,
The symphony of life, a mere dream for me,
The sun rays pinching through my skin,
Setting sun no more gives me hope,
The promises are broken and I here now sit alone,
Looking at my broken pieces shattered on the floor...

In the pale swirl of winter's whisper
The lonely girl stood, resisting the urge to shiver
Slightly anxious and slightly agitated
She watched and patiently waited

With shadows stretching all around
Her ears, through their muffs listened for any sound
Then she saw something spring up from the ground
And her heart began to suddenly pound

Mirages of ice signaled his return
In excitement her stomach began to churn
But he was nowhere in sight
As minutes became hours, she felt contrite

Another year without the one she cherished
Another year he shattered what he promised
She'll retreat again, filled with spite and utterly embarrassed
But next year, she'll return again to the white forest

She's sits on a chair
A tear on her cheek
looking at the world
so wide so bleak
with nothing to do
and no places to go
she wonders why am I here?
I want to know...

The feeling of pain
The feeling of fear
The feeling of falling
And never reaching the end,
I'm still falling
I'm still here
I'm still alive
I have no fear..
I allow death to take my soul
In trauma of death isn't it all obvious....death
Isn't what I wanna fear....
I don't feel
I don't think
I don't know
When it will end
Still falling
Still fearing
Still crying
Because I never felt good enough for you
Enough to breath
Enough to live....
But
I'm still falling
And I don't know when I will hit the ground....

Back when people believe in dragons,
Guardians of the heavens beautiful sky,
Thunder and lighting that flash and roar,
The bulwark against monsters and demons,
That is what they were,

Until people slowly stopped believing in them,
And suddenly they simply forgot,
No funerals nor mourns but silence,
Now they are just fading ink and paper,
What a wondrous glorious fantasy,
That dies in our waking reality.

Monsters were there to attack us...
They the dragons protected us...
We did nothing but watch...

For her I lust
Love left unrequited
Tortured, I must;
Love that left me delighted

It started light, optimistic
Of what could've been
But alas it was a fight not altruistic
And left me in loathing sin

A beast inside was snarling
A familiar buzz, darling
A sad pause, gnarling
Alas, false, strange star thing

Don't you harden your heart,
don't you walk away,
Don't you hide from the sins you made,
Cause we're here too help you change

Don't you act like your strong,
Don't you act like you care nothing at all,
We are here to hold onto you,
so don't you dare let go

Cause when the storm rages and you lose all control,
We are here if you need a home
so take my hand it won't be too long

Would you mind coming with me?
We'll take a walk down the road of my mind.
You can feel what I feel,
Would you be that kind?

I'll take you to a place, Where the beautiful lights dance to the beats of these stars,
And as the waves of love touch our skin,
We'll feel the water curing our scars.

And back our way home, we'll pluck a black rose,
We'll keep it close to our eyes,
As a way for us to remember one day we'll all become memories,
And even the beautiful dies!
Would you come with me?

you are my stolen paradise
a radiant star that glows alight
A dream i never wanted to die
The flower that blooms in the night
My sanctuary that ended with a good bye

As the stars fade away,
Replaced by the light of day.
As the ocean covers our feet,
And the birds roam free.

I can hear my name,
Hear my name in the air,
I don’t know how it came
Don’t know from where.

I found where I am meant to be,
For your smile is all I see.
Here I am unable to let go of,
This pleasant feeling I call love.

Let us soar together endlessly,
Let us reach past our destiny,
Where our love will never die,
Just beyond the Vanilla Sky...

Oh my god in politics we trust
nothing more they can discuss
A solution that seems to be a bust
While the poor rabble in the dust
Look about slaughtered and disgust
Reasons to why people make a fuss
Some rage and ready to combust
Yet other our silent as a hush
Its people only need to adjust
To a law or order that seems to be unjust
On men we thought we could entrust

A heart of trust
Comes with faith in one
For breaking one's trust
Comes with harsh consequences

A heart of harmony
With balance within me
Like the trees in the forest
And the singing birds outside

A heart of peace
With nothing to worry
But can peace exist in this world
In today's perilous terms

A heart of loyalty
Never leaving one's side
Staying true no matter what
Even on the verge of quitting

A heart of love
To care for each other
With a heart so pure
With no trace of hate.

