I'm leaning waaaay out
Over the crumbling edge
Toes teetering precariously
Perched upon the ledge

Long gaze lingering
On the nothingness below
Longing for the plunge

As I joyfully let go


Momentum surges forward
At last, here comes relief



But suddenly I stop
In suspended disbelief


Vice grip on my shoulders
Mysterious force reaches out
I'm stuck staring downward
Upon my desired route


I yearn for release
I ache to take the leap


But Insomnia won't set me free
To plummet into Sleep

Got those early week blues
So please won't you grace
Me with something funny
To put a smile on my face

A feel-good story
Or a friendly life tip
Your best one-liner
Or a clever quip

I just want to laugh
I just want to grin
And against despondency
I just want a win

A cheerful heart is good medicine
Just what the Doctor prescribes
So let's help each other out
With some positive vibes

I don’t have to wake up too early
I get to

I don’t have to go to work
I get to

I don’t have to deal with my neighbors
I get to

I don’t have to eat a healthy dinner
I get to

I don’t have to call my parents
I get to

I don’t have to wash the dishes
sweep the floors
feed the pets
hang the laundry
scrub the toilet
I get to

I don’t have to pack her lunch
with a smile
and a lovely note
I get to

I don’t have to do
the things I dread
or the things I love
I get to

I don’t have to keep on living

I get to!

so effing hot today

my skin melting
fat crackling
muscles sizzling
flesh evaporating
bones cracking
skeleton crumbling
burning down
to glowing embers

even my ashes echoing
lamenting the heat

Holy words tell me
If you wanna find your life
You first gotta lose it
But I need you to sell me
On how the pain gives meaning
I need you to prove it

Cause now it just hurts
I can't believe I lost him
He's gone
We checked all the right boxes
Made all the right moves
He a worthy king
But I a lowly pawn

I've lost the one I love
And just as much
I feel I've lost my life
So what words from above
Can heal the hurt
Overcome the strife?

What's left to be found?
I treasure nothing anymore
Those holy words ring hollow
Don't tell me what's in store

And yet

I remain strong
Though I so deeply long
To hold him again
For even a day
I let him go freely
And I know
It's true what they say
All will be right

So now I just pray
To endure this long night
With a hope shining bright
That tomorrow
I'll find my way

For things we lose
Have a strange way
Of coming back again
So in the end
The loss will be
Worth the pain
To jumpstart
This breakaway