Sinking, sinking into – thought loops, swaying back and forth and falling out of tune.
Thinking back to, when I found you, drifting out to space and losing altitude.
Faintly fading – faster – farther each year, though I still remember when you used to be here.
Wondering what would happen if I screamed.
Out of key, you lost yourself, in your dreams.
off beat.
****.
Offbeat, lost rhythm, you’re not fine.
Repeat, retreat – into your dying mind.
Asleep – not waking up this time.
Distanced Human, disillusioned to no end.
Distanced Human, I will always call you “friend”

Only those who care for you can hear you when you’re silent

Idle time away
Consume the day
And find a reason
To drift away

I continue asking
"Why does this keep happening?"
As if I don't know
That I'm the problem

You let a good one go

It’s not that I want to
It’s not that I crave an ending
More so that if it were to happen
Sooner than later
I’d be happy
Knowing what I know
And experiencing all I have
Finally feels like enough
Sure there’s more
And I’ll continue for now
But you can take me at any moment
You like

I can't help but grin
At how tragic things have become
I wish I had the opportunity to find out if this could have survived
But before we know it
You'll be gone
And I'll still be here
The way Ive always been

These things were never meant for me
And I ache from clawing at the ground
As time pulls me away from those moments
Anything to stay
Anything to numb
Anything to encourage ignorance

Anything to to avoid being alone

If I was in a better place
Maybe things would have worked out

Are these emotions misplaced?
Has it been present all along?
I wish we could find out
Maybe we will
Just not together

We were meant to destroy eachother

Writers block
Blocks building complexes
That will soon decay
And when the structure falls
When nothing is left
You can write again