this strangers seem familiar from another life
dark shadows that linger around with their knife
****** dolls and tainted flesh that smile with grim
wearing their mask molded clay of porcelain hidden sin

i made this ghost that lurk in my dreams
to which i chase to seek the truth i scream
painted skies that go and fade day and night
still lost in circles in this labyrinth filled of fright

sweet candy eyes and licorice hair dipped in cyanide
his gaze that pierced me bore into my mind in a paralyze
thin scarlet lips gives a cheshire smile to which he purred
a strange billow from his deceiving haunting words i heard

no words can express the agony
of your cruelest deception
all your words are mere fantasy
believing each passionate affection

you shattered what trust i gave
I fell for your lavish charm
blind senseless by a well-versed knave
voicelessly harmed under the storm

when will I ever learn?
that you were never mine
your tricks have lured me to burn
to squander in shame and decline  

I'm not so naive to be played
I have seen strangers around you
I hear how you whisper those words
you have lusciously once said to me

Heaven forbid you make a fool
out of the one who loved you
yet you have torn it all apart
you forfeit all rights to my heart

I’m burning the memories
and those that might redeemed you
Don't step towards my direction
Your reasons and comforts are meaningless

I'm leave nothing more than this words
You can stand there if you want
Scream or be silent i couldn't careless
I have stayed longer than I should

Cheers to the youth whom are so merry, so glee,
They are at the gardens of the blessed saints,
Where they know not of the sorrow and painful fees,
That man has sinned like dark horrid disease.

Laughter and hymns have been offered,
Whilst men from the ***** think backwards,
I see no hate upon his grand rapture,
But the wolves will come to disrupt and fracture.

For we shall seek fit in the coming of the new Israel,
Opening the gates of Eden and welcomed by the angels,
Let us live like saints who left their earthly materials,
For the youthful children shall gather around the faithful.

As the youth ascends to the heavenly bodies above,
Away from the chaos and discord of the ***** below,
For he has Shepherd his flock out of pure love,
Let man see his faults before he is brought low.

Look how they act; look how they do;
like rats in a maze - ant's behind glass...
what would happen if I raised a lens;
and made them burn or tossed around
the turtle on a beach to watch him struggle?

Like watching paint dry on a wall or smell glue;
small talk so inane, insatiable, swirling brass...
What is so desirable in chosen ones;
are the stand-up puns at all so sound?
Or is it just like a hoarcrux to a muggle...

Am I nauseous, little sick or out blue;
the doctor gave up his office last
time I visited for my CAT and was gone!
Good riddance, never liked his taunt:
judging my nature with stamped ogle.

What should I wear? I got no clue;
I got nifty shades of think fast --
After all is wrapped up, Job is done;
his friends are still sour like on a haunt...
Should I stalk some books and gobble...

What would happen if I cut food
from it's source and would not taste.
Letting it rot away to behold like a drone;
how the flies gnaw away... hosting like a gaunt
to add to the deceit with eased gentle...

the phantoms of the many few
who gave everything and all
for a world that's bright and new
shall never see the world we view

So many choices
In this magnificent garden
The one you will pick
The one will take away
From the place it lives
Without warning or a farewell

Because they are beautiful
They will leave sooner
Because they are beautiful
Their petals, one by one, will fade
And die as it didn't have a beginning

But their unshed tears
Will sprout and grow new succession
youths that shall bloom with vibrant beauty
And will fill the missing places in this garden...

i have been falling in and out of love
and i seem to be heading to the floor
i'm close to fall asleep again
i hope its better than what i felt before
when i'm shattered like glass
i'll be fine like the star shards in the night
this heavy weights in my shoulder
feel a bit lighter as i crash and fly
as the alcohol numbs my shaky legs
i give in to the breeze and take flight

keep to yourself the events of the night
forget the jokes and drinks we both had
but remember the cold calm that was twilight

Sometimes holding you is harder than letting go,
Sometimes watching you  is better than talking to you,
Sometimes it's better that we never took pictures to show,
Sometimes I should have been more realistic as I grew,
Sometimes it's fine to sit apart from you than by your side,
Sometimes I still wonder why and how we met up anyway,
Sometimes I think I loved you in the past like a sweet cyanide,
Sometimes it's better we burn the memories we had that day,

I would rather be on my lonesome watching the sky turn gray,
I won't shed a tear for what I lost nor rejoice for what I gain,
Cause I know I loved you but that was just another yesterday.

i live in make believe
made of paper and ink
where the breeze whisper
and the night stays and linger

the potion and pills you give
brings fire to the world i see
ink that boils on paper tinder
turns the land to ash and cinder

eternity that's what we call it,
its not a thing, its a meaning,
its a life span of hope,
to live on another day,
to see a different light,
its a world to look forward too,
a life to look forward to,
to know you have found....eternity

can you please tell me again..
the words you said back then
about how much i meant to you
about how your love was true

can you please tell me again..
that dreams do come true
that if i wish to be with you
it's just a matter of time for me and you..

will you tell me our story
and the things i've already forgotten
will you take my hand again
even without my memories,

and maybe, start all over again..?

can you please tell me again
tell me over and over
again and again.. and again
until i remember all of them....

