My ears still hurt from
all the lies you used
to whisper

Cover me with your blanket
my shelter from the pouring rain
from the dark clouds
ready to bring their thunder
a thunderstorm is coming
cover me, blanket
tuck me in tenderly
calm me down
with the sound of your
beating heart
caress my hair
while you leave
kisses on my forehead

Sometimes
I wish I wasn’t born
ever thought of
so I wouldn’t 
have to endure
put through all
this pain or
all these storms 
that are in my mind

Seems like I forgot
what it feels like
to live

what does it even
mean to have fun, I
dont know

how does a true laugh
feel like, I seem to have
forgot

It's difficult to look
at happy faces, when
your life is ruined

The laugh you make
when I make you shiver
Is the purest and
most beautiful thing
I’ve ever heard
it makes me tremble
with excitement inside

Don’t think that
your words can pull me
closer to you

Don’t think that
your smiles does
the hard work

Don’t you dare think
I would’ve stayed just
because of how you made me feel

I dream about being in love
the longing for wearing your lips
the holding and touching
hands traveling to discover
every single part of you
while breathing in the same
sweet strawberry air as you

I dream about being so consumed with you
that all that never really mattered
fades away as the
pink cotton candy clouds appear
a love so deep
I almost can’t believe
that you’re only a dream

burning up on the inside
like a house on fire
it's too late now

let it burn to the ground
you can't stop the flames
cry it out and say your goodbyes

at the end let's rebuild
make it better than before
this is my growth

when it's snowing heavily
kiss me till it's over
and we're covered in white crystals

Like a feather in the wind
let me follow you wherever you go

Like a dark cloud on a rainy day
let me shower you with my love

Like a beam of sunlight
let me brighten your day

Like a snowflake on your cheek
let me give you chills

If I gave you my heart
are you a hearteater
or a heartprotecter?

If I gave you all of me
are you a destroyer
or a builder?

If I gave you the world
are you the devil himself
or an angel?

The sad truth is
If you love me
I won’t even be sure
If I love you back

The sad truth is
If you want me
I can’t even let you
I’m not sure what I want

The sad truth is
if you leave
I won’t even feel sad
I’m too broken for love

I don’t mind
getting lost
in those eyes
in your existence
******* away
by your charm
catch me
with your
gentle hands
getting lost
got a whole
new meaning

Your lack of expressions
told me a lot about you

Every night
I look up at the stars
remembering how it was
how awful I felt

Every night
I look up at the moon
remembering your sweet face
that was never really mine

Every night
I look up at the dark clouds
remembering all the tears I shed
how I was drowning in sorrow

Every night
I look up at the sky
remembering being consumed by your darkness
and how it almost killed me

It was on a Monday afternoon
determined and scared to death
I didn’t want things to end
at least not like this
but you gave me no choice
I've never been happier
when I was with you
but i'm more than just an option
It’s over now, I left before you
sitting on my living room floor
silent, empty and alone
tears running down my face
what a relief but at the same time
I’ve never felt this lost
wanting to call just to hear
your voice
find comfort
but we are no more
I let you go now
go be with her

I hate how
I let you treat me

I hate how
okay I was with everything

I hate how
I put your needs above mine

I hate how
you made me feel

I hate how
much I loved you
even when you didn't deserve it