It's growing like a cancer
corruption in the nation
we need a solution, an answer
to address this grave question

our soul and democracy
our leaders and their hypocrisy

I see sphere of moonlight glowing far
It shines in the night like a living star
Pulsing with my heartbeat
Shining with my joy
You will always be here
As will I
For if I leave I know I will cry
So I ask the world
Make it so I can never say goodbye

you saw her smile glow so bright
you stare in such daze and delight
my heart that sings a beat aloud:
you lover her, you do
as she passes among the crowd
fills your soul with such blaze
such a sight to be praised
yet it's not enough, it was never enough.
you are allowed to watch her go
to see her off with the shadows alone
this are but illusions a trick of the mind,
as the sun devoured her away
to count the constellations
upon her wandering eyes
as they slowly fade out in a single day
for the tragedy was that
you were too late
for you have lost her

I'm depress yet you say I'm overreacting
you see my tears and cuts yet you say it's for attention
you tell me I'm wrong even when we all know I'm right
it's my life, just a cycle of pain and regrets
it's not selfish of me to take my own life
after I'm dead it won't matter who I hurt
I bet you never saw the signs
everything will be over, I will be gone
I won't have to worry about everything
I will cease to exist so will this anguish
only god can come and save me
but I don't even feel his presence
it's as if he is only silently watching the scene

if every blade would undo my sins
i would cut a bit deeper
i would bleed a bit more
till i feel alright for you

hair flamed brazen with rose ember
days long have past since
yet i still watch and remember
the winter days of  December
my warmth from the bitter weather

I'm so tired but I can't rest nor sleep
Standing' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot utter a word
We scream from within, but we can never be heard

To the vanishing point.
To step over bounds.
To pass limits not thought possible.
To escape the wayward path of life.
That is what it means, to achieve dreams.

It is all beyond the Vanishing Point.
So set sail through the raging oceans.
hike that treacherous beaten path.
For all the greats have before.
Where the sky and land meet.
Where two sides are the same.

Let's dance the night away.
Forget our troubles.
Forget those around us for few seconds.
Hold my hand don't be afraid.
I will lead and guide. Don't be shy.
You're all I ever dreamed of and ever wanted.
Let's let this moment Last for ever.
Just say you'll be mine...
and I'll be yours

when dawn meets the twilight dusk
where stars still shine and linger
whispering words of gentle gust
my heart flamed by your sweet tinder

I see gentle waters and silence
more dangerous than those disturb
it is often the quiet that brings out the terror
the anxiety that drowns as in anticipation
of our own despair and unknowing sorrows
even if I drift and float by the safe shores
Its wave will carry me away to the depths
even if I struggle I will eventually sink

you gave me a second chance in life
you ask do I regret being alive
you were afraid i would say yes

with the sins I did
the horrors I've seen

the moment you saw me at the edge
there was nothing that held me back
the thoughts I had was that of peace

yet you held me with your embrace
was it sympathy or was it love
you asked me not to leave again
I smiled and sighed okay then

I hear a dark voice
Every time I remember
I feel it rejoice
My sanity it dismembers

Spinning and falling
Down a deep dark hole
A past sad and appalling
I hear the voice take control

I scream and shout
Weeps followed by wails
As melancholy breaks out
I try to stop it; to no avail

The voice coos
Filled with pity and gloom
I was a bird; used and abused
Shot down by my doom

Now I sit here a victim
Cold, lying in the silence
Insanity a symptom
Of my internal war of violence

Numb and dead on the inside
Crouched in fear
My heart races as I try to hide
Oh why can't I disappear?

As the dark voice takes form
I can only stand frozen
The man from whom I was born
A monster I know him

You and me we always gaze at the skies
But seating beside you was nothing but a lie
You said you loved me
But you only needed to be free
Being with me made you smile so bright
But nothing in those smiles was right
You were a nothing but a fake
A fake was all you made
You only needed to run away from the horrible world
So you decided to play with my feelings for who knows what worth
And now I sit on top of the hill
Oh how I wish for you to be here
I was a fool to fall in love with someone like you
You, who lied and not true
Now, I need someone to be by my side too
I need one, so can that be you?

How heavy and costly the price of freedom,
Where a shepherd must tend his flocks,
and at times, fight off the wolves.

Everyone wants to be a patriot, till it's time act upon it,
to separate the wheat from the chaff.

When it's your turn to answer the Call of Duty...

Will you?

she wrote sweet poems
she captures the light of day
and the coldness of the night
as her words waltz to her song
she claims she loves me
but in those script filled sea
she never once mentioned me
for those words once belong to me

all this past impressions
have certain perception
full of special exemption
judge by many expectations

this fading beats of my heart
some stars are fated to fall
trapped in the living as some depart
dry tears and howling moans I reap

my senses lost to the absurd
enduring patience within my soul
broken voices singing unheard
breezes that beckon for eternal sleep

slumber can't keep us in its bounds too long
mornings like this brings hope for the day
enjoying the dawns rising light and warmth
not trying to reason or think about this
just surrendering to instinct
understanding my true self among the silhouettes
that wanders in the corridors of my busy mind
yet moments like this never last too long

a picture frame made just for two
a portrait hanged yet left to dust
promises made of lies that's true
for even memories that seem to rust
can catch ablaze among dust and ash

Raging tropical storms lay true romance to waste
spilled wine seeps and grapes rot on withering vines.
True, chosen few approve of its new bitter taste
even honesty must reluctantly pay heavy fines
nothing more than harsh showers that make us scream
the whispers that ripple and flux from strangers
secret affairs we hold in our rosy charms and schemes
words that we play deceive us that can never be amend

She walks, covered in scars.
Forcing herself to never look back,
To never see the lives she took away.
To never see the once beautiful skies,
that was now littered in grey.
Her brooch, weighing her down,
The forest green eyes, she longs to see.
As time dances before her,
she stands, alone.
Quiet, and still.
Like that of a broken clock.

Acting like a clown, just to hear her laugh
The sound of it is melodic, but she pities him on his behalf
Still he tries, offering the thoughts on his mind
She smiles and thinks he's kind

Late at night they always talk
Early at dawn they always walk
Carrying her stuff is a burden he likes
Just so they can go on many more hikes

Holding the umbrella, so she doesn't get wet
In his heart, she'll never have to owe him a debt
On that morning, when the rain falls slow
Her beauty is stunning, and is reflected in the water below

What he doesn't realize, for love has made him blind
Is that her heart pays him no mind
Her head was in fact turned the other way
To gaze at someone else across the pathway
Her heart was for another, and it tore him in two
He thought that his love had been true

But love has made him blind, so he continues to be kind
If only to be close to her, he has made himself confined
Yet deep in his mind, he still does not care
Because when he sees her, no one else can compare.

The latests seconds I'm living
In this pain, it's hurting me
Now I have to tell you, the story
That you and I lived and which one I'm leaving

Thank you, deep in mine
For the happiness you shared
For the hope you gave
I have to say goodbye

And I have the hope that you will
My friends, we know it
What life is going to happened
So many doors for you opened

The sunshine in my broken eyes
Will not be longer
Deep in my heart
I will disapear because it dies

My friends, my love, my heart
It plunged me into the hurt
My house, my life, my mind
I"m loosing all but not you behind

we may be bonded to our chains
but our voices shall not be silence
we shall scream till all our finally free

If the world were a game of chess,
And I but a lowly pawn,
Such joy would become
Of the part of unknown

If each and every star
Formed a drawing each night
That no artist can ever conjure
As he draws up his canvas

If there be a world,
A magnificent one,
Where all the things come to align
All the hate I've come to love

If there be another you somewhere out there
Would you still like roses,
Or still love sweets,
And also me?

If there be truly another you, hopefully
In that other world, I would not make
The same mistake,
Of falling for my thoughts of you

For thou sweet a bird, to be locked in a cage
And I, your prisoner in an imprisoned mind
Will set you free
And kiss you one last time

I fell for the you, the one who has been
Instead of the you now, all so different
And cold, as I am, yet
If there be another world out there,

We both know, that what I truly wished for on a falling star,
Was for another